THE COOLEST COUPLE

one owns a
while the other owns a

Though they live far away from each other doesn't mean they seldom meet one another.
One is a princess from the west while the other is the prince of the north
Together they head to the dungeons to listen to their favourite moans and cries of people.
There will be times where a little cute bodyguard who will pop by to overlook us

.
Yes! it's him, Mr PIPI on the lookout.


this is what happens when you are bored on Christmas eve and you have nothing to do.
All I can do is think about my lovely girl

Life has turn for a better for me and i have to thank my lovely beloved gf who has always been there for me even though i am broke and useless. I got a job which will start on the 2nd of Jan. The employer also met to my request. I told him that i needed 600 bucks on the 17th and he agreed. Isn't it wonderful to have such nice employers.

any way went to the gig yesterday. It was hell boring for me but the place was awesome, finally a place we can called DIY AS FUCK. The venue was at this old shophouse warehouse place located at havelock road, though there was some difficulties heading to the place, we had lots of fun with our friends.

After the gig head down to Ah kong, our landing port after gigs. A gig without Ah kong can never be a gig. Head there had a huge meal of seafood and my standard meal 1/2 friend spring chicken with extra coleslaw. Sat there talked and drank baron which i had only one glass cause afraid might puke. Hanged out there till late and i send my lovely Gf back home.

I love it when my sayang gets all so cosy with me in the bus. I like it whenever she wakes up and see my face, she gives me the loveliest smile ever. Sweetheart oh sweetheart, some say the holiday period of a relationship usually happens for the first year of the relationship hahhahhaa ours is not a holiday period. ours is a perfect dream come through. Having the love of my life sitting, cuddling, hugging me every time. The feeling is utopia and i can't bear myself to not live without you.

Now i can't wait for monday where you my sayang will be taking care of me the whole day while i take care of you and manjer manjer you with my cat meows and little tickle on your cheeks. COME HERE DARLING I AM WAITING FOR YOU

awesomely wonderful fucked up life in a materialistic world
millions of jobs available but none i can choose from
for i am such an idiotic lunatic jerky Dick

FINALLY...............
MY DREAM PHONE HAS ARRIVED
Nokia 6500 slide was the phone i have been dreaming of ever since it was released in the market. Though it was lambasted to be a very normal and boring phone, to me it was the sleekness and style of the phone that caught my eye. the stainless steel cover built in with a 3.2MP Carl Zeiss camera. I couldn't resist

My princess bought for me a nice watch.

i doubt you can see it clearly but hey want to see it, check it out on the model's hand.








Any way, yes!!!! i got my pay already though it's not much but i managed to get myself a new phone, gave my parents a food treat at Ojolali. It's nice to see them all exuberant about having me to pay for their food. I love my family......

Now is back to the days of looking for a new job again......i know this process is painstaking, with so many jobs out there but you are just lacking the stupid skills and experience, you are just like a lame shit. With everyone of yours friends all getting a job and a gf who is job hopping, i feel like an idiot. I have been looking for jobs everywhere but apparently not many got back to me. I wonder why, is it because i am that stupid or i am totally hopeless. Still i always look ahead and always be positive but is hard to stay that way all the time.

My love life is totally wonderful with the princess forever loving me and yes i am sorry that i am such a terrible state, to be frank i feel stupid, i feel fat, i feel poor and totally hopeless but every time when i see you smile and you hug me real tight, i tell myself don't look down on myself both physically and mentally.

My princess also lost her phone recently and i am partly to be blame. Now you are getting a replacement phone and i cant chip in a single cent for you. Yes money is everything and love is money cause without money, love is just a dream where all you can do is wish but that wish can never come true.

Anyway my target is to get a job at least by the end of the month, if i can't get any job, i will just head back to V2 and start working there again selling handphones. Though the money and the working hours is crappy but hey at least there is money coming in. Yes at times there will be some stupid idiot who will make life difficult for you at work, but i feel that if you are not strong willed enough and you don't take the job seriously, you can never be satisfied with the job.

Haiz.....holidays coming but hey it will be a lonely event. Christmas alone at home while parents go malacca while my princess heads to Bintan with her family. So i just stay home and find more job opportunity for myself.

so here i am at Starbucks, at Raffles Place opposite Lau Pa Sat. Before this, I was from office, my new HQ Office penning down the contract and yes finally, I have already committed myself to this company for 15mths. Though is quite a pretty long period of time and the pay is not that high but hey at least there is a start for me to start, clearing my debts and my savings for the future.

Apparently, this is what i plan during this 15 months, mingling among the teachers and try to understand their plight. so as to assist me in deciding whether i should head towards the education industry. Yes i do know of all the incentive of being a civil servant who carries a civil service card and gets a hell lots of privileges but there is uncertainty for myself because, this is not what i want to do but the wishes of my parents.

Relationship with my parents not that good, has got to be me everyday coming home late night after work and at the same time the constant swiping of my card on taxi. Haiz......Yes I know is my fault but hey coming home late, i just don't see a major prob. Is not like everyday i come back home drunk, puking, beating up people or making a din. I just do hope that at this period of time, i am enjoying my life with the love of my life.

You have got to be the best thing that has happen to me. No matter how many times i say it over and over again, it cannot compare how much i treasure you so much. A day without you, makes me feel awkward, lost and incomplete. You are the one whose smile are to live for. The constant mocking each other and cuddling on every ride, are things i want to do with you once i got a proper job. Furthermore, i want to have your hands on my shoulder while i drive, having to pick you up in a car and going shopping together and mocking at all the disgusting ugly teenagers though we too are not getting any more younger already.

Hhahhahaah though we have our differences, our different upbringing, i am not really bothered about it. Just as long as the person in your heart, in your mind and within your arms is me and not someone else will be much more than enough. I am loving every moment every minute with you........do you?

the true khairulnizam.........

Lets see what lies behind all this fictions smile of mine
brain----pretends to have knowledge of everything but is actually empty
face -----i hate the outlook of my face, my stupid eyes which cant see for nuts, my ears half deaf
bod------just a pure load of lard with a huge tummy that can never be slimmed down, my chest is super shaggy which looks like a female's developing breast, my arms were never strong, i hate the whole of my freaking body which can never be proportional, i hate my dropping shoulders, i hate my skin at the back of my body which has lots of oils pores,I hate the lower part of my body.
bottoms my manhood is not big enough, i got a huge ass, my thighs are fat, my legs are weak,
i got varicose veins, i hate the black spots around my ass.
heart--- i am gutless, everyone thinks i am not emotional and a robot, i got low blood count

so you thought i was cool and fun loving and lots of confidence think again............

i had a great time.
Did you?
Your Birthday, Jalan Raya
our love
can't wait for more activities to do together
Yes i am an idiot
to miss an awesome gig
right after i got my PINK IC
Yes i screwed up time and again
I just want to let you know
i can never get enough of you

you look gorgeous when we were together
the make up was just beautiful, not overly done
your dress was all so sweet and heavenly
your smile and your eyes just stole my eyes from me
you are an amazing women
yes you are
i fall in love with you time and again
well
i guess we will be having more fun in future
TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SPETEMBERS POST

well... well....l i got to say September has got to be a roller coaster ride for me. I had to freaking drag myself to Pulau Tekong for a one week outfield camp which was a hell of a waste of time for me because i was practically doing nothing, all i can ever remember was sleeping in the afternoon waiting for my colleague to come back and after that it was break fast. Though the nights were not that boring, with the companion of all my colleagues from the pak ciks to the younger generation specialist having fun under the velvet sky. My gf was greatly missed because i was so used, having her beside me every night without fail, one week was quite torturous for me.

Any way, the whole exercise ended on my Birthday and that was super sucky cause from Pulau Tekong, we had to head back to Sembawang camp where i had to clear the rubbish and all the stores for the exercise. I asked my superiors whether it was possible for me to be dismissed early since it was my birthday as a privilege but apparently not. On that particular day was also the day which began the huge fight with my GF. Haiz.....it was sad that on my birthday itself i had to clear shit and fight with my GF. I look back and i do have to agree that my last year's birthday wasn't of a good timing except for my gf's celebration.

Any way i am quite glad that you have grown stronger after one week without me, i am proud of you and at the same time disappointed at myself for mistreating you like a doormat. I'm sorry that i took advantage of you, really sorry. I know i can be such a huge jerk and i don't manage my anger appropriately. I am trying my best to be better in that area alright. Any way i just want to let you know again that ONLY you are my BEST FRIEND, MY SAYANG, MY LOVER, MY SOUL and the ONE who deeply knows whats beckoning inside my head and my heart.

Nevertheless, the birthday party went extremely well. All thanks to MY SAYANG, NURIAHMAD(go figure out which couple this is and btw its official) and not forgetting those who came and send their well wishes. Guess i need to list them down if not some of you guys might feel left out... ok here it goes, YAN, YANA, MUHSIN and GAL, NAZ and FINA, ISKANDAR (OUR FUTURE HUSBAND),these are the people who attended the party next is for the well wishes, sorry if i did'nt reply your sms, JEREMY my cousin, FOXXY, RIDZWAN the clerk, IDAYU, my colleagues in camp and hahhaha the rest i am sorry i cannot remember already. The cake was awesome, the pizzas were abundant both vegetarian and meat eaters, the sparklers brought the child in all of us, you should see how all the guys were indulging themselves with the sparklers, the venue was really suitable for all of us to run amok and belittle ourselves. After botanical gardens, headed down to Marina Square for POOL session. HHAHHAHHA sad to say i beat all of them not because i was lucky or they gave chance to me but i was pretty good at the game. Birthday party this year has got to be the sweetest and now i am stress on how to celebrate my own GF's one.

so here i am at NUS library sitting next to my GF accompanying her to study for her exams while i blog and at the same time look for a job so that i can work after i ORD which is 18 days from today. So exciting, i cant wait for the day to come where i have no one to answer for except for my parents and my gf and at the same time start to earn more than just a mere $600 bucks every month. OH today is HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY...to all those adults who have a child in them hehheheh...... don't be afraid to release them once in a while to escape from the stress that you are exposed to.

Alright i am really out of words to type now but i want to wish all my friends all the best in their endeavors.

CLUBBING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That has got to be the best clubbing night ever
with u
got to rekindle how we kissed in the club
though earlier on the music sucked you were totally mind blowing-ly hot
never had i thought that bringing a gf to club is as exciting as just now.
you changed my perception all thanks to your raunchy moves
and bootylicious moves that makes every guy in the club jealous.

you were pretty in the newly bought dress
your smile was outstanding even the moonlight was outshone
you have got to be the best and cutest women on earth and hehheeh vice versa
thank you my love
thank you so much



ps... couldn't wait to express my feelings that is why is done 6.00am and i just got home.....

guess what....
every relationship has it's own ups and downs
when i am down, i say the meanest things

but now i want to retract whatever i have just posted a few weeks ago
i want to apologize to all the women in the world for generalizing
i do know of women who can be the sweetest being of earth and no matter what happen still be the sweetest women of earth.

i love you so much baby.....
i just want you to be mine thats all
i don't like to see you smiling so happily with other guys(ok i am selfish)
furthermore it pains me to see some guys having so much fun with you

yes call me selfish
call me possesive
yes i admit i am becoming one
but i am trying my best to be flexible
please help me my love
help me sayang.....

well apparently women are an ass
attention seeking creatures who likes to grab
every single attention from every guy in this world

it's so sad that at the end of the day the BF's attention
is vast less important compared to the friend's
getting every guy to miss them is a must.
this feeling of being missed by these guys is what makes them more eccentric

they hang out with your friends, they sulk and get bored easily
but once they happen to see a friend of their's
they will blast off in a speed of lightning
even if the friend is like in a mist of crowd

they always try "very hard" to curb their urges and habit
but for guys a harsh stop means don't do it.
they always threaten and say you don't love them
if guys don't allow them to do something
guess yes i don't at all

gave them so much and yet
they like to step over your head
especially MY FUCKING HEAD
you cross my line....i had enough

my trust for you is depleting

MOOD: TOP OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


is so amazing when one sacrifice leads to another's happiness
thank you so much
sorry for being a total jerk at times
but i can't help behaving that way

i use to not feel jealous but the longer i know you
is hard because i guess i am selfish
i just want you to have your happiness from me and only me

thank you so much!!!!!

work starts tomorrow
shit beginning shortly
suckers slackers
getting their monthly salary
and all they do is drink
7 cups of coffee everyday


i love u !!!!
thank you for being mine....

low morale
poor pathetic lost indecisive
or maybe i am tired

i can't even figure out why am i this way

no understudy till 3 days before i ORD
another 3 more months of pathetic work load
lesser spending time
edgy on the phone
i spend time with my family
i spend time with my friends
i stay home
i go out
i go work
i go have fun
i do work
i do nothing
i am smart
i am useless

thinking too much makes you grow old
wait hold on for a second
growing old makes you think more
not thinking too much makes me older
responsibilities abundant
what if i don't have any?
does that makes me less responsible?

i dunno life is in a mess
no motivation to work
i have my family to please
i have my friends to please
i have you to please
but do i please myself
have i ever please myself
is it good to be selfish

what do you think?


do i make you sick?

have you ever been in love?
have you?
thats the question that i ask myself last time when i had all the short term relationship.
Although i was crazily in love with them, maybe that feeling was just puppy love.
NOW at this very moment, i have no doubt about the question.
Have i ever been in love? Yes i am currently in love with the most loveliest women on earth.

Why do i love her so much.....

• she is extremely sweet and beautiful
• her smile is endearing
• she brings comfort to my heart
• your touch is warm
• her eyes are out of the world
• your intelligence blasts my mind off
• confidence oozing lady when you are outspoken
• you're the master of patience

I LOVE YOU BABY......

well...it has been really a roller-coaster ride for me for the past few weeks....
My band made it all the way up to KL for a gig, which was awesomely marvelous.
Great Kids, hospitality was awesome, great no 1 companion(you know who you are), great show which started late and yah most of all I was great. Hahhahhaha ok, mind the egoism, i need something that i can be proud of. Rush my way back to Singapore Monday morning so that i can presume my service to the nation.

At work received a call that my uncle was dead at home. The news was from my own bro who discovered with together my family at his bed alone dead. I was shocked and lost. At that point of time, the one thing that came to my mind was the first time where my late uncle brought me and my mom to watch my first ever movie. It was at THE CATHAY and i remembered clearly it was Police Academy 3.

My late uncle was one of the two uncles that my bro's can relate easily. He was funny, very kental and was always looking out for his quite outcast nephews. We watch and discussed about soccer, played soccer at the beach, always giving us encouragement and giving us credit when we done something good. He was the uncle that we always eager to meet, when we are at his house. Now he is gone into ashes(the process was really really angry, it wasn't the person who was doing it because it was his job, but to the whoever who allowed such a practice.) Chinese new year, christmas will never be the same again.

fortunately, i had someone special who has been there for me all the time. Everytime i think of her, she just makes me smile and give me a reason to carry on. She has been with me for the past 14 months and i am very grateful for having you as my Gf.

Now for me is to decide what to do right after i complete my NS, i don't wish to be a bummer, i need money, i want to work and at the same time study. I need to kick start my this stupid brain of mine which has been stalled for coming to 2 years.

Hhahhha furthermore next month, most of us will be getting extra income, so hhehehhe i will be spending it i dunno on what but yah.....got to spend it wisely.....

we never go out out together, you not interested in me but interested in your friend's band
I miss u dearly, i am so lost and there u are telling me you are bored when actually you are having fun enjoying the games while i am here stuck here alone in this stupid house ALL alone.

so now ur back home ask u to come online, you divert your attention to your writing, and have to obey what you say and i have to sayang you.

Fuck lah you are sick you don't want to see a doctor
You are sick and still want to go out with your friends
with me you just need a companion who can sayang you and just be there for you.
You want to hang out with me but you are in the state of being dizziness
so am i selfish if i say ok to hang out with you,
am i right to send you back and make sure you reach home safely.
or wait am i suppose to not do anything and fucking shut up and don't bother

Sometimes in life is best we just fucking shut up and do your own fucking business
don't care what other people or feel and just do whatever you want to do.
If you do it on account of people, they will never ever remember the things you do ,when things all gone wrong. Sacrifices, everyone around you wants you to but when you do, they will expect you to do it again. One day, you decided not to and they start asking you why are you not doing it anymore,this totally sucks cause in the beginning i did it on my own account now is compulsory.

i am sometimes so just fucking lazy in life.
i rather be poor and just not think about all this stupidity thoughts
and just be obsessed with whether i can live tomorrow.
I just want to be obsessed with the basic needs of life and not this fucked up city mentality state.

never ever ever.....

a few days ago
i said some really bad stuff to my GF
i know i am a J.E.R.K
but hey she knocked some sense into me
and have learnt my lesson

so here is to all you guys out there,
eh wait is for everyone who is reading this post.

read, capture it and keep it

Have you ever reach to the point where u think your partner is not doing any thing special?
Think again!!!!!
Go through the everyday motion of life
think carefully, who do you see?
what did he/she do?
did you feel happy with what's done?
does he/she ever complain about how tiring it is?

i realized that in a relationship, sometimes the special things that your partner do often
turns into a routine. this makes us forget that this special everyday routine makes the day a little bit special.
so my friends, don't ever tell your partner that they never do anything special cause without the everyday routine actions, you are just a lonesome kid in the middle of the desert playing with the thorns of the cactus.
hahhhhaa ok i don't get the whole idea of the desert but i guess it sound good so ya just whack.

baby
i am so
SORRY

any way today was exceptionally fantastic
sleepover at dorm yesterday, Monday on Leave
head down to Sentosa in the afternoon where we had
Luge, the Skyride and Underwater world.
honestly, from the day Underwater world started, it took me like
10 years of so to head there for a visit.
how surprisingly is that.
We checked out all the different marine life and was impressed with the display.
the only irritating fact was that there was too many foreigners visiting the place.
You have Koreans, Japanese, Americans, Indians and many more.
The place was packed jammed packed but the highlight of the visit was the feeding of Stingrays
one of the staff there happened to be my School junior and he offered me free food so that i can feed the stingray and OMG....... i had a painful experience. I had my finger bitten. Maybe is because i held the meat wrongly and mind you i had to put my had under the water and slot the meat between my fingers and not just dangling it off your two fingers. Any way is the experience that matters and while the late Steve Irwin got stung by a sting ray i got bitten by a sting ray.

Ohh...before heading to Underwater world, we had fun at the luge and the skyride. the luge was a downhill slide where you can control your movement with the bar. it was really fun though i was too fat thats why you won my dear baby but nevertheless we enjoyed the mini adrenaline furthermore we manage to get another free ride all thanks to another junior of mine who was working at that station. hahhahhah i guess is good to have friends at such places. After the mini race, we took the skyride, is those type where ice skiers take and head up to the mountains to ski down but this time there is no ice for us to ski but the scenic view of Sentosa and being at the top of the world with my loved one was what it offered. hehhehehhe though it was scary but ya ehhehheheh it was worthwhile. I bet you don't know i was scared right.

haiz.... it was really fun filled afternoon but too bad time was never on our side and we had to head back to dorm and pack up cause i need to head home. Next time more people will come and we shall have a L1(Luge 1) race.

Thank you so much my dear baby the one whom i love.......

in a rush....

This post shall be short and sweet cause i am in a rush.
while awaiting for my mp3 player to finish transferring my songs
i shall update u with my life.

i am still with my loveable baby Girl....Mar
i love her so much everyday also must meet....
i am now in the midst of having exercise for the next upcoming weeks
i kena 7 Xtra by my OC hahhahha pluz my WSM is going to give me another 3 more.

reached home around 9.30 and now i am going to head back to camp
tmr is my combat shoot...wish me luck and i will get 200 bucks.....

ok my mp3 player is done gtg....
love u marinah...
and all my frdssss take care....

fish in the pond pondering about the pond

it was nice to be with you
it was great doing things together
it was nice to have your friends around
but when the time strike 11 and u chase me home
like a stray little dog
unwanted, so not needed
no sms from you
no call from you
no coaxing?
i need coaxing from you
cause from the day i was born i had no such privilege
you had your fair deal of pampering
y is it so difficult

work today sucks, left work at 5++
supposingly to wait for the trainees who are on exercise to head back to camp
return stores into my storeroom then i can leave but i didn't
y cause i cant wait to meet my GF
when they returned, superiors looking for me
i wasnt in camp and they got pissed off.
My OC is thinking of giving me 7 extra for going off.
which makes me wonder
when one does so many things alone for the benefit of others
praise and appreciation is not given
when one does one mistake
every deserving punishment in the book must be read out
haiz NS really sucks.....
7 more months and counting......

wah kao

a few more weeks and is my LRI
dam it my accounts not updated
my stores not accounted yet

soon i will be having my Combat shoot
exercise is approaching
so many events
so many things
all done alone by one person
no motivation to work
no desire to learn
just wanna quickly get this over and done with.

ps: so i am tired and i still have to coax ppl

Oh Oh Oh and not forgetting a got a FOSSIL Wallet from my GF
for Valentine's day
how cool is dat......

THANK YOU BABY!!!!!

eh alamak i posted before what she gave to me ah.....
paiseeh!!!!

140207 has got to be the best Vday i ever had
all thanks to my lovely beautiful sexy baby dear
hehhehehe.....she was so lovely and sexy in that dress
i guess no one can ever mix both attributes as well as you dear

ok so it went like tis,
i was working on VDay and she was pissed with me
cause i didn't get at least a half day leave from work.
I AM SORRY DEAR but my superiors were not in a good mood dats y.
Initially, she wanted to pick me up from work and dat was a hindrance to my plan.
i wanted to get her a bouquet of tulips at the nearest shopping centre and i cracked my head to think of an excuse to drop by the area. Luckily, there was no need for that cause she was stuck at the blood donation centre due to the high volume of people donating.

i quickly left work and rush my way to the shopping center to get the flowers. After i ordered, i was asked to wait for about 15mins to collect my flowers , when i came back my flowers was not ready and there was a confusion of orders so i had to wait for another 15 to 20 mins for my flower. i was quite pissed off but i perservere for the sake of my lovely GF. While waiting, the lady kept on apologizing to me and letting me know she will make sure it will be very nice, indeed it was.

After collecting my flowers, i rushed to get a cab which was an ass cause it was peak period. The whole journey was even worst, the constant jam and the bloody slow dirver really got me on my nerve and with my GF becoming more impatience which i could understand her situation. i was really angry with myself and the things happening around me. Luckily there was the calming effect of the tulip where everytime i look at the flowers, i will just imagine how delighted my gf will look when she receives this bouquet.

i picked her up at heeren where she was at our friend's workplace. sitting there awaiting for me like a cute little rabbit awaiting for the owner. When she saw me and the bouquet of tulips in my hand, she took a deep breath and hugged me so tightly with all her might and love. She was ecstatic, i love the look in her face, the smile, the eyes and her hair was all so perfect dat day.

From heeren, we head down to clarke quay on foot and enjoyed our stroll down orchard, comparing and criticizing other bouquet of flowers. I got to admit that her flower is totally special cause everywhere u go is all roses, roses and roses, red ones to be exact. Hers was purple tulips hehhehhehhe and it was not too big and not too small.

when we reached clarke quay, the bungee area, we bought our tickets and lined up. Before our turn, was a bunch of FAT russian who had difficulties strapping up into the safety harness. When she saw the harness, she went berserk and started asking how is she going to take the ride with her skirt and also wit a camera attached onto one of the structure indecently, she was frantic and kept on apologizing to me. I was quite mad at her but i stayed calm and pushed dat matter aside and just let her get frantic while i just kept quiet and paid more attention to wats going to happen later in the ride.

When it was my turn, the staff there was talking to us and i told them i took this ride all for my Gf and i'm not a big fan of such ride. hahhhahhha i was pretty scared, and at that point of time there wasnt much crowd checking us, but once the ride was up and going, a prime time show became the hit of the town. up on the ride was this guy who was screaming his lungs out like a freaking 12 year old girl. The guy was scared shit of this ride, he felt as if his balls were about to come out from his mouth everytime the thing fell back down.

beside the guy, was the gf who was laughing at him and shouting at him not to scream like a girl but the guy was petrified and paid no attention to her until the ride ended hey were left stranded on air for a few seconds, thats where the guy wished her happy Valentines day and they hold hands with the GF EXCLAMING to the whole of CLARKE QUAY that the guy screamed like a girl.

After the rider, we watched the couple who jus finished the ride and was laughing at every moment. the on lookers were also laughing at how pathetic the guy was screaming like some sore loser. From there we made our way to central mall for a wonderful delicious meal at billy bomber where we got served with marvellous service courtesy of SIMON.

Hheheh after the meal, head straight back to dorm and the rest is wonderful quality time with each other and i reached home 3 waking up the next day at 7 to head down to work.

though it was an embarassing night, it was all for my beloved GF and i shall not be afraid to bear any embarassement for my GF.

BABY KAI LOVES BABY MAR

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY MARMAR
and to all my friends out there
those who are single dont worry
your time will come
those attached dont spent too much
V day is just a "HALLMARK" day
is totally overated.

to my love
thank you for the gift, a wallet, a FOSSIL wallet.
i am sorry that you had to go thru the agony of buying me a leather one.
i am sorry but i really appreciate it.
tonight was fantastic, lots of laughter and hugs

hehehhe i cant wait for tmr after work.....
i will be spending an adrenalin night with you....
though i am chicken shit about this ride,
i guess for you i shall man this challenge with you

wat i want for Valentines day....

hahhha this may sound very hahhhaha
but this is to easy facilitate someone
hehehehehehhehhehehehehhehehhehehhhehe

hmmm...
a semi accoustic guitar( coz u complain i suck so must train)
a nice sling bag
a watch
a wallet
a NK6233
a limpwrist TEE
a bermudas
would be nice
BUT
i prefer
lots of kisses
lots of hugs
lots of strolling, hand in hand
lots of smile
lots of winks
lots of criticism
lots of lame jokes
lots of food
ICE CREAMS
WAFFLES
CHOCOLATE
are the best
lots of time,
so that i can
spend more time with you.

is just struck me in my head
smack in my face
stunned shocked
dat i am going to be



23




this year
thats how bloody old i will be
i still thought i was like 21

any way i am still loving my gf
i thank her for making me so unstable at times
and i prefer it this way rather than all smooth
system go i dunno where
i am still counting down the months
V day is coming and is going to scare my wits out
not coz of the time we going to spend or the money
we are going to lavish on each other
is just dat i promise her to take this ride
this adrenalin ride which i honestly speaking
dont have the guts to take it
but as a man
i shall "man" my words

Just as things were going all so smoothly
another hiccup again
do i control the situation
or just dont bother

wats love all about
controlling or just do anything

Wonderful week.....

This week was an awesome week......
The geeks from korea performed LIVE not once but twice
Yogyakarta performed together with them
we were complimented by them
I have something in common with Beyonce and Christina Aguilera, i have healthier looking nails all thanks to Dashing Diva
i manage to get out of the stupid mentality all thanks to my lovely GF
i love my GF
my gf Loves me
i go to work i siam
i want to keng coz i got another 8 more mths to go and i ORD oh.....
i am happy
i am satisfied now
i am going to think what i am going to do in my life.....

Thank You Mar Sayang....

Wonderful week.....

This week was an awesome week......
The geeks from korea performed LIVE not once but twice
Yogyakarta performed together with them
we were complimented by them
I have something in common with Beyonce and Christina Aguilera, i have healthier looking nails all thanks to Dashing Diva
i manage to get out of the stupid mentality all thanks to my lovely GF
i love my GF
my gf Loves me
i go to work i siam
i want to keng coz i got another 8 more mths to go and i ORD oh.....
i am happy
i am satisfied now
i am going to think what i am going to do in my life.....

Thank You Mar Sayang....

I am a failure

dats all

nothing in my 22 years of life have i achieved anything that is proud of

i am such a failure

yes i am

nothing in this world that you say will ever change my mind

i am a failure

yes kai is a failure

FULLSTOPPPP......

......tell me......

are we living in a world full of conditions
do things happen unintentionally
are we contradicting what we say
do we really trust each other

so someone has offended you
someone has angered you
someone apologize
wat do you do
accept the apology and pretend nothing happened