i just dont understand why ppl dont think of the future when something bad happen
instead they just blast someone about the past and question why things were not supposed to be
now after blasting me, hurting me with ur words, treated me like a punching bag for ur words to just vent ur anger i am supposed to pretend like nothing happened and start talking to you. I am so sad that such a thing happen. So what! u start praying 5 times a day, so wat! u got cancer, so wat! u got some funny stupid diease that ur suffering, so what! ur going to die, does it make any diff if u just blasted me about why i didnt do this didnt do that when we were supposed to think of the contigency plan.
crap!! Bullshit!!everybody is now thinking of themself, money, de-stressing with GFs, not letting u noe whats happening behind ur back, ARMY, family.
ppl just dont understand that we have so many superiors to satisfy and load to carry and live on to ur name. i think is all coming back, PPL JUST PRESUME ME THATS ALL.
Friday, December 08, 2006
Sunday, December 03, 2006
u pick on someone's mistake, does that mean u dont perform such mistakes?
u criticise others but are u having that additional feature others dont?
ur in a relationship and ur partner seems to be too good for the other but yet love him/her, how?
ur friend just passed away, what do you do to his handphone number?
ur angry and frustrated but u can't vent temper how?
many thoughts, i also dunno how.
11 mths to ORD and i am beginning to ponder about this future of mine.
relationship has last for 6 mths and still lasting.....
wonder how it feels to hit the 1 year anniversary
went back to skool to do a hosting job
got paid 200 bucks for only 4 hours
less familiar faces seen around
got criticise for being a racist
i really wonder which side i am racist towards with
not to say malays are stupid
but they just dont think of the words before they spit
racism, vulgarities and criticism
thats what most of them know
is this the modern generation of the malay society
crappy entry again and again
i just dunno how i could type out this whole stupid essay
if u think is nice if u think is morally correct
tag ur feelings on my pathetic board
ok this is the end of my entry
should i just type THE END or should i just close my window......
u criticise others but are u having that additional feature others dont?
ur in a relationship and ur partner seems to be too good for the other but yet love him/her, how?
ur friend just passed away, what do you do to his handphone number?
ur angry and frustrated but u can't vent temper how?
many thoughts, i also dunno how.
11 mths to ORD and i am beginning to ponder about this future of mine.
relationship has last for 6 mths and still lasting.....
wonder how it feels to hit the 1 year anniversary
went back to skool to do a hosting job
got paid 200 bucks for only 4 hours
less familiar faces seen around
got criticise for being a racist
i really wonder which side i am racist towards with
not to say malays are stupid
but they just dont think of the words before they spit
racism, vulgarities and criticism
thats what most of them know
is this the modern generation of the malay society
crappy entry again and again
i just dunno how i could type out this whole stupid essay
if u think is nice if u think is morally correct
tag ur feelings on my pathetic board
ok this is the end of my entry
should i just type THE END or should i just close my window......
Friday, November 10, 2006
*&^%$#@!@#$%^&*
Hi Guys, I just discovered Mr Brown Site and was laughing to thier feeds . Ok i can hear the callings of loser, kental, slow hahhhaha fine call me wat ever u want coz names are just names.
Hmmm something is bothering me and i dunno wat it is. Seriusly i feel weird and stupidly idiotic sometimes and i dunno wat it is. But sometimes i also feel that i am sick and tired of everything around me.
i dunno is like everyone around me depend on me so that they can move on with life. i dunno about myself. I now have a wonderful Gf, a Sgt now and a 22 year old adult but has things move on? have i become more matured? do i see things in a different perspective? am i successful? am i on the right path?
many questions, many pathetic questions of my life. I guess i didnt plan it well if u can say it. I dunno how to measure success in my life, i have no motivation in life, i have no goals, i dont have ambition. Everything for me, is just going with the flow. Maybe is this monotonous flow is not right for me........
dah lah malas ah i am super lazy ah to do things........
Hmmm something is bothering me and i dunno wat it is. Seriusly i feel weird and stupidly idiotic sometimes and i dunno wat it is. But sometimes i also feel that i am sick and tired of everything around me.
i dunno is like everyone around me depend on me so that they can move on with life. i dunno about myself. I now have a wonderful Gf, a Sgt now and a 22 year old adult but has things move on? have i become more matured? do i see things in a different perspective? am i successful? am i on the right path?
many questions, many pathetic questions of my life. I guess i didnt plan it well if u can say it. I dunno how to measure success in my life, i have no motivation in life, i have no goals, i dont have ambition. Everything for me, is just going with the flow. Maybe is this monotonous flow is not right for me........
dah lah malas ah i am super lazy ah to do things........
Friday, October 27, 2006
These past few months has been an emotional roller coaster ride for me. The lost of my Grandfather, my dad being diagnosed for Colon Cancer, my brother irritating attidude and me being sick, just makes me wonder how life is so miserable. Though i shouldnt complain much because there might be someone who is in a severe situation than me, this cannot be helped due to the nature of where i am living and as a true, not proud Singaporean who complain every single minute of the day, i guess thats how i am going to be, for now.
Hmmm.....brief news about my Dad and his cancer. He went for an operation to remove a 7 by 11 CM long tumour on his lower part of his colon located nearby his appendicts. It was really painful to see him suffer in pain and also with his family members which are my uncles and aunties still fighting over pride, money and alliances among themselves,is really disheartening i guess for my dad too. Thankfully my Mom's family stood by the family and gave us heart warming, encouraging words.
Last week, we went for his scheduled appointment, the one we have been anxiously waiting for. Is during this consultation than the doctor would inform us what stage my Dad cancer would be. Thankfully, the results out and he has Stage 3 cancer but he needs to go for Cancer treatment which would range from Chemo-therapy or just oral taking pills. This would onli be finalised on the 7th Nov but dam i've got duty on that day. haiz........
These few days too have been quite bad for me. i have not been feeling well, dunno y, maybe is either i have a weak immune system of wait maybe i haven been eating much rice. Hhahaha oh yesss....ever since i finish puasa, i had difficulties eating rice
so every day my diet would be just meat and vegetables. Kool ah....
Hah! and another big news that saddens me worst is my band. I can officially consider that is disbanded and given up hope in trying to get the band to jam. Sometimes, human beings are contradicting creatures that potray one and be another one. Human beings too cant just put aside whatever differences and work togther towards a common goal.....haiz guess no more gigs for me....no more weird costumes and no more naked butts......
Ok for the better things in Life, 1st would be my ever loving GF. She gave me a 2GB Creative Zen Vplus. This was my belated Bday Present and i really liked it alot....though i was kinda angry that she bought something expensive for me but upon looking at it i told myself this was a gem dat i must keep and treasure like the person herself. Ok now for her Bday which was on the 22nd Oct, i brought her to Mount Faber and we took a Cable Car ride to Sentosa and back. The view was filled lights of the surrounding buildings which was quite nice.
Honestly speaking i am kinda disappointed at myself because i didnt get a cake for her which i wanted to and also i wanted to do Fine Dinning with her in the cable car but in the end nothing, it was all down to just that simple ride thats all. Haiz, it seems like i cannot make things wonderful for her though she never complains about it and with her constant praise about the whole thing i just think that sometimes i was never good enough for her or maybe with her Xbfs.
Oh and to annouce to the whole world, the army personnel now address me as SGT KHAIRUL hahhahhah......i am a 3SG now. So with the power of a 3SG which is extremely mini i seize the power and apply it to those who are vulnerable and weaker than me in terms of rank hahhahah here i come.........beware of the 3SGT Crazy but in love FeLLa
Hmmm.....brief news about my Dad and his cancer. He went for an operation to remove a 7 by 11 CM long tumour on his lower part of his colon located nearby his appendicts. It was really painful to see him suffer in pain and also with his family members which are my uncles and aunties still fighting over pride, money and alliances among themselves,is really disheartening i guess for my dad too. Thankfully my Mom's family stood by the family and gave us heart warming, encouraging words.
Last week, we went for his scheduled appointment, the one we have been anxiously waiting for. Is during this consultation than the doctor would inform us what stage my Dad cancer would be. Thankfully, the results out and he has Stage 3 cancer but he needs to go for Cancer treatment which would range from Chemo-therapy or just oral taking pills. This would onli be finalised on the 7th Nov but dam i've got duty on that day. haiz........
These few days too have been quite bad for me. i have not been feeling well, dunno y, maybe is either i have a weak immune system of wait maybe i haven been eating much rice. Hhahaha oh yesss....ever since i finish puasa, i had difficulties eating rice
so every day my diet would be just meat and vegetables. Kool ah....
Hah! and another big news that saddens me worst is my band. I can officially consider that is disbanded and given up hope in trying to get the band to jam. Sometimes, human beings are contradicting creatures that potray one and be another one. Human beings too cant just put aside whatever differences and work togther towards a common goal.....haiz guess no more gigs for me....no more weird costumes and no more naked butts......
Ok for the better things in Life, 1st would be my ever loving GF. She gave me a 2GB Creative Zen Vplus. This was my belated Bday Present and i really liked it alot....though i was kinda angry that she bought something expensive for me but upon looking at it i told myself this was a gem dat i must keep and treasure like the person herself. Ok now for her Bday which was on the 22nd Oct, i brought her to Mount Faber and we took a Cable Car ride to Sentosa and back. The view was filled lights of the surrounding buildings which was quite nice.
Honestly speaking i am kinda disappointed at myself because i didnt get a cake for her which i wanted to and also i wanted to do Fine Dinning with her in the cable car but in the end nothing, it was all down to just that simple ride thats all. Haiz, it seems like i cannot make things wonderful for her though she never complains about it and with her constant praise about the whole thing i just think that sometimes i was never good enough for her or maybe with her Xbfs.
Oh and to annouce to the whole world, the army personnel now address me as SGT KHAIRUL hahhahhah......i am a 3SG now. So with the power of a 3SG which is extremely mini i seize the power and apply it to those who are vulnerable and weaker than me in terms of rank hahhahah here i come.........beware of the 3SGT Crazy but in love FeLLa
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
................Baby i miss you...............
The time past slow
My body aches
This mind fickled
and the soul is castaway
This mind fickled
and the soul is castaway
Work accumulating
sense of ugency all gone
tmr going for outfield
will be back late in the night
two more days to see the one
sense of ugency all gone
tmr going for outfield
will be back late in the night
two more days to see the one
my mesmerable lover
my sweetheart of mine
cant wait cant wait to spend time
peaceful and loving moments
with u Oh darling baby
my sayang
my sweetheart of mine
cant wait cant wait to spend time
peaceful and loving moments
with u Oh darling baby
my sayang
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Hectic Mixed Emotions Week
On the 18th of September, my ah gong passed away. He had a heart attack while he was at home. I was there seeing my Ah Gong heart beat dropped from 60 to 20 and 0. Though i was not close with him, the ppl around me were all teary but the most saddening part was that my Grandma was not able to see his heartbeat dropped. She was outside being console by our other relatives. She only got the news when my mom walked out and told her Mom, my grandma that Father is Gone. The look of my Grandma face was so sad that i too feel like crying but i hold back my tears.
the following day, i escape from sadness and meet up with my GF.....to celebrate my Bday. I knew she planned something but i told her dat i was not in the mood for any surprises so she told me her plans and i tried to make time for what she had planned for me. She picked me up with her close GF kiki where she brought me down to goodwood park hotel. Along the way in the cab, she showed me a video which u can view it here. It made me tear but i had to be strong and hold back my tears coz i dont like to cry infront of ppl cause is very embarrasing. Any way i didnt see that coming but it was really nice and i liked it.
At Goodwood Park Hotel, she ordered my fav cake which was Black Forest Cake. I like the black forest cake at Goodwood park hotel so she decided to get my cake from there. I was abit angry cause it would cost a bomb and i never had an expensive cake b4 which was inmaterial to me and also happy that she made an effort to go buy for me my fav cake which was mouth watering. From there we head down to Borders where i celebrated with my Close buddies, Ahmad, Yan GF and the Muh'S/Z'ins. It was realli nice to celebrate together with ur friends and forget wat happened. Later, we head down to Pizza Hut at Lucky Plaza and dine in for dinner. I was there non stopping critizing Syaf for her fetilized and fermentated milk. After dinner, they head home, my GF brought me to watch Movie the Pulse with her GF kiki.
The show was not scary at all but kiki was shocked and scared, she was literally screaming out of her seats due to the shocking part and also where the Ghost came crawling out from the washing machine.After the movie, went to her dorm to overnight there.
The next following days were spend at the wake, playing taiti. It was realli tiring because you had to entertain most of the visitors and also heheheh i brought my GF to the wake and introduction everyone to her. From my Grandma to my youngest cousin who commented that her hair got boogie hahhah which was cute. Her expression was also hahhhhaha, everytime i introduction her to one person of that table, she would like smile to everyone and shake everybody's hand hahahhaha so cute......
Any way now my mom and dad seen her and has no complains i guess i am on a ok path with her. The last day of the wake was the most saddest part of my life. This was my first time seeing a non muslim ceremony so it was eye opening and also saddening. When the body left the wake for church, my grandma wailed. It was the first time i see her wailed and i was beside her so the only thing i could do was hug her and console her. Later we had to trail the van which was carry the casket, during this trail, ppl start to cry again and my younger cousins were like crying so loudly my goodness my eyes start tearing....but with a few short deep breaths i manage to control them again. Now we were all heading to the crematorium.
i have never been to a crematroium b4 or never heard of wat and how things go by inside onli til this day where i found out how much sadness and pain are shelter in this well furbished "chalet". for the first time i get to see my Ah gong from with limbs and meat going to burned into ashes. Seeing him go thru down the aisle and with a door opening infront and when the oven door starts to open and u can see the fire burning inside, i was realli tearing in pain for my ah gong but i hold back my tears. Even in the muslim world no matter how close dat deceased person u are with hold back ur tears dont let the deceased be sad and thats wat i did. After the whole thing my bro teared badly and i gave him a hug hehehehhehe.......
the following day, i escape from sadness and meet up with my GF.....to celebrate my Bday. I knew she planned something but i told her dat i was not in the mood for any surprises so she told me her plans and i tried to make time for what she had planned for me. She picked me up with her close GF kiki where she brought me down to goodwood park hotel. Along the way in the cab, she showed me a video which u can view it here. It made me tear but i had to be strong and hold back my tears coz i dont like to cry infront of ppl cause is very embarrasing. Any way i didnt see that coming but it was really nice and i liked it.
At Goodwood Park Hotel, she ordered my fav cake which was Black Forest Cake. I like the black forest cake at Goodwood park hotel so she decided to get my cake from there. I was abit angry cause it would cost a bomb and i never had an expensive cake b4 which was inmaterial to me and also happy that she made an effort to go buy for me my fav cake which was mouth watering. From there we head down to Borders where i celebrated with my Close buddies, Ahmad, Yan GF and the Muh'S/Z'ins. It was realli nice to celebrate together with ur friends and forget wat happened. Later, we head down to Pizza Hut at Lucky Plaza and dine in for dinner. I was there non stopping critizing Syaf for her fetilized and fermentated milk. After dinner, they head home, my GF brought me to watch Movie the Pulse with her GF kiki.
The show was not scary at all but kiki was shocked and scared, she was literally screaming out of her seats due to the shocking part and also where the Ghost came crawling out from the washing machine.After the movie, went to her dorm to overnight there.
The next following days were spend at the wake, playing taiti. It was realli tiring because you had to entertain most of the visitors and also heheheh i brought my GF to the wake and introduction everyone to her. From my Grandma to my youngest cousin who commented that her hair got boogie hahhah which was cute. Her expression was also hahhhhaha, everytime i introduction her to one person of that table, she would like smile to everyone and shake everybody's hand hahahhaha so cute......
Any way now my mom and dad seen her and has no complains i guess i am on a ok path with her. The last day of the wake was the most saddest part of my life. This was my first time seeing a non muslim ceremony so it was eye opening and also saddening. When the body left the wake for church, my grandma wailed. It was the first time i see her wailed and i was beside her so the only thing i could do was hug her and console her. Later we had to trail the van which was carry the casket, during this trail, ppl start to cry again and my younger cousins were like crying so loudly my goodness my eyes start tearing....but with a few short deep breaths i manage to control them again. Now we were all heading to the crematorium.
i have never been to a crematroium b4 or never heard of wat and how things go by inside onli til this day where i found out how much sadness and pain are shelter in this well furbished "chalet". for the first time i get to see my Ah gong from with limbs and meat going to burned into ashes. Seeing him go thru down the aisle and with a door opening infront and when the oven door starts to open and u can see the fire burning inside, i was realli tearing in pain for my ah gong but i hold back my tears. Even in the muslim world no matter how close dat deceased person u are with hold back ur tears dont let the deceased be sad and thats wat i did. After the whole thing my bro teared badly and i gave him a hug hehehehhehe.......
haiz....wat a week.....
but thank you everyone who wished me and those who i never replied i am so sorry
but most importantly i must thank
my love my baby for being there with me
and also for tolerating some of my stupid nonsense
i love you sayang from the bottom of my heart
ps:if my spelling or grammar sucks to the max thank you very much for picking up my mistakes.
but thank you everyone who wished me and those who i never replied i am so sorry
but most importantly i must thank
my love my baby for being there with me
and also for tolerating some of my stupid nonsense
i love you sayang from the bottom of my heart
ps:if my spelling or grammar sucks to the max thank you very much for picking up my mistakes.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
33 THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO DO WITH YOU
Marinah baby dear!!!!
The 33 things that i would like to do with you.
Present
1. Hold your hands
2. Kiss your lips
3. Let you rest your shoulder on me
4. Hug you
5. Comb your hair
6. Smell you
7. Hang out with you
8. Share an ice-cream with you
9. Make your head spin
10. Shopping together
11. Chatting on the phone
Working Adults
12. Pick you up from work in a Car
13. Comment on your cooking
14. Bring you on a romantic cruise
15. Send flowers to your office on special occasions
16. Have Dinner with our parents
17. Share the same bed with you to sleep
18. Make breakfast for each other
19. Reminding you not to work too hard and dont neglect your health
20. Caring for juniors of you and me
21. Volunteers at House of Rabbit on Sunday Morning
22. Exercising with you
Golden Years
23. Admiring our grown up children together
24. Cuddling with our grandsons
25. Picnic at all our "PAH TOH" sites during our younger days
26. Lazing at Home with you beside me
27. Own big backyard for our rabbits to run around
28. Walk down botanical gardens with you
29. Looking back our memories through our photos
30. Share our special moments to our GrandChildren
31. Walk down the beach with you in my arms side by side
32. Supporting each other while walking
33. Dying together
I LOVE YOU SAYANG........
The 33 things that i would like to do with you.
Present
1. Hold your hands
2. Kiss your lips
3. Let you rest your shoulder on me
4. Hug you
5. Comb your hair
6. Smell you
7. Hang out with you
8. Share an ice-cream with you
9. Make your head spin
10. Shopping together
11. Chatting on the phone
Working Adults
12. Pick you up from work in a Car
13. Comment on your cooking
14. Bring you on a romantic cruise
15. Send flowers to your office on special occasions
16. Have Dinner with our parents
17. Share the same bed with you to sleep
18. Make breakfast for each other
19. Reminding you not to work too hard and dont neglect your health
20. Caring for juniors of you and me
21. Volunteers at House of Rabbit on Sunday Morning
22. Exercising with you
Golden Years
23. Admiring our grown up children together
24. Cuddling with our grandsons
25. Picnic at all our "PAH TOH" sites during our younger days
26. Lazing at Home with you beside me
27. Own big backyard for our rabbits to run around
28. Walk down botanical gardens with you
29. Looking back our memories through our photos
30. Share our special moments to our GrandChildren
31. Walk down the beach with you in my arms side by side
32. Supporting each other while walking
33. Dying together
I LOVE YOU SAYANG........
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
something
something is repeating again in this moment of life
i shall not say it
i shall not discussed it
but the feeling is so strong
it seems like history is repeating itself
should i be angry or should i be sad
or should i just dont bother and forget about it
i shall not say it
i shall not discussed it
but the feeling is so strong
it seems like history is repeating itself
should i be angry or should i be sad
or should i just dont bother and forget about it
Sunday, August 27, 2006
I love you lah...but got ppl kapoh kapoh
Thank you everyone for checking this seldom updated blog of mine.
At the moment i am kinda busy and also i dont have much time to blog.
Even if i have, i dont know what to blog too cause i am lost of words.
any way the only thing that is irritating me is my neightbour of mine.
She is an old lady that has 5 children but her 2 sons have not married yet.
Both of them might wanna be single for the rest of thier life.
Recently she has been seeing my GF and i tell u she made a big HOO HAA to my mom.
The first time she revealed to my mom dat she saw me with my GF.
i tried to deny it but she kept insisting so i just kept quiet.
She say my GF was a chinese girl with coloured hair hahhahhah my mom heard dan my mom look at me but i just say dont have.
In the end she caught me red handed with my gf in my arms walking side by side so i just acknoledged her and not pretend that i never see her. Now she is telling everyone my neighbours that my GF is stayin at the same block with me 3 storey. Which is totally bullshit....I really appreciate that she is happy for me but i wish that she keep her mouth to herself ah. I mean y must she make so much noise pass so much comments to other ppl. Now my mom is making noise at me cause everyone saw my gf but she haven see her yet.
ani way my gf is the best gf in the world cause she makes the effort to do things for me. From meeting me up after her school and even waiting for me for a few hours just to see me for a few mins
I LOVE YOU BABY MARINAH SWEET SAYANG ONE!!!
Friday, August 18, 2006
3 mths coming up......
in 3 more days and our love would be 3 mths old.
btw i am tied up with IMF. I would be involve in the Pre-IMF preparation and that would be looking after the dunno how many fleet of BMW 7 series located at the designated location. It would be a total of 18 days of Shift duty from either 800 hrs till 2000hrs or 2000 hrs till 0800hrs.
This meant my saturdays and sundays would be burnt.This is a hell of sucky work cause i will be deprive of my Computer, My GF, My already less contact friends, you guys know who you are, my pillow which has something inside and my internet.
haiz furthermore i dont support the IMF event in Singapore and yet i am still helping out. My goodness this is what you really call lan lan suck thumb.
but looking on the bright side, the places that i will be located are nearby NUS. thats a good thing cause my Sweetheart Baby Pie is schooling there so TADA can drop by her school place but there is a problem and that is hahhahahaha i am broke. I think i really need to budget myself already and control what i am spending.
arghhhh i cant wait for IMF to finish so that i can move on with my life and spend more time with my dearie and my friends.......
btw i am tied up with IMF. I would be involve in the Pre-IMF preparation and that would be looking after the dunno how many fleet of BMW 7 series located at the designated location. It would be a total of 18 days of Shift duty from either 800 hrs till 2000hrs or 2000 hrs till 0800hrs.
This meant my saturdays and sundays would be burnt.This is a hell of sucky work cause i will be deprive of my Computer, My GF, My already less contact friends, you guys know who you are, my pillow which has something inside and my internet.
haiz furthermore i dont support the IMF event in Singapore and yet i am still helping out. My goodness this is what you really call lan lan suck thumb.
but looking on the bright side, the places that i will be located are nearby NUS. thats a good thing cause my Sweetheart Baby Pie is schooling there so TADA can drop by her school place but there is a problem and that is hahhahahaha i am broke. I think i really need to budget myself already and control what i am spending.
arghhhh i cant wait for IMF to finish so that i can move on with my life and spend more time with my dearie and my friends.......
Monday, July 31, 2006
and counting...
two more days and she will be off to Australia for one week holiday.
i hope i will get thru this period.
We had a trial period last week where we did not meet for a week but yet we still contact each other but this time round there would be no form of communication at all.
Btw on sat where we met, we headed down to East Coast Park for the gathering organized by Clement which honestly i think it was crappy. No one brought food except for Mr Clementi and it was crappy. He just brought Kai Lan and nothing else. It was totally weird for a picnic gathering at east coast park. The people present was hafiz, irfan, shaiful, hamimah, jeremy my cousin, my baby and me.
after east coast park, we headed down to fort canning park where we hang out and enjoyed the nature. After dat we had dinner at Al Jilani dan we hung out at SMU. We kinda spend the whole night morning there. It was actualli quite fun and i watched a very tragic love story which was well-recomended by my Darling and i have to say it was good.
haiz.....now i am just thinking of the upcoming week where she will only be back on National Day.
Aiyah i wanna watch fireworks with her......
btw to my guy friends, dudez just because i got a Gf doesnt mean i forget u all. Is been awhile dat i last hang out with u all so please dont ever say i dah lain ah.....
i hope i will get thru this period.
We had a trial period last week where we did not meet for a week but yet we still contact each other but this time round there would be no form of communication at all.
Btw on sat where we met, we headed down to East Coast Park for the gathering organized by Clement which honestly i think it was crappy. No one brought food except for Mr Clementi and it was crappy. He just brought Kai Lan and nothing else. It was totally weird for a picnic gathering at east coast park. The people present was hafiz, irfan, shaiful, hamimah, jeremy my cousin, my baby and me.
after east coast park, we headed down to fort canning park where we hang out and enjoyed the nature. After dat we had dinner at Al Jilani dan we hung out at SMU. We kinda spend the whole night morning there. It was actualli quite fun and i watched a very tragic love story which was well-recomended by my Darling and i have to say it was good.
haiz.....now i am just thinking of the upcoming week where she will only be back on National Day.
Aiyah i wanna watch fireworks with her......
btw to my guy friends, dudez just because i got a Gf doesnt mean i forget u all. Is been awhile dat i last hang out with u all so please dont ever say i dah lain ah.....
Saturday, July 29, 2006
with so many problems surrounding us about relationships
i feel that i need to devote myself more to u
show u with more love and care
but how long do we have before u go overseas
and make me feel so lonely again for a long lonely one week
i noe this might be stupid or maybe common to some of my frds
that i am saying she is the one but i realli feel that she
SITI MARINAH the women now in my life
manjering, caring , loving me
is the women i am waiting for and shall keep her till as long as
god and our love permit.
baby baby how i wish we could grow up together and be sweetheart childhood lovers
so dat i will spend the whole lifetime with u by the countryside and enjoy the beauty of nature and simpleness of life
and guess wat i went for my friday prayer after a long time
i feel that i need to devote myself more to u
show u with more love and care
but how long do we have before u go overseas
and make me feel so lonely again for a long lonely one week
i noe this might be stupid or maybe common to some of my frds
that i am saying she is the one but i realli feel that she
SITI MARINAH the women now in my life
manjering, caring , loving me
is the women i am waiting for and shall keep her till as long as
god and our love permit.
baby baby how i wish we could grow up together and be sweetheart childhood lovers
so dat i will spend the whole lifetime with u by the countryside and enjoy the beauty of nature and simpleness of life
and guess wat i went for my friday prayer after a long time
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
wat more can i ask
33 pieces of paper
=
a heart that is shared with kai & mar
i am actually exhilarated to post this entry that i tried to type many things many words many feelings for this entry but i realli dunno how to phrase it in the end. All i could come out was SITI MARINAH i am so deeply in love with you cause i never felt so much love before in my life.
tell me where can u find a girl like her..........
on Sunday she needed to apologize to me so she decided to meet up and i too had to leave the house coz i need to get the company stamp for the warranty card for my monitor which went berserk and couldnt work. We meet at city hall and headed to The Aldephi.
Outside the shopping center she gave me a heart shaped box filled with 33 pieces of paper which contains 33 different ways of how i cared about her. Hmm i dunno y 33 but yah 33 it was. With this 33 pieces of paper, i can assemble them into a shape of a heart and the end product is wat u see at the top. Not forgetting a colourful beanie teddy bear that she gave to me. i tried uploading the pics but guess blogger.com is facing some probs thus i am unable to upload the pictures.
On Monday, i had to send the monitor for a 1 to 1 exchange and she accompanied me. She from her house pick me up from my camp dan after dat head down to my house and wait for me downstairs while i brought the monitor down and she had a close brush with my Mom. We took a cab to and fro to sim lim and my house. I am so delighted that she accompany me for that few hours and yet she is already happy. we ended the night by hanging out at the park near my house where we were on the swing and challenging each other who is able to swing higher. Of coz she won coz hehehe i suck at it hahahah.....
today i supposed to have my surgery to remove the mole on my lip but in the end we didnt coz we had to fork ot $5oo bucks to pay for the surgery. Dam it they considered the mole on my lip as a cosmetic surgery. Like wat the hell!!!!!
I had to wait there for an hour or so where no one attended to us and also i was not informed wat was happening. All i could do was sit there at the couch and read the July edition of Newsweek. I was FLUSTERED and DEBILITATED (hehehehhe thanks baby) at the service. When i started to enquire about my status and wat was happening than i was ushered to a consultation room where there was a public relations officer who was realli sucky at talking but managed to cool the bomb ticking situation cause she was realli extremely soft spoken. She was going to refer us to the social welfare assistance to help us pay the fee which i think is an insult to me.
ani way i have decided not to remove the mole ani more.
and also here is a song(lyrics onli) dedicated tomy love my sayang my baby my angel my princess
Lying here with you,i am satisfied with wat i have my dear and thats having u as my lovely gf.
Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see, The smile upon your face,
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are, Is everything to me,
These are the moments, I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments, I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment, Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .
Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
And right here in this moment, Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .
I could not ask for more than the love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
wat a gig.....
today head down to substation for loudfest
line up was great on flyers but on the day itself one biggest disappointment
Recover didnt play for the gig coz shahran had to work
i was like so looking forward for a hell of a good time.
ani way went to the gig with my Boo
guess we had a great time together with her trying to pin me down.
she tried several times but to avail.
she had her pampers, she had everything she wanted.
i got to see idayu ahhaha which is surprising with her BF.
For me all i had was her and nothing else all i wanted to be with her
but on this night she said something dat broke my heart.
how could u say such thing......
it may not seems you dont mean it but infront of strangers
u just blabber words that make me wonder all these while
whether have i been taking care of you.
line up was great on flyers but on the day itself one biggest disappointment
Recover didnt play for the gig coz shahran had to work
i was like so looking forward for a hell of a good time.
ani way went to the gig with my Boo
guess we had a great time together with her trying to pin me down.
she tried several times but to avail.
she had her pampers, she had everything she wanted.
i got to see idayu ahhaha which is surprising with her BF.
For me all i had was her and nothing else all i wanted to be with her
but on this night she said something dat broke my heart.
how could u say such thing......
it may not seems you dont mean it but infront of strangers
u just blabber words that make me wonder all these while
whether have i been taking care of you.
i am sad, i am heartbroken and i am disapponted.....
Saturday, July 22, 2006
though the family has some hiccups here and there for me
i am still very happy coz i found a gf whom i realli love and feel love
spending times on each others lap sleeping,
feeding each other with cakes,
sharing stories from anything under the sun,
listening to each other complaints about work and life
pampering one another with the cute funny noises,
walking hand in hand with you
enjoying the simplest form of relatinship
i just realli like it.
now i ask myself wat is love
and all i can think about is U
i am still very happy coz i found a gf whom i realli love and feel love
spending times on each others lap sleeping,
feeding each other with cakes,
sharing stories from anything under the sun,
listening to each other complaints about work and life
pampering one another with the cute funny noises,
walking hand in hand with you
enjoying the simplest form of relatinship
i just realli like it.
now i ask myself wat is love
and all i can think about is U
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
X@#!$%^&!@#$%^&
i am so disappointed is the 2nd time my parents wrongly suspect me.
ytd i was realli tired and after eating i realli wanted to sleep but my mom told me to wait for my dad coz he wanted to talk to me about something. When he came back while eating he started by asking me how come i am back late ytd and is it a must to see my GF almost everyday( which in actual fact last week i onli like meet her twice onli on the weekdays). Than my dad told me that if i want a gf make sure the gf comes to the house and come not just when i am at home but even when i am not at home also must come.( i am like wat the hell)
Dan he ask me whether i was serious with my Gf. I told him i am not sure but is no harm trying to be serious with her than he kept quiet. He changed the topic. He talk about when he was young when he got no money wat he does and also like how he never get scolding from his mom which is my late Grandma whom i sayang most. Hmm than i was realli sleep but i controlled, dan all of a sudden my mom just step into the conversation and say than you still dont want to admit wat u have done. ( i was like WAT WAT WAT WAT). I replied i realli dunno wat u all are talking about but if ur talking about my Bro money stolen than is not me coz half of the money is taken by my youngest bro who was instructed by my mom to take money from him coz she didnt have the cash at dat point of time and also my bro came back late so my youngest bro just took the money from his pocket and with an intention to return it back when he received his pocket money from my mom. I was like i told them off, so now by saying this u all assume that i am the thief of this family ah.
My dad turned defensive while my mom just walked away to watch her TV. How could they just wrongly accuse the own son lor...frankly speaking yes i have been spending more money dan as usual and my income is lesser dan my bro and i never "contribute" much to the family in terms of cash, household chores and all the craps i use to do ah but come on ah i was like so for the family till the age of 21 now i am going to be 22 wanna have a start of my own life with my own love and here u are trying to accuse me.
haiz....everytime i tell them off nicely or argue back they sure to have something in mind to say. Yes i do agree with some of thier point but some points i beg to differ so y cant i voice out my own opinion. I just have to say dat my parents have never appreciated what the children done for the family.
I am so disappointed.
ytd i was realli tired and after eating i realli wanted to sleep but my mom told me to wait for my dad coz he wanted to talk to me about something. When he came back while eating he started by asking me how come i am back late ytd and is it a must to see my GF almost everyday( which in actual fact last week i onli like meet her twice onli on the weekdays). Than my dad told me that if i want a gf make sure the gf comes to the house and come not just when i am at home but even when i am not at home also must come.( i am like wat the hell)
Dan he ask me whether i was serious with my Gf. I told him i am not sure but is no harm trying to be serious with her than he kept quiet. He changed the topic. He talk about when he was young when he got no money wat he does and also like how he never get scolding from his mom which is my late Grandma whom i sayang most. Hmm than i was realli sleep but i controlled, dan all of a sudden my mom just step into the conversation and say than you still dont want to admit wat u have done. ( i was like WAT WAT WAT WAT). I replied i realli dunno wat u all are talking about but if ur talking about my Bro money stolen than is not me coz half of the money is taken by my youngest bro who was instructed by my mom to take money from him coz she didnt have the cash at dat point of time and also my bro came back late so my youngest bro just took the money from his pocket and with an intention to return it back when he received his pocket money from my mom. I was like i told them off, so now by saying this u all assume that i am the thief of this family ah.
My dad turned defensive while my mom just walked away to watch her TV. How could they just wrongly accuse the own son lor...frankly speaking yes i have been spending more money dan as usual and my income is lesser dan my bro and i never "contribute" much to the family in terms of cash, household chores and all the craps i use to do ah but come on ah i was like so for the family till the age of 21 now i am going to be 22 wanna have a start of my own life with my own love and here u are trying to accuse me.
haiz....everytime i tell them off nicely or argue back they sure to have something in mind to say. Yes i do agree with some of thier point but some points i beg to differ so y cant i voice out my own opinion. I just have to say dat my parents have never appreciated what the children done for the family.
I am so disappointed.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
a day without news from her.....
today has been quite a torturing day for me.....
we have not been contacting each other since the last msg which was 1330hrs.
is not we never contact each other but i dont want her to contact me coz she is in overseas and it will cost her quite a sum if we contact thus i told her to not sms me.
haiz i am lingering with nothing to do.....
facing the computer and checking my msn to see whether she is online.
OMG is onli a day is onli 24 hrs and i am like this
how am i going to last for a week when she will be at down under with her family
A week of no MSN ,7 days of no news, 168 hours of no contact, 10080 minutes of missing her real bad.
tmr is work day but i dont feel like working.
Tmr i need to head back to camp as a Corporal but i am not sewing my rank yet.
Should i get a rest after a hectic week last week to rest and spend time with my dear?
we have not been contacting each other since the last msg which was 1330hrs.
is not we never contact each other but i dont want her to contact me coz she is in overseas and it will cost her quite a sum if we contact thus i told her to not sms me.
haiz i am lingering with nothing to do.....
facing the computer and checking my msn to see whether she is online.
OMG is onli a day is onli 24 hrs and i am like this
how am i going to last for a week when she will be at down under with her family
A week of no MSN ,7 days of no news, 168 hours of no contact, 10080 minutes of missing her real bad.
tmr is work day but i dont feel like working.
Tmr i need to head back to camp as a Corporal but i am not sewing my rank yet.
Should i get a rest after a hectic week last week to rest and spend time with my dear?
Friday, July 14, 2006
i will be missing u
Markai never meet for two days markai gets so grumpy
Markai wishs that markai can never be seperated but thats impossible
Markai is going to Australia for a week and i dunno how lor.....
ani way i have given markai my orange Shirt for her to remember me when she is overseas.
how how how........
ytd markai met and lepak together at Suntec Fountain. hmmm i think we could lepak at somewhere more cosy but nvm. She was reading her story book while i was lying down on her. i just love to lie down on her n knowing that she will sayang me and also look out for me, the feeling is just so good and lovely.
from the fountain there, we head down to the sky garden heheehh dats where we were listening to her fav music and also currently my fav music and we started to kiss for the whole song. It make us feel as if we were some movie stars kissing on screen. hahhahha it was realli magnificient to be kissed in such a manner and ambience. It was a memorable event. The best was that she had caramel before we kissed and it like WOAHHHH enhancement....
dan later we head down to Baybeats. It was packed to the brim and i kinda hate the surroundings. We were literally counting the numbers of avenged sevenfold Tee and tell u wat is a tenfold of it.....The main reason y i was there was to see leaven trait and plain sunset. Hmmm i shall say the set was ok ah not dat power ah but wat to do....the stage is so far away. the crowd was realli looking for some cheap thrill and the security guys were realli rubbish. No moshing and no body surfing. actualli i kinda understand y they stop moshing and bodysurfing.
Moshing and Bodysurfing are actions that leads to happiness and smile but it seems like in Singapore ppl are moshing with anger and violence which is not the way to do it. I could see the face of anger and hate while ppl were moshing. But the extremely stupid and ridiculous thing happen to me. there was this kid who was in all black top and bottom and a red tie(typical MCR DUDE ) was moshing behind me. I dont consider it as moshing ah coz he was more like pushing me from the back.
He was like also shouting from the back FUCK U FUCK U all the way. I bet if he was the lead singer and his only vocubulary was fuck u, it would make quite a crappy good song cause he fit the words nicely into the melody. Ani way i am just proud that during baybeats markai feels confident and has no worries coz she feels she is well protected and look out. She was roaming around like nobody's business.
Ani way baybeats to me was cheap thrill for all these young kids were there just to fight and MOSH. I so just love our gigs. though the number is not as big as baybeats memories of NEXUS auditorium 2 years ago is still fresh in my mind. NOw i am looking forward for.....LOUDFEST hehehhe
and i miss u....
Markai wishs that markai can never be seperated but thats impossible
Markai is going to Australia for a week and i dunno how lor.....
ani way i have given markai my orange Shirt for her to remember me when she is overseas.
how how how........
ytd markai met and lepak together at Suntec Fountain. hmmm i think we could lepak at somewhere more cosy but nvm. She was reading her story book while i was lying down on her. i just love to lie down on her n knowing that she will sayang me and also look out for me, the feeling is just so good and lovely.
from the fountain there, we head down to the sky garden heheehh dats where we were listening to her fav music and also currently my fav music and we started to kiss for the whole song. It make us feel as if we were some movie stars kissing on screen. hahhahha it was realli magnificient to be kissed in such a manner and ambience. It was a memorable event. The best was that she had caramel before we kissed and it like WOAHHHH enhancement....
dan later we head down to Baybeats. It was packed to the brim and i kinda hate the surroundings. We were literally counting the numbers of avenged sevenfold Tee and tell u wat is a tenfold of it.....The main reason y i was there was to see leaven trait and plain sunset. Hmmm i shall say the set was ok ah not dat power ah but wat to do....the stage is so far away. the crowd was realli looking for some cheap thrill and the security guys were realli rubbish. No moshing and no body surfing. actualli i kinda understand y they stop moshing and bodysurfing.
Moshing and Bodysurfing are actions that leads to happiness and smile but it seems like in Singapore ppl are moshing with anger and violence which is not the way to do it. I could see the face of anger and hate while ppl were moshing. But the extremely stupid and ridiculous thing happen to me. there was this kid who was in all black top and bottom and a red tie(typical MCR DUDE ) was moshing behind me. I dont consider it as moshing ah coz he was more like pushing me from the back.
He was like also shouting from the back FUCK U FUCK U all the way. I bet if he was the lead singer and his only vocubulary was fuck u, it would make quite a crappy good song cause he fit the words nicely into the melody. Ani way i am just proud that during baybeats markai feels confident and has no worries coz she feels she is well protected and look out. She was roaming around like nobody's business.
Ani way baybeats to me was cheap thrill for all these young kids were there just to fight and MOSH. I so just love our gigs. though the number is not as big as baybeats memories of NEXUS auditorium 2 years ago is still fresh in my mind. NOw i am looking forward for.....LOUDFEST hehehhe
and i miss u....
Thursday, July 13, 2006
13/07/06
Here i am today at my office blogging for the first time. Is 8.10pm and i am in camp doing my COS Duty. Today was a sucky day for me actualli not just today ah but the whole week ah. I now understand the meaning of backstabbers reall pain in my ass.
i recently kena backstab by a few ppl. So much for helping them out and in return i kena fuck in the ass.I just wonder how ppl can live in such an environment for more than 2 years.
i shall not go into details about wat has happen sekali i kena charged ah for wrongly accusing ppl ah which i dont wish to extend my freakign stay in the Army.
btw luckily there was a few moments of excitement for me coz i managed give my dearest a surprise visit. i was kinda feeling awkard and also tensed ah coz is not appropriate to be in uniform in CBD area.
Any way today had to return stores at ayer rajah camp but there wasnt any vehicel so i had to use the despatch vehicle to send me. But before sending me to Ayer rajah camp they had to go to a few places Mindef, Sispec and PLC than they sent me to Ayer Rajah.
After returning my stores, i requested to head back home myself cause they were going to continue despatching so tada dats when i decided to give her a surprise pop in at her work place with a small cup of mashed potato.
Ani way i left the camp at like 10 and i got back of camp around 3. It felt so good how i wish today i dont have duty ah and my day would be so much faster......
Btw baybeats is nearby Ahmad going??????
i recently kena backstab by a few ppl. So much for helping them out and in return i kena fuck in the ass.I just wonder how ppl can live in such an environment for more than 2 years.
i shall not go into details about wat has happen sekali i kena charged ah for wrongly accusing ppl ah which i dont wish to extend my freakign stay in the Army.
btw luckily there was a few moments of excitement for me coz i managed give my dearest a surprise visit. i was kinda feeling awkard and also tensed ah coz is not appropriate to be in uniform in CBD area.
Any way today had to return stores at ayer rajah camp but there wasnt any vehicel so i had to use the despatch vehicle to send me. But before sending me to Ayer rajah camp they had to go to a few places Mindef, Sispec and PLC than they sent me to Ayer Rajah.
After returning my stores, i requested to head back home myself cause they were going to continue despatching so tada dats when i decided to give her a surprise pop in at her work place with a small cup of mashed potato.
Ani way i left the camp at like 10 and i got back of camp around 3. It felt so good how i wish today i dont have duty ah and my day would be so much faster......
Btw baybeats is nearby Ahmad going??????
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
how to not love her so much.......
though i kinda feel abit jealous about her manager but overall
tell me how not to love her so much when she remembers wat i have done for her.......this was extracted from her blog.......
though i kinda feel abit jealous about her manager but overall
tell me how not to love her so much when she remembers wat i have done for her.......this was extracted from her blog.......
have come to realize that i update this shit like monthly. hoho.
not that i bother anyway, if i have something to write about and if i feel like it then, voila!
work's been grrrrreat so far. and woohoo. they entered me in a barista competition which by the way, i was so against. anthony stole my ic, wrote down my name, took roy's handphone for my number and faxed the damn paper in before i could even scream his full name.
ANTHONY JASON watever.
ure lucky ure an expired product, anthony. not that u'll ever read this. one day i will put spin mix instead of vanilla in ure damn latte i make each morning. hehe. but anyways, i still love him.
oh oh!
let me relate to everyone now how sweeeeet my manager is. aside from the fact that he pays for my entries to clubs and stuffs, he buys me lunch, makes sure im not overworked (at times), helps me mop the floor when we do our closing together, coax me when i get slammed, calms me down when i get all gittery especially when a person comes in ordering 17 lattes. or when Clive comes for his medium cappucino. hohoho.
ok anyway, he plugged in his ipod shuffle and there was one song that i just loveedddddd. and me being the idiot who never ever listens to radio, have no idea what the title of the song was. on thursday i told him "eh roy sayang i like one song from ure ipod", to which he asked me "which?" and i just shrugged. on friday i had to stand by the espresso machine from 7am all the way til 5pm, due to roy's own bubbling incident *roar*, so i told them to play my cd and not change it til i left for home. Since roy was doing closing, i told him "eh dont change cd ok? cos tomorrow i'm working and i want to play this cd, thanks!" to which he just nodded.
the next morning i came, switched on the cd player, and asked another part timer if they changed the cd inside and she said "no lah ure damn cd was playing the whole day and night" so yay, i pressed play and found that someone switched the cd. and when the next song played, it was the song that i was looking for in Roy's ipod! he actually burned me a cd, put it in the player before leaving the shop, knowing that i'll be the one switching the cd player on Saturday to surprise me.
so sweet rite.
yes i have the sweetest manager arounddddddddddd. and i luv him to bits and pieces.
ANYHOWS,
aside from roy, someone else is being ultra sweet to me as well. waited for me for 3 hrs to do closing, didnt even complain and could even tell me "dont rush, relax, just do ure work, i'll wait". 3 hours ok. he just sat outside my shop and waited. he even bought me the new L'arc en Ciel dvd Asian Tour 2005! the one i went for in japan. and he smses me every day to make my whole afternoon so much more bearable, my friends love him to bits cos he's just so funny, my maid loves him to bits cos she thinks he's cute, even my managers think he's adorable. he brushes my hair in front of everyone in the train, jumps off stage to give me a peck during his gig, he carried me on his shoulder when i told him i miss feeling like a 5yearold, he sits with me at a bay to sing songs and laugh the night long, he lets me sleep on his lap for 2 hrs while he strokes my hair, he took an mc from work just to spend one hour with me to send me to work, he makes the effort to talk instead of shouting or scolding, he makes me laugh, he tickles me all over, he listens to songs with me and sings along, he piggybacks me when i'm tired even though his leg was aching, he wrestles with me when i feel playful, he trusts me with my friends, and he manja-s me like there's no tomorrow.
:)
and yes, he makes me so very happy.
especially when he said i looked stunning.
thank you!
not that i bother anyway, if i have something to write about and if i feel like it then, voila!
work's been grrrrreat so far. and woohoo. they entered me in a barista competition which by the way, i was so against. anthony stole my ic, wrote down my name, took roy's handphone for my number and faxed the damn paper in before i could even scream his full name.
ANTHONY JASON watever.
ure lucky ure an expired product, anthony. not that u'll ever read this. one day i will put spin mix instead of vanilla in ure damn latte i make each morning. hehe. but anyways, i still love him.
oh oh!
let me relate to everyone now how sweeeeet my manager is. aside from the fact that he pays for my entries to clubs and stuffs, he buys me lunch, makes sure im not overworked (at times), helps me mop the floor when we do our closing together, coax me when i get slammed, calms me down when i get all gittery especially when a person comes in ordering 17 lattes. or when Clive comes for his medium cappucino. hohoho.
ok anyway, he plugged in his ipod shuffle and there was one song that i just loveedddddd. and me being the idiot who never ever listens to radio, have no idea what the title of the song was. on thursday i told him "eh roy sayang i like one song from ure ipod", to which he asked me "which?" and i just shrugged. on friday i had to stand by the espresso machine from 7am all the way til 5pm, due to roy's own bubbling incident *roar*, so i told them to play my cd and not change it til i left for home. Since roy was doing closing, i told him "eh dont change cd ok? cos tomorrow i'm working and i want to play this cd, thanks!" to which he just nodded.
the next morning i came, switched on the cd player, and asked another part timer if they changed the cd inside and she said "no lah ure damn cd was playing the whole day and night" so yay, i pressed play and found that someone switched the cd. and when the next song played, it was the song that i was looking for in Roy's ipod! he actually burned me a cd, put it in the player before leaving the shop, knowing that i'll be the one switching the cd player on Saturday to surprise me.
so sweet rite.
yes i have the sweetest manager arounddddddddddd. and i luv him to bits and pieces.
ANYHOWS,
aside from roy, someone else is being ultra sweet to me as well. waited for me for 3 hrs to do closing, didnt even complain and could even tell me "dont rush, relax, just do ure work, i'll wait". 3 hours ok. he just sat outside my shop and waited. he even bought me the new L'arc en Ciel dvd Asian Tour 2005! the one i went for in japan. and he smses me every day to make my whole afternoon so much more bearable, my friends love him to bits cos he's just so funny, my maid loves him to bits cos she thinks he's cute, even my managers think he's adorable. he brushes my hair in front of everyone in the train, jumps off stage to give me a peck during his gig, he carried me on his shoulder when i told him i miss feeling like a 5yearold, he sits with me at a bay to sing songs and laugh the night long, he lets me sleep on his lap for 2 hrs while he strokes my hair, he took an mc from work just to spend one hour with me to send me to work, he makes the effort to talk instead of shouting or scolding, he makes me laugh, he tickles me all over, he listens to songs with me and sings along, he piggybacks me when i'm tired even though his leg was aching, he wrestles with me when i feel playful, he trusts me with my friends, and he manja-s me like there's no tomorrow.
:)
and yes, he makes me so very happy.
especially when he said i looked stunning.
thank you!
Sunday, July 09, 2006
ladies and gentleman
i got an announcement to make.........
i am a corporal already
i am have fallen in love twice with the same girl
i am not going to drink any more after the incident
y
coz i feel stupid for not being able to react to my surrounding, all i could do was just stoned.
i am enjoying my love of my life.
i miss my friends(when we going to lepak again)
i am handsome.
i am putting on weight.
and this is y i am so in love......
i got an announcement to make.........
i am a corporal already
i am have fallen in love twice with the same girl
i am not going to drink any more after the incident
y
coz i feel stupid for not being able to react to my surrounding, all i could do was just stoned.
i am enjoying my love of my life.
i miss my friends(when we going to lepak again)
i am handsome.
i am putting on weight.
and this is y i am so in love......
Sunday, July 02, 2006
1st July
is been a long break from clubbing so today decided to club with my baby. Expecting a big turnout but it was quite disappointing but nevertheless we still went with who was present. My Baby brought her close friend name kai also and i was with Gaint the Ivan.
we drank, we danced and in the end i got drunk
i went to club was to look after my baby but in the end she had to look after me. I was like puking on the floor inside and also near the emergency exit. I also puked on Ivan shirt and i am so so sorry about it.
i guess i puked about 8 to 10 times and it feel bad it is as if the whole stomach wants to force its way put of my throat and that sucks.Maybe because i drank too much and too hard too. My Baby says i drink like water hahhha which yah i think i drink dat way.
in the end i was well taken care of by my baby and also her friend kai. She was extremely sweet taking care of me and my baby. My baby too was gone and as usual SOOO her Self hehhehehe. We were dan transported to bras basah where we hang out with a few of our crusty punk friends who held ipod in thier hands and some woah woah handphones. So much for the Crustism.
we hang out at bras basah till we manage to get our first train and i send the girls home. My baby and i accompanied Kai to Boon Lay dan after dat i send my baby to her home. Before going home she wanted to sleep somewhere but not her home so we decided to sleep at chinese garden. She slept onli for about 2 hours and she was complimenting y i didnt move an inch to wake her up.
so after her sleep i send her back home and she was reluctant to let me in to her house because of the maid but dunno what strucked her mind she asked me in and introduced me to her maid. Her maid was pretty but not attractive to me cause my baby was super STUNNING. my Baby feed me alot of food at her house dan at around noon we made a move cause she was going to hang out with her friends.
On my way to the Mrt Station my dad called me to head down to eunos for a funeral. My auntie's mom which is my grandma but in law passed away . So imagine me from clubbing went to my Baby's house dan down to eunos i was like super extremely stinky and smelly. I was also dreading the smell of liqour from my breathe cause i will be meeting MUSLIMS uncles and aunties. If they smell, it would be nice to my status hahahahha
Luckily my breathe was ok with the help of clorets and also the food dat i ate at my baby's house.I spent the whole afternoon there and it was like really time wasting. i was really in a bad state cause my pants were like extremely dirty and my shirt stinks and my shoes and socks stick too cause i was puking and the puke got to my shoe.
overall i really enjoy my time though is was kinda sad cause many of them turn me down last minute but is still ok cause i got my BABY
we drank, we danced and in the end i got drunk
i went to club was to look after my baby but in the end she had to look after me. I was like puking on the floor inside and also near the emergency exit. I also puked on Ivan shirt and i am so so sorry about it.
i guess i puked about 8 to 10 times and it feel bad it is as if the whole stomach wants to force its way put of my throat and that sucks.Maybe because i drank too much and too hard too. My Baby says i drink like water hahhha which yah i think i drink dat way.
in the end i was well taken care of by my baby and also her friend kai. She was extremely sweet taking care of me and my baby. My baby too was gone and as usual SOOO her Self hehhehehe. We were dan transported to bras basah where we hang out with a few of our crusty punk friends who held ipod in thier hands and some woah woah handphones. So much for the Crustism.
we hang out at bras basah till we manage to get our first train and i send the girls home. My baby and i accompanied Kai to Boon Lay dan after dat i send my baby to her home. Before going home she wanted to sleep somewhere but not her home so we decided to sleep at chinese garden. She slept onli for about 2 hours and she was complimenting y i didnt move an inch to wake her up.
so after her sleep i send her back home and she was reluctant to let me in to her house because of the maid but dunno what strucked her mind she asked me in and introduced me to her maid. Her maid was pretty but not attractive to me cause my baby was super STUNNING. my Baby feed me alot of food at her house dan at around noon we made a move cause she was going to hang out with her friends.
On my way to the Mrt Station my dad called me to head down to eunos for a funeral. My auntie's mom which is my grandma but in law passed away . So imagine me from clubbing went to my Baby's house dan down to eunos i was like super extremely stinky and smelly. I was also dreading the smell of liqour from my breathe cause i will be meeting MUSLIMS uncles and aunties. If they smell, it would be nice to my status hahahahha
Luckily my breathe was ok with the help of clorets and also the food dat i ate at my baby's house.I spent the whole afternoon there and it was like really time wasting. i was really in a bad state cause my pants were like extremely dirty and my shirt stinks and my shoes and socks stick too cause i was puking and the puke got to my shoe.
overall i really enjoy my time though is was kinda sad cause many of them turn me down last minute but is still ok cause i got my BABY
Thursday, June 29, 2006
wat do u think
imagine u got a bf
who is controlled by the parents and cant go home back late often
whose freedom is within the hands of the parents
who is broke
who is boring
who doesnt know where to go and wat to do
who doesnt know wat to talk when on the phone
who doesnt stand up for himself
who is weak
who is emo
whose freedom is within the hands of the parents
who is broke
who is boring
who doesnt know where to go and wat to do
who doesnt know wat to talk when on the phone
who doesnt stand up for himself
who is weak
who is emo
I......i......I.......i
I am going to be 22 this year
I am now in NS and my unit is Sembawang camp
I am a Storeman but with a SGT rank, which i dunno when i will be getting
I get lots of shit there though not as bad, compared to my Course Mates(those who attended the same course as me to be a storeman with a SGT rank)
I am putting on weight and i am not making the effort to stop it
I am currently having a bad tiff with my family, it seems everything dat is wrong is due to me not playing my part in the family
I am really pathetic with my $350 pay
I got a GF now who is my BABY ANGEL and she owns a Square and a Bay in Singapore so go figure out whats her name
I am so proud of her and when ppl ask where is she from i reply with pride" SHE IS FROM NUS" hahahha
I know i am boasting but i never tot i could have a GF who is smarter than me.
I am still in a band called Yogyakarta and i am loving it.
I guess the ppl around me are mostly single while i am attached thus i am lucky that i have someone whom i can share my life with at the moment
I am so the IN LOVE....
I want you to dont stop remembering your friends and give them a hi when u see them online, along the road, or maybe dropped them an sms to tell them hey dont forget you got a friend who is willing to help you out and give you moral support to what ever you want to do.
I want to give all my readers a BIIIIIIIGGGGG HUGGGG and a bow for being kind and concern
I am now in NS and my unit is Sembawang camp
I am a Storeman but with a SGT rank, which i dunno when i will be getting
I get lots of shit there though not as bad, compared to my Course Mates(those who attended the same course as me to be a storeman with a SGT rank)
I am putting on weight and i am not making the effort to stop it
I am currently having a bad tiff with my family, it seems everything dat is wrong is due to me not playing my part in the family
I am really pathetic with my $350 pay
I got a GF now who is my BABY ANGEL and she owns a Square and a Bay in Singapore so go figure out whats her name
I am so proud of her and when ppl ask where is she from i reply with pride" SHE IS FROM NUS" hahahha
I know i am boasting but i never tot i could have a GF who is smarter than me.
I am still in a band called Yogyakarta and i am loving it.
I guess the ppl around me are mostly single while i am attached thus i am lucky that i have someone whom i can share my life with at the moment
I am so the IN LOVE....
I want you to dont stop remembering your friends and give them a hi when u see them online, along the road, or maybe dropped them an sms to tell them hey dont forget you got a friend who is willing to help you out and give you moral support to what ever you want to do.
I want to give all my readers a BIIIIIIIGGGGG HUGGGG and a bow for being kind and concern
Sunday, April 09, 2006
thanks guys for checking my blog out.......
u noe after finding out that ppl do still check my blog out i feel honourd. I guess i shall pull up my socks higher and make the effort to update my blog often.
Past few days i was chosen to represent the class to share with transport Specs to be, the supply specs, my instructors and the commanders of ALTI and STC fyi both are like LTC. During my speech i made a mistake. i was suppose to read a pat on the back but i got a lazy tongue and i accidently said a pat on the black. That phrase brought the whole dining hall into laughther. It was really embarassing though to made such a mistake infront of high Ranking officers.
Any way just found out my posting recently and yes i am posted to Sembawang camp. I guess is because of the history that my dad used to be in that camp aka TERROR CAMP due to is tough training regime. i feel that though is really great to be posted to that camp, i just dont like the assumption and the expectation that my instructors have on me. Is really great to see the people around me smiling cause is me who is assign to this camp and who will be working closely with but the expectations thay have on me, i am just afriad i might not be able to meet to thier expectations and will disappoint them.
hmm other than that i am having lots of mood swings for the pass few days or weeks ah i just dunno y i am experincing such setbacks ah which i kinda hate ah. I just find ppl around me just pure irritating ah sometimes, my parents, my brothers, my friends, and also i find myself irritating. though my friends, i might find u irritating is not that u done something wrong but is just dat i feel all of a sudden an irritation. I just dont know wats the main cause of it nevertherless dont worry i will still take u as my frds.
Any way lets see wat upcoming events i will be heading to........
Tues----->GiG XyX will be performing together with USA band
Wed-----> Zouk is been a long time since i last step in, wanna check it out & also a girl there
Thurs --->end of course activity held outside camp is some BBQ thingy at East coast Park
Fri ------->Good Friday might be dropping by school to hang out with Freshmen Orientation camp hahahha yes i have been reprimanded to like not go back there and move on with life ah but too bad i just cant resist the temptation of meeting old friends ah. But the only problem for this day would be DJ Tiesto who is coming down to MOS. HHAHHA though i am not a really big fan of trance i just like his music and yes my Army friends are heading down hehheehe so should i go skool or club i dunno........
lastly i would like to say a big thank u to all my friends who hav been reading my blog all this while and may ue be bless with all the lovely and great love and care from the people that u love.
Past few days i was chosen to represent the class to share with transport Specs to be, the supply specs, my instructors and the commanders of ALTI and STC fyi both are like LTC. During my speech i made a mistake. i was suppose to read a pat on the back but i got a lazy tongue and i accidently said a pat on the black. That phrase brought the whole dining hall into laughther. It was really embarassing though to made such a mistake infront of high Ranking officers.
Any way just found out my posting recently and yes i am posted to Sembawang camp. I guess is because of the history that my dad used to be in that camp aka TERROR CAMP due to is tough training regime. i feel that though is really great to be posted to that camp, i just dont like the assumption and the expectation that my instructors have on me. Is really great to see the people around me smiling cause is me who is assign to this camp and who will be working closely with but the expectations thay have on me, i am just afriad i might not be able to meet to thier expectations and will disappoint them.
hmm other than that i am having lots of mood swings for the pass few days or weeks ah i just dunno y i am experincing such setbacks ah which i kinda hate ah. I just find ppl around me just pure irritating ah sometimes, my parents, my brothers, my friends, and also i find myself irritating. though my friends, i might find u irritating is not that u done something wrong but is just dat i feel all of a sudden an irritation. I just dont know wats the main cause of it nevertherless dont worry i will still take u as my frds.
Any way lets see wat upcoming events i will be heading to........
Tues----->GiG XyX will be performing together with USA band
Wed-----> Zouk is been a long time since i last step in, wanna check it out & also a girl there
Thurs --->end of course activity held outside camp is some BBQ thingy at East coast Park
Fri ------->Good Friday might be dropping by school to hang out with Freshmen Orientation camp hahahha yes i have been reprimanded to like not go back there and move on with life ah but too bad i just cant resist the temptation of meeting old friends ah. But the only problem for this day would be DJ Tiesto who is coming down to MOS. HHAHHA though i am not a really big fan of trance i just like his music and yes my Army friends are heading down hehheehe so should i go skool or club i dunno........
lastly i would like to say a big thank u to all my friends who hav been reading my blog all this while and may ue be bless with all the lovely and great love and care from the people that u love.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
haiz just missing school days
i just browsed my friends photos and when i see his photos taken around school, it really brought back lots of memories of my school days. From the 1st day i went to Temasek Poly and made a milestone for myself hahhaha (wah so the beh paiseh) i really enjoyed myself during my 3 years stint there. Though there were a few hiccups here and there, i managed to overcome it during the 3 years. I just wish time can be rewind and i just run back to the past and just enjoy myself and the camps entertaining campus and the freshmens with my psychotic eccentric ideas just to make sure everyone feels good. Though i might not feel good in the end, at least i know i have made a difference in people's life. Haiz now the only people i have to entertain are people who are so lifeless emotional empty, why i say this cause everyone in camp is just wasting time and making sure that whatever task assign to them is done just to kill time. I am already in the 6th month in the Slavery and i begin to ask myself what is in there that would benefit me. I guess the only beneficial that the Slavery can provide is killing boredom. I seriously feel tired just waiting around and expecting things to happen.Why i cant make things happen is because there it so many higher authorities who are like in thier own world. Just because they have tons and tons of experience they rule the world.
Ever since wednesday night i got back from the place, i just feel shitty sitting in the pathetic class doing shit nothing and making shitty dreams in the afternoon like what the hell....i was too pissed off i guess i got really sick and yah i took two days MC. And since than my mood is swinging, one moment i can all be nice the next moment something furious is bothering me and i feel like blasting out and most of the time it happen at home. Had an outing with my kakis....ahmad, yan, nazmi, muhsin and fir.....hahahah most of us were in no mood. 3 of us me, ahmad and yan were like bothered by something but we just kept quiet and Nazmi and Mushin the bros tried thier very best to lighten the group. In the end we all had a great night, we all ended the night by watching Ultra violet at the new cathy which was like WOAH awesome and chic. we than became cam whores taking photos most of the time. Any way i have learnt a thing, if things are not going well for my friend i shall just grab famous amous choc cookies and ask him to consume it. That will make him lighter and be himself again.
overall i just have to say currently i just feel shitty about myself and the place where i am at. Am i going to turn into a heartless lifeless boring human during my these two years haiz....i really dunno.......no wonder i notice all my seniors are like not smiling as much as there use to be while in school i guess all thanks to the Slavery.
emotionally empty, boredom, moody, quiet, lifeless dats wat i am feeling................
Ever since wednesday night i got back from the place, i just feel shitty sitting in the pathetic class doing shit nothing and making shitty dreams in the afternoon like what the hell....i was too pissed off i guess i got really sick and yah i took two days MC. And since than my mood is swinging, one moment i can all be nice the next moment something furious is bothering me and i feel like blasting out and most of the time it happen at home. Had an outing with my kakis....ahmad, yan, nazmi, muhsin and fir.....hahahah most of us were in no mood. 3 of us me, ahmad and yan were like bothered by something but we just kept quiet and Nazmi and Mushin the bros tried thier very best to lighten the group. In the end we all had a great night, we all ended the night by watching Ultra violet at the new cathy which was like WOAH awesome and chic. we than became cam whores taking photos most of the time. Any way i have learnt a thing, if things are not going well for my friend i shall just grab famous amous choc cookies and ask him to consume it. That will make him lighter and be himself again.
overall i just have to say currently i just feel shitty about myself and the place where i am at. Am i going to turn into a heartless lifeless boring human during my these two years haiz....i really dunno.......no wonder i notice all my seniors are like not smiling as much as there use to be while in school i guess all thanks to the Slavery.
emotionally empty, boredom, moody, quiet, lifeless dats wat i am feeling................
Sunday, March 12, 2006
i dunno wat headline to post
suPPose to head down to suntec for IT show but guess wat i didnt coz i needed to catch up on my sleep. I only managed to get an hour of sleep after the exercise than we needed to get ready for breakfast than head back home. Slept the whole day at home but later had headache suppose to clean the house but had no mood ani way looking forward for sunday coz i will be heading for the gig at IJ hhheheh is going to be wild and fun.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
is been a long time.....
HeLLo friends is been a long time since my last entry and i would like to apologise to those who are looking forward for my next entry. hhhhhee so lets see wats the latest BIG happening......
i tried my VERY BEST and lots of courage to head down to Tampines Mall for the last day of Audition for Anugerah Skrin which was hosted by the local Malay Channel SURIA. I went there with one of my Close Friend who knows me since Primary School till now. Upon reaching there, i was nervous cause of the queue present so we decided to take a seat and check out the surrounding. While looking around i noticed a few of the guys around and i asked myself whether will i be like one one of them the typical Mat Look with Mat dressing from head to toe. After an hour or two of seating there, i told my friend i guess we shall scrape the idea ah and we left. HHAHAAH this was the 2nd event that we went together and it a was a fruitless attempt. The first was when we decided to head to the school library for blood donation. When we reached there and filled up the forms and went in for our screening, we were both rejected hhahah
coz my friends she was underweight while i was not allowed coz i was suspected to be a HepB carrier.
after dat went to celebrate my Buddy's Bday Ahmad.....hahahh we had a real good time together with the whole gang from the Superstar Fauzi to the Sispec warriors Azrian and Mushin.
The Following day i performed for a charity GIG to raise fund for a boy named sunny in Holland. My band we had a smashing good time performing and after the gig hehehhe i head down to MOS. HEHHEee yah and on dat day i met MAY the girl who i had a crush on, the first visit to MOS and i found out she was a friends friend of mine. I tot i had the chance in the world to get to know her better but i found out that she is getting married wah lau i tell u my heart just dropped. I was devastated didnt have the mood to dance any more so i left the club with my friend and head down to orchard to take the first train back home.
Hmmm not forgotting i met a friend whom i will always treasure till i get old coz u noe y she is the 1st person 1st friend who celebrated my bday and also sneak out the house just to celebrate my bday at esplanade. I will never forget the pink top she wore and also the bday cake she bought for me and also the area where we sat and spent our short period of time chatting with chewing gums hahaha.Ani way i decided to meet up with her coz is been a freaking freaking 2 years since we last met each other so yah we met. But hmm i have to admit i was shocked dat she had a BF already hehehhe and i felt abit jealous ah but i cant do anithing ppl move on with thier lifes.But it was nice seeing u and yah catching up with times dat we left behind. Hope to see u around again.
recently i went out with my Xgf Emy. i was the one who initiated the event, Dinner and sheesha. I dunno y i asked her out but yah it was realli exciting to see her again. But i was feeling uncertain cause my handphone was not with me and i was worried that she might just play me out but yah luckily she didnt and yah we had Dinner at ZAM ZAM restaurant which is well known for is Murtabak dan went fo SheeSha. This time round it sucked coz it was a realli giddy event. After smoking a few rounds i was like dizzy including EMY and yah when we about to leave i puked hhahahaha but luckily i did with discretion Dan we head home.
but the seriously unfortunate event was the raid of the camp i was at by Provorbs unit AKA Military Police. They were searching for phones dat had camera and also mp3 player and pornographic materials but they found none on me but the only prob was dat my phone contain Memory card and yes it is not allowed in ARMY. My phone was like confiscated for like 4days and yah i felt like some weirdo kid walking down the street without a phone hahahha
haiz and tmr i will be staying in camp till Sat morning dan after dat i will be headin down to suntec for The IT Show hhehehhe wanna join me? give me a call k...........
i tried my VERY BEST and lots of courage to head down to Tampines Mall for the last day of Audition for Anugerah Skrin which was hosted by the local Malay Channel SURIA. I went there with one of my Close Friend who knows me since Primary School till now. Upon reaching there, i was nervous cause of the queue present so we decided to take a seat and check out the surrounding. While looking around i noticed a few of the guys around and i asked myself whether will i be like one one of them the typical Mat Look with Mat dressing from head to toe. After an hour or two of seating there, i told my friend i guess we shall scrape the idea ah and we left. HHAHAAH this was the 2nd event that we went together and it a was a fruitless attempt. The first was when we decided to head to the school library for blood donation. When we reached there and filled up the forms and went in for our screening, we were both rejected hhahah
coz my friends she was underweight while i was not allowed coz i was suspected to be a HepB carrier.
after dat went to celebrate my Buddy's Bday Ahmad.....hahahh we had a real good time together with the whole gang from the Superstar Fauzi to the Sispec warriors Azrian and Mushin.
The Following day i performed for a charity GIG to raise fund for a boy named sunny in Holland. My band we had a smashing good time performing and after the gig hehehhe i head down to MOS. HEHHEee yah and on dat day i met MAY the girl who i had a crush on, the first visit to MOS and i found out she was a friends friend of mine. I tot i had the chance in the world to get to know her better but i found out that she is getting married wah lau i tell u my heart just dropped. I was devastated didnt have the mood to dance any more so i left the club with my friend and head down to orchard to take the first train back home.
Hmmm not forgotting i met a friend whom i will always treasure till i get old coz u noe y she is the 1st person 1st friend who celebrated my bday and also sneak out the house just to celebrate my bday at esplanade. I will never forget the pink top she wore and also the bday cake she bought for me and also the area where we sat and spent our short period of time chatting with chewing gums hahaha.Ani way i decided to meet up with her coz is been a freaking freaking 2 years since we last met each other so yah we met. But hmm i have to admit i was shocked dat she had a BF already hehehhe and i felt abit jealous ah but i cant do anithing ppl move on with thier lifes.But it was nice seeing u and yah catching up with times dat we left behind. Hope to see u around again.
recently i went out with my Xgf Emy. i was the one who initiated the event, Dinner and sheesha. I dunno y i asked her out but yah it was realli exciting to see her again. But i was feeling uncertain cause my handphone was not with me and i was worried that she might just play me out but yah luckily she didnt and yah we had Dinner at ZAM ZAM restaurant which is well known for is Murtabak dan went fo SheeSha. This time round it sucked coz it was a realli giddy event. After smoking a few rounds i was like dizzy including EMY and yah when we about to leave i puked hhahahaha but luckily i did with discretion Dan we head home.
but the seriously unfortunate event was the raid of the camp i was at by Provorbs unit AKA Military Police. They were searching for phones dat had camera and also mp3 player and pornographic materials but they found none on me but the only prob was dat my phone contain Memory card and yes it is not allowed in ARMY. My phone was like confiscated for like 4days and yah i felt like some weirdo kid walking down the street without a phone hahahha
haiz and tmr i will be staying in camp till Sat morning dan after dat i will be headin down to suntec for The IT Show hhehehhe wanna join me? give me a call k...........
Friday, February 03, 2006
y do u like someone?
i have been wondering y do ppl like someone?
is it coz they
is it coz they
- are handsome/ pretty
- loves the attention the other party gives
- like the entertainment
- want glamour
- are desperate to be in the norm society
- are able to accept the other side of the party
- are able to mate with the other party
- can connect mentally and spiritually
- have the same interest in life
- got nothing better else to do
- want to feel the power of domination of the other sex
- need money
i dunnno u give me your tots your ideas while i too start too wonder wats the point of liking here, liking there and being liked and yet feel so lonely in your heart......
Btw valentines gifts ideas
SEX
Wallet
Webcam
Perfume
Love
Emotion stableness
Long Hair
i dunno lah i list down the items just for fun like as if i would be celebrating the frightful day. I just dunno y i am feeling this way maybe coz of past history at around this period a year ago i was depressed i dunno wat the bull but yes lucky i got this blog to type out my wat ever bull i need to bull out......
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Gong Xi Fa cai......
this will be a very long holiday for me.....but trouble is lurking around me
My family now treats me as an enemy
ever since i got back from camp they have been bombarding me saying that the home has now turn to a hotel for me. I go out and come back as late as i want. I seldom do the household chores, i spend most of my time at home in front of the PC and i dont bother about the family matters any more. And every thing i say or do will be condem as if i have done a very wrong deed that stain the family name.
I just dunno wat to say or do. though i am trying to be as patience n let this period sail over, my heart will be the victim of emotion tragedy. Haiz.........
Next is about love......
i was just asking myself the wfor the past few weeks whether if u like a girl should u go all the way to help her. Should u sacriface urself just for her and in the end not get love back. Should we just do things and not expect any thing in return except for a thank you very much. Should we make so much effort to break up someone by touching the girls heart so that she can be with u. Or should u just let her free dont bother about her and just be close friends. Or should we not even meet at all. or worst still not declare your love to her at all....I just wonder y love sucks....y love is not as straightforward y ppl make love so difficult y do i suck in love
wat is love to me
wat is love
wat is to be loved
do u noe wats love
Thursday, January 26, 2006
CHINESE NEW YEAR
Hey Hey Hey i am out for my long super long enjoyable holiday......
ani way i guess next month will be a exciting pocket draining event i guess...
next month i got like 3 parties to attend on the Sat.....
Pre-Chinese New Year Celebration
Yasin
Grace
My is going to be exciting
Furthermore i will be celebrating Chinese New Year hahhaha
i dunno how much i will be colelcting but i guess
not as much as wat i got as a kid i guess.....
Any wa recently my Xgf just message me and she invited me to her
engagement wedding on the june which is still a long way to go but
still i was shocked to receive her message.Hmmm i still deciding whether i should or should not go coz if i go i dont think i know any one of her family members except her and she will be busy in the room My......And the next thing dats is bothering me if i were to go is whether i should go alone or bring a companion....
my wat a decision to make
Sunday, January 22, 2006
TP Open House
Hey I'm back again.....
ani way yesterday head down to Tp for the Open House. I was very disappointed with the whole event. The bands sucked, the security was a problem for me cause they didnt allow me to enter coz i did not have any bus pass. Any way in the end my friend managed to talk to the security guard to let us in. When the whole event started, i met lots of friends and yah chat talk n also met dat someone ah.
Any way i wanted to talk to her alot ah but like it seems dat her BF friends are like all lurking around me flirting with her is not a good thing to do. Thus i tried not to talk to her too much ah. Now u noe y i dont want to layan u so much ah.......but still is my fault ah. Ok back to the open house, the main event most of the crowd was waiting for the dance floor to start but it was like so late than it started. Also when the floor open, the music was onli for like 20min or so than the mass dance song started n that was the beginning of the end of Jam n Hop. Haiz any way i think i should just knock some sense into me n tell myself dat i am too old for all these ppl. When i was going around to look for ppl to dance, most of them were like so super young dan also got the presence of the MAT adik adik nak step abang abang......so the irritating.
Today early in the morning i rush down to Dhoby ghuat to do my band recording. We Recorded three songs so that we can send overseas for a compilation of the Different band around the world. This compilation made me proud of the band coz there is only two asian bands involve which is one of them is my Band.....hahhahah i am so happy but i am broke.....
ani way i now cant wait to go club next month.......MOS wait for me
i am coming.....
ani way yesterday head down to Tp for the Open House. I was very disappointed with the whole event. The bands sucked, the security was a problem for me cause they didnt allow me to enter coz i did not have any bus pass. Any way in the end my friend managed to talk to the security guard to let us in. When the whole event started, i met lots of friends and yah chat talk n also met dat someone ah.
Any way i wanted to talk to her alot ah but like it seems dat her BF friends are like all lurking around me flirting with her is not a good thing to do. Thus i tried not to talk to her too much ah. Now u noe y i dont want to layan u so much ah.......but still is my fault ah. Ok back to the open house, the main event most of the crowd was waiting for the dance floor to start but it was like so late than it started. Also when the floor open, the music was onli for like 20min or so than the mass dance song started n that was the beginning of the end of Jam n Hop. Haiz any way i think i should just knock some sense into me n tell myself dat i am too old for all these ppl. When i was going around to look for ppl to dance, most of them were like so super young dan also got the presence of the MAT adik adik nak step abang abang......so the irritating.
Though the whole thing was disappointing, there was some great moments which was hilarous. There was a surprise host which was Flying dutchman n he conducted 2 game in which the 2nd game i managed to participate. The game was simple. My task was to be a comentator for a Malaysia cup final Between Singapore Pahang. Here comes the twist, i need to do it in Malay. The Main problem was dat my malay sucks to the max n the game was to make the crowd feel as if there was really a goal happening....Though it was tough but i managed to scrap thru but was not as popular as the countermate Sahfari. But still i made someone feel lonely so i need to APOLOGIZE TO DAT PERSON
SORRY
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Today early in the morning i rush down to Dhoby ghuat to do my band recording. We Recorded three songs so that we can send overseas for a compilation of the Different band around the world. This compilation made me proud of the band coz there is only two asian bands involve which is one of them is my Band.....hahhahah i am so happy but i am broke.....
ani way i now cant wait to go club next month.......MOS wait for me
i am coming.....
Saturday, January 14, 2006
MOS Outing....
Woaa.....MOS yesterday was amazing...
Love the environment n the atmosphere. The velvet carpets at retro arena, Trance area was massive n comfortable to dance in the only problem i guess was the Rnb Area. Gosh the place was freaking pack hard to dance and with the surrounding fences entrance n exiting of the dance floor was a big headache.
Though it has some hitch i extremely enjoyed myself. Hmm manage to groove with a few girls but after dat they were all pulled away by thier frds. Ladies there were like mostly 20s so i kinda feel so the young esp when u got a botak head.
The was one particular girl which was the main attraction for me. Her name was May, met her in the RnB arena. She has a Malay Thai Chinese look n she was realli grooving real well. I managed to dance infront of her coz she was on the platform. She was kinda piss off while dancing coz of the constant pushing by the other dancers n she nearly fell on mi (how i wish i could grab her) but she didnt but my hands were already prepared to catch her if she fall. I managed to exchange smiles with her n also managed to exchange some talk but i sense she wasnt interested thus i too didnt want to pester her much. Pester i didnt but she got lots of different pest pestering her trying to take advantage with her n also trying to hook up with her . She was pestered by this indian Asshole so i exchange my spot for her so she can dance without being disturbed. The guy dan tried other means to get to her but too bad he had to go thru me. Even tried picking up a fight with me but too bad i know my game. There was also this guy who tried chatting her up n she was dam irritated n i told her to dance with mi so dat he will not disturb her n she danced with me for awhile n in the end the guy left. When she left the platform for a drink, we exchanged smiles and this time she initiated it. Didnnt know wat it meant but i continued to dance. After her drinks, she was nearby the platform but was waiting for her friend to lend her a hand but her friend was enjoying herself thus i initiated my hand and subsequently she wasnt particular about me accidently touching her. Actualli earlier on she didnt mind at all. Dan it was time for me to leave n i exchange goodbyes with her n my friends were expecting me to get her number but too bad i didnt felt of doing it coz i guess it does no good for me coz i will be staying in camp for like 5 days for the next 3 months and i dont think i have the time to get to know her.
overall it was a great event......
hope to go again.....
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
HOW I WISH
Your image running thru my mind
Your heartwarming smile, your lovely eyes n your long silky hair
how i wish it touches my heart time n again
your frequent teases n your sarcastic laughs
Do u know u make life so fine
since the day we started chatting
you were the one i hope to be with
but guess time n faith was against me
you r in a relationship
disappointed n lonely i feel
but what matters most is dat ur happy
my love for u i'll keep in me
how i wish i can shower you with it
to the someone......
this one is for u.........
MY LOVELIFE
Well- liked i guess
sociable i am
many friends
many acquaintance
but true love not found yet
just all alone in this world of love
Many tries have led in vain
should i just try again
Guess i should guess i not
for is going to be a tiring job
what should i do with my lovelife
should i just be alone
all my life
Sometimes i wonder why i suck
when it comes to my lovelife
and why haven i found
the true right one yet
so that i will be
able to spend
the rest of
my life
with
i am back......
HeLLo friends i am back in action....
Finally i've got a new PC n a faster internet connection
hmmm wanna check out my PC Specification?
is an
Finally i've got a new PC n a faster internet connection
hmmm wanna check out my PC Specification?
is an
AMD processor
128mb PCI express Graphic card
512mb Ram
80Gb SATA hardisk
DVD r/rw
these are the main factors.....
aint it good Ahmad?
Any way like to give a big thanks to Ahmad for his consultation and also a big shout to all my fellow friends from everywhere around the world..... Any way my freedom i guess will be cut short till like onli this upcoming monday coz i will be staying in from Monday onwards. I will only be out on the weekends....haiz i noe all of u guys going to miss me rite......hahhahaa
Any way do feel free to sms mi msn mi or tag mi alright....
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