so here i am at Starbucks, at Raffles Place opposite Lau Pa Sat. Before this, I was from office, my new HQ Office penning down the contract and yes finally, I have already committed myself to this company for 15mths. Though is quite a pretty long period of time and the pay is not that high but hey at least there is a start for me to start, clearing my debts and my savings for the future.

Apparently, this is what i plan during this 15 months, mingling among the teachers and try to understand their plight. so as to assist me in deciding whether i should head towards the education industry. Yes i do know of all the incentive of being a civil servant who carries a civil service card and gets a hell lots of privileges but there is uncertainty for myself because, this is not what i want to do but the wishes of my parents.

Relationship with my parents not that good, has got to be me everyday coming home late night after work and at the same time the constant swiping of my card on taxi. Haiz......Yes I know is my fault but hey coming home late, i just don't see a major prob. Is not like everyday i come back home drunk, puking, beating up people or making a din. I just do hope that at this period of time, i am enjoying my life with the love of my life.

You have got to be the best thing that has happen to me. No matter how many times i say it over and over again, it cannot compare how much i treasure you so much. A day without you, makes me feel awkward, lost and incomplete. You are the one whose smile are to live for. The constant mocking each other and cuddling on every ride, are things i want to do with you once i got a proper job. Furthermore, i want to have your hands on my shoulder while i drive, having to pick you up in a car and going shopping together and mocking at all the disgusting ugly teenagers though we too are not getting any more younger already.

Hhahhahaah though we have our differences, our different upbringing, i am not really bothered about it. Just as long as the person in your heart, in your mind and within your arms is me and not someone else will be much more than enough. I am loving every moment every minute with you........do you?

the true khairulnizam.........

Lets see what lies behind all this fictions smile of mine
brain----pretends to have knowledge of everything but is actually empty
face -----i hate the outlook of my face, my stupid eyes which cant see for nuts, my ears half deaf
bod------just a pure load of lard with a huge tummy that can never be slimmed down, my chest is super shaggy which looks like a female's developing breast, my arms were never strong, i hate the whole of my freaking body which can never be proportional, i hate my dropping shoulders, i hate my skin at the back of my body which has lots of oils pores,I hate the lower part of my body.
bottoms my manhood is not big enough, i got a huge ass, my thighs are fat, my legs are weak,
i got varicose veins, i hate the black spots around my ass.
heart--- i am gutless, everyone thinks i am not emotional and a robot, i got low blood count

so you thought i was cool and fun loving and lots of confidence think again............