These past few months has been an emotional roller coaster ride for me. The lost of my Grandfather, my dad being diagnosed for Colon Cancer, my brother irritating attidude and me being sick, just makes me wonder how life is so miserable. Though i shouldnt complain much because there might be someone who is in a severe situation than me, this cannot be helped due to the nature of where i am living and as a true, not proud Singaporean who complain every single minute of the day, i guess thats how i am going to be, for now.

Hmmm.....brief news about my Dad and his cancer. He went for an operation to remove a 7 by 11 CM long tumour on his lower part of his colon located nearby his appendicts. It was really painful to see him suffer in pain and also with his family members which are my uncles and aunties still fighting over pride, money and alliances among themselves,is really disheartening i guess for my dad too. Thankfully my Mom's family stood by the family and gave us heart warming, encouraging words.

Last week, we went for his scheduled appointment, the one we have been anxiously waiting for. Is during this consultation than the doctor would inform us what stage my Dad cancer would be. Thankfully, the results out and he has Stage 3 cancer but he needs to go for Cancer treatment which would range from Chemo-therapy or just oral taking pills. This would onli be finalised on the 7th Nov but dam i've got duty on that day. haiz........

These few days too have been quite bad for me. i have not been feeling well, dunno y, maybe is either i have a weak immune system of wait maybe i haven been eating much rice. Hhahaha oh yesss....ever since i finish puasa, i had difficulties eating rice
so every day my diet would be just meat and vegetables. Kool ah....

Hah! and another big news that saddens me worst is my band. I can officially consider that is disbanded and given up hope in trying to get the band to jam. Sometimes, human beings are contradicting creatures that potray one and be another one. Human beings too cant just put aside whatever differences and work togther towards a common goal.....haiz guess no more gigs for me....no more weird costumes and no more naked butts......

Ok for the better things in Life, 1st would be my ever loving GF. She gave me a 2GB Creative Zen Vplus. This was my belated Bday Present and i really liked it alot....though i was kinda angry that she bought something expensive for me but upon looking at it i told myself this was a gem dat i must keep and treasure like the person herself. Ok now for her Bday which was on the 22nd Oct, i brought her to Mount Faber and we took a Cable Car ride to Sentosa and back. The view was filled lights of the surrounding buildings which was quite nice.

Honestly speaking i am kinda disappointed at myself because i didnt get a cake for her which i wanted to and also i wanted to do Fine Dinning with her in the cable car but in the end nothing, it was all down to just that simple ride thats all. Haiz, it seems like i cannot make things wonderful for her though she never complains about it and with her constant praise about the whole thing i just think that sometimes i was never good enough for her or maybe with her Xbfs.

Oh and to annouce to the whole world, the army personnel now address me as SGT KHAIRUL hahhahhah......i am a 3SG now. So with the power of a 3SG which is extremely mini i seize the power and apply it to those who are vulnerable and weaker than me in terms of rank hahhahah here i come.........beware of the 3SGT Crazy but in love FeLLa