i Guys I am back....but i am using my cousin's PC at my grandma place. Ani way is been a long time that i since last touch n feel n type so i am so totally lost but dat doesnt matter. Ani way for the past i dunno how many weeks i was in NS Pulau Tekong aka the land of the sins.....where vulgarities flew like how often the uncles and aunties at the market say Hi. At dat piece of land, mistakes and dust are always found by the instructors. While i was in the outside world, especially while working as a sales assistant, i had to obey the golden rule which was the customer was always right but in the army, the golden rule was the sergeants are always right. ok enugh about all the rules and regulations.
Life of NS.....here we go.....
(i shall not elaborate on them but here is a brief stufff......)
Lao Fu Zhi
Backstabbers
All talk but less action Fuckers
Lazy Bums
Slimmer (For ur info i think i lost alot....)
Less money
Less spending
Less Hair
Less Jamming
No girls
Sexually Deprived(hahaahha)
No Computer
Mentally Fucked
Confident
hahhahah thats the life of NS for u i shall not elaborate coz my cousin will soon be back and he will be using the PC once reaching here thus i cant type much. Ani way too all the wellwishes thank u very much for ur Concern n all also Slemat Hari Raya mAAF zahir dan batin
n yess i miss all of u.....
love u
to whoever u think i might love u
n take care to all who cared for me n esp those who stab mi.....
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
REST IN PEACE
Dear Readers
This will be the last post till i get my new computer and my new internet connection. Furthermore, i will be going NS on Friday and i will be reporting at Pasir ris at 9.45am at Pasir Ris Bus interchange.
Any way tomorrow will be the day my internet connection will rest in peace n my half dead pc will finally have a new after life with a new owner which would be a 2nd Hand dealer for PCs. I would just like to thank all of u for reading all my post n tagging at my board. If u wish to contact me do feel free to sms me at 90274940 or u can email me at chadkaikai@hotmail.com
Yours Sincerely,
Khairulnizam (kaikai)
This will be the last post till i get my new computer and my new internet connection. Furthermore, i will be going NS on Friday and i will be reporting at Pasir ris at 9.45am at Pasir Ris Bus interchange.
Any way tomorrow will be the day my internet connection will rest in peace n my half dead pc will finally have a new after life with a new owner which would be a 2nd Hand dealer for PCs. I would just like to thank all of u for reading all my post n tagging at my board. If u wish to contact me do feel free to sms me at 90274940 or u can email me at chadkaikai@hotmail.com
Yours Sincerely,
Khairulnizam (kaikai)
Monday, October 17, 2005
Piss off Mood swing......
wats wrong with me
i am feeling so fuck up again
y
i tot i was fine but
here i am still stuck in some low self esteem bullshit
n with my mom non stop nagging
and the way she commands oh My it sounds like
i am one freaking Maid
GoSh is sucky to be a maid of the house
how i wish i can just get out of this shell
n just enjoy life to is best
without any restriction
y cant i just do dat
arghhhhhhh
dam it ah
Sunday, October 16, 2005
memories are wonderful friendships are beautiful
yesterday was a marvellous n memorial event
though somethings did not turn out as expected like jamming
it was stilll a great day.
though i was agitated wit the cancellation of the jamming session last minute
while i was on my way down to tampines it didnt affect my mood for dat day.
Met up with Ahmad, Muhsin n Nazmi at Bedok Interchange
from there we head down to Beach Road coz Muhsin wanted to purchase his Sand bad for his weapon support.
BEACH ROAD
i dispise going down to Beach road on a weekends. Since my NCC days till now i seriously despise going there for either window shopping or even purchasing Army stuff from there. The atmosphere there is great but is just dat u will get occasional stares by other ARMY boys who are there getting thier stuffs n also show off n making a mockery of those who are aint as fit or tough looking as them. Though i am someone with high self esteem n seriously confortable with my un appropriate n undesirable body i notice the eyes glaring at me n checking my body out n from afar starts pointing n whispering to the friends about it. Frankly speaking i rather u have the guts to come up to me n say wat u wanna say about me rather dan finger pointing n bitching about me. enugh about Army Boys sure u will get to hear from me soon......so after beach road, we head to our meeting point...Kembagan Station......
Kembagan MRT Station
We were half n hour early so the two army Boy Nazmi n Muhsin went for prayers at the nearby mosque while Ahmad n I sat at the stairs n started waiting for everyone to come. While waiting, we were also wondering where is this place Mak's place at....coz we never heard of such place b4. After a hours wait, finally everyone arrive n Fauzi n his GF arrive also n he was outstanding. His dressin was like woah...coz in all my years of going out with him, the onli time i went out with him when he wore glamourously was during Dinner n Dance. Dat too wasnt as outstanding as yesterday. N so we head down to Mak's place.
Mak's place
upon reaching there a group of mat motor gang also arrive at the same time n it was realli contradicting n saddening sight. Coz everyone is with a Minah....n the minahs dont dress appropriately with tattos on thier backs while the Mats have tatoo from neck to hands. These ppl they disgrace their own names. On their ICs they are proud to put our prophets Name but their attidude n way of live disgrace the name of our prophet. Though i am not trying to say dat all of us including me is an angel but at least the very most respect the month n dress up appropriately not scantily n not showing off ur tattoos n also ur diamond wannabe shining ear studs. Ani way managed to get our seats n we place our order n waited for our food n also for break Fast. I ate fish n chips n i should say it was not as nice as i expected coz the fish meat is too thin. dan there was a Belated Bday celebration for Yana n Muhsin (sispec) n also the unexpected was dat it was also a farewell cae for Ahmad n me. The cake was great though it was kinda too big n i had to take the biggest share of the cake coz everyone had a piece of cake n i tell u it was a huge one....but thanks for all the effort n the cake n the well wishes. I really appreciated it. After having our dinner, all of us head down to geylang Bazaar.
Geylang Bazaar
At the freaking pack bazaar with abundance of ppl n sometimes irritating ppl it was really a hassle walking around. And our superstar Fauzie is getting his newly acclaimed fame with ppl asking for his photos n autograph. Aniway after walking umpteen times around the bazaar it was time to head home but it was kinda too early for me so i suggested those who wanted to continue hanging out to head down to esplanade to chill. One main reason was to just get away from so many ppl n just be around Nature. Not dat i am a naturist or something like dat but i prefer just being there after the whole walk. In the end onli Me, Ahmad n Azrian was for the idea
Esplanade
Bought ourselves drinks, tidbits n chill out n talk about our memories of school n also what impression did we had on our first sight of each other n also the rest of the gang.It was kinda soul sharing session with some of us bringing out some old times events. it was realli kool realli enjoyable n i had a real good time which i think the rest too had a god time. Ani way we made a move at 2 n yes w had nightrider to bring us back home.
I reached home at 3 in the morning......
though somethings did not turn out as expected like jamming
it was stilll a great day.
though i was agitated wit the cancellation of the jamming session last minute
while i was on my way down to tampines it didnt affect my mood for dat day.
Met up with Ahmad, Muhsin n Nazmi at Bedok Interchange
from there we head down to Beach Road coz Muhsin wanted to purchase his Sand bad for his weapon support.
BEACH ROAD
i dispise going down to Beach road on a weekends. Since my NCC days till now i seriously despise going there for either window shopping or even purchasing Army stuff from there. The atmosphere there is great but is just dat u will get occasional stares by other ARMY boys who are there getting thier stuffs n also show off n making a mockery of those who are aint as fit or tough looking as them. Though i am someone with high self esteem n seriously confortable with my un appropriate n undesirable body i notice the eyes glaring at me n checking my body out n from afar starts pointing n whispering to the friends about it. Frankly speaking i rather u have the guts to come up to me n say wat u wanna say about me rather dan finger pointing n bitching about me. enugh about Army Boys sure u will get to hear from me soon......so after beach road, we head to our meeting point...Kembagan Station......
Kembagan MRT Station
We were half n hour early so the two army Boy Nazmi n Muhsin went for prayers at the nearby mosque while Ahmad n I sat at the stairs n started waiting for everyone to come. While waiting, we were also wondering where is this place Mak's place at....coz we never heard of such place b4. After a hours wait, finally everyone arrive n Fauzi n his GF arrive also n he was outstanding. His dressin was like woah...coz in all my years of going out with him, the onli time i went out with him when he wore glamourously was during Dinner n Dance. Dat too wasnt as outstanding as yesterday. N so we head down to Mak's place.
Mak's place
upon reaching there a group of mat motor gang also arrive at the same time n it was realli contradicting n saddening sight. Coz everyone is with a Minah....n the minahs dont dress appropriately with tattos on thier backs while the Mats have tatoo from neck to hands. These ppl they disgrace their own names. On their ICs they are proud to put our prophets Name but their attidude n way of live disgrace the name of our prophet. Though i am not trying to say dat all of us including me is an angel but at least the very most respect the month n dress up appropriately not scantily n not showing off ur tattoos n also ur diamond wannabe shining ear studs. Ani way managed to get our seats n we place our order n waited for our food n also for break Fast. I ate fish n chips n i should say it was not as nice as i expected coz the fish meat is too thin. dan there was a Belated Bday celebration for Yana n Muhsin (sispec) n also the unexpected was dat it was also a farewell cae for Ahmad n me. The cake was great though it was kinda too big n i had to take the biggest share of the cake coz everyone had a piece of cake n i tell u it was a huge one....but thanks for all the effort n the cake n the well wishes. I really appreciated it. After having our dinner, all of us head down to geylang Bazaar.
Geylang Bazaar
At the freaking pack bazaar with abundance of ppl n sometimes irritating ppl it was really a hassle walking around. And our superstar Fauzie is getting his newly acclaimed fame with ppl asking for his photos n autograph. Aniway after walking umpteen times around the bazaar it was time to head home but it was kinda too early for me so i suggested those who wanted to continue hanging out to head down to esplanade to chill. One main reason was to just get away from so many ppl n just be around Nature. Not dat i am a naturist or something like dat but i prefer just being there after the whole walk. In the end onli Me, Ahmad n Azrian was for the idea
Esplanade
Bought ourselves drinks, tidbits n chill out n talk about our memories of school n also what impression did we had on our first sight of each other n also the rest of the gang.It was kinda soul sharing session with some of us bringing out some old times events. it was realli kool realli enjoyable n i had a real good time which i think the rest too had a god time. Ani way we made a move at 2 n yes w had nightrider to bring us back home.
I reached home at 3 in the morning......
Friday, October 14, 2005
FINALLY......
tonight was the first after a long period of confinment at home going out.
Chill out with my gang of Friends at Starbucks at Tampines Mall.
It was realli a great evening talking cork n also relating true stories
to my curious friends esp the one dat i had to translate everything in mandarin
dan she can understand wat i was trying to imply.
Any way Ahmad ur botak more shorter dan mine ahahaha ok good good
finally i get to see u botak n not have a culture shock when i go NS
Hmmm tonight was realli enjoyable n laughable with Naz n his exaggerated reactions n comments
while i was imparting my stories to them
Btw ppl who were together with us......
Fauzi n Curious Siti
Rahmat
Amy n GF n Pri 5 n Sec 1 sister
Nazmi
Ahmad
Me
Finally i am out
Finally i get to meet my frds
Finally ahmad n i feel blended with Naz(soon with the rest)
Hmmmm
ani way these are the frds i need to plan out who to go out with next week.....
Nurain(Makan n chill)
Trena(Makan n chill)
Trena(Makan n chill)
Rachel(everything under the sun)
Hxc Kids (sara, XyX members)
Stacie n Yasin(everything under the sun n the moon)
Diyanah (if she wanna go out with mi)(Makan)
Nisa(Makan n Movie)
*Names mentioned above have no priorities
Ani way if u think ur name should be included do feel free to tag ur name n i will make time for u for this upcoming week.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
just something inspirational about our world
whats the world going to be
when peace is not what we see
fights taking place everywhere
our peace is taken too lightly
anger and hate is what all feels
life is full of negativity
we are born with a peaceful mind
why must we corrupt mankind
with violence preached all the time
wasted lives are sacrifaced
life is not as easy as it seems
why must we add more difficulties
torturing ourselves to insanity
confine within the living of suffering
eventually
the smell of hate will intoxicate the anger
n arouse the beast within us
This write up is about wat our world has become from a peaceful with just beautiful nature surrounding us, it has become more violent, more destructive towards nature n towards ourself. Everyday lives are lost with the help of modern technology of weapons n chemicals that are within our boudaries.The existence of human being will further deterioate cause hate and vengence is filled in our heads n mind not love n peace. Soon we will be living in a warzone of which we create ourselves so DO make a difference by forgiving those who have angered u n offended u n make this world a better place to live.
does Singapore TV onli cater to Chinese Speaking ppl?
is realli freaking piss off to see channel U n Channel 8 coming up with so many fucking variety shows for entertainment. From Super Host to Finding historical sites in Singapore....fucking dam it onli Chinese speaking audience are interested is it? On Channel 5 hmmm lets see wat do we have.....some fucking boring sitcom show n yah some fucking american series dats is fucking bored. N whenever i change to Channel 8 or channel U there is non stop educational channel educating the youths on historical sites, games shows, n Talent searching shows. i do wonder is Singapore media just for the Chinese just because they are the majority?
Yesterday night i happen to switch channels n i saw this variety show. it's called get it right....the main motive of the show is to educate ppl on using proper mandarin n not using slang. If they are able to use these media to educate the mass y cant they use it to educate the english speaking on Singlish. There u go saying we must educate ppl not to use Singlish but there u are not making the effort to promote it.
any way today i have cut/shave my head n is freaking short. Hmmm i realli miss my long hair n i realli sayang my hair very much. Just now when i finish cutting my hair i manage to get a few strands of my hair n hold tight n close to my heart n drop it down to the floor. it was realli a heartfelt event for mi coz i dont think i will ever keep such long hair ani more coz i am going to be a TEACHER after NS. Hehheheheh ani way i also have photos to keep for reference heheheheh so yah....laugh n smile n touch my hair when u see mi next time coz is all short n sharpy now.....
Yesterday night i happen to switch channels n i saw this variety show. it's called get it right....the main motive of the show is to educate ppl on using proper mandarin n not using slang. If they are able to use these media to educate the mass y cant they use it to educate the english speaking on Singlish. There u go saying we must educate ppl not to use Singlish but there u are not making the effort to promote it.
any way today i have cut/shave my head n is freaking short. Hmmm i realli miss my long hair n i realli sayang my hair very much. Just now when i finish cutting my hair i manage to get a few strands of my hair n hold tight n close to my heart n drop it down to the floor. it was realli a heartfelt event for mi coz i dont think i will ever keep such long hair ani more coz i am going to be a TEACHER after NS. Hehheheheh ani way i also have photos to keep for reference heheheheh so yah....laugh n smile n touch my hair when u see mi next time coz is all short n sharpy now.....
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
HAPPY BDAY RUBEN.........
HAPPY BDAY TO U RUBENAS.........
to those who are thinking who is rubenas, he is my bro my second youngest Bro.
Ani way i got tag board alrady.....do feel free to tag
no cost no hidden agenda just tag for free.....
hmmm lets see wat am i having for my Break Fast.
oh.....Fried spagetti n Rojak Bandung.....
My oh My dats so.....ok nvm
ani way i will blog later on
now onli brief blog
see ya later again.....
Monday, October 10, 2005
Heaps of Rubbish lies memories....
while i was clearing my own stuff from my drawer i discovered a notepad n has a few scribbles of poems for my Xgf. I guess the poem or i should say write up coz it does not rhyme dat well is in collaboration for our upcoming 3rd month together but it didnt turn out dat well so i guess i never had the chance to let her read. Any way i shall share it with all my frds n if u think is nice do feel free to pass it on to soomeone u love.....
Two months gone in a swift of time
and here we are holding hands like there's no time
many obstacles we face ahead
quarrel will appear when we get agitate
that does not mean is the end of everything
but a true test for what we have given in
sacrifaces we made towards each other
the love we gave to one another
though jealousy arises all the time
making it our enemy of our life
but we will work together hand in hand
to get rid of this fella as quickly as we can
sorry if i make u teary when we are together
for all i know that is a tear of love from u
while i will still be here continue loving u
till i cant wake up to see the next morning dew
I think this write up was written while i was at work at OCBC......at dat point of time while i was free i keep thinking of writing such writings for her to keep but too bad she aint mine now so i guess i can rest now till the next lover arrives n i can crack my head to think of better writings ahead.
Saturday, October 08, 2005
life is fragile
just got back from hospital....
one of my cousin is realli sick
lets pray for her recovery
n yes may god bless u in the hereafter
to all those ppl i made promises today
i am so sorry i couldnt make it
n to Diyanah so sorry i cant give u any treat
coz tmr i have to go back to the hospital
one of my cousin is realli sick
lets pray for her recovery
n yes may god bless u in the hereafter
to all those ppl i made promises today
i am so sorry i couldnt make it
n to Diyanah so sorry i cant give u any treat
coz tmr i have to go back to the hospital
HAPPY BDAY TO U DIYANAH
may u forever stay cute pretty n sweet
n may u forever remember the days
where u keep beating my hand til it was red
n also irritating me yet entertaining me
n finally all the best to ur relationship
may u be sayang by the one dat sayang u
Friday, October 07, 2005
just wondering.......
After my dinner i sat down to watch this show on Channel U. The show was about finding your old Lovers n see how they are doing now. It was really a joyous yet teary event for many of us. N when i was watching i drift into my own world n wonder wat it would be if i was still 45 years old single n yah i participated in such a program to find all my all friends n lovers. Haaahahhaha i will surely cry leh......esp to see so many ppl so successful in life with family and kids. Although i dunno wat will happen to me 30years down the road but now as i look back at my memories n i think of my 1st GF dat i had to, the one dat i really love and yet i broke off with her in sec skool till the most recent one. I seriously find myself a failure in loving someone with all my heart. I dunno how n i dunno y but i seriously think i am the one who is the problem with the breakup. Though i have move on with life n forgotten about the incident, but when i think back it just felt that is just happen yesterday n all the remorse n regret i feel is so strong. To all those ppl whom i have loved once or express my love for u in any way i sincerely hope that u will forgive me and may u all have the greatest love n adventure in the upcoming years n even though time has past, events have been memories, in my heart there is still some love for u.......
Love is a strong word
it keeps two ppl together
it helps bring memories
it provides warmth n comfort
it creates joy n laughter
it creates a sense of well being
though i have expressed my words for u
it still lingers in my heart
for wat ever i say is true
times has past
relationships broken
communication gone
ur smile so wide
ur eyes so sparkling
ur hug so warmth
ur kisses so tender
buries deep down
into my heart n brain
whenever i express my love
for u
the cries u made
the pleads u beg
the hurt u suffer
the misery i offered
please forgive me
for i have done wrong
forget about mi
carry on living
while i turn over
into a new leaf
but u were there
once loved
n u will forever be
loved
this mini write up was
for all my Xgfs , future gfs n to my Wife
Thursday, October 06, 2005
More pic of loudfest
My Back View........ArGhhhh i see G String.....
is dat guy trying to grope my breast?
1st day of Fasting
I guess it was a pretty smooth day for me today for fasting.
but the whole day i was irritated by my parents especially my mom
order mer to do so many chores for me to do as if i am like the maid of the house
had to do the prawns, fold the clothes( is like one week supply of clothes) bring in the clothes, wash the dishes, prepare the food for break Fast furthermore still ask mi to start packing the room. i was wondering how to pack when u got so many things dat u want to keep but i dunno which one is it. Furthermore i am like the onli one in the house working non stop. My Mom just sits outside watch TV n just cook dats all. in the evening she just sit infront of the tv an iron the clothes while i had to clear the whole kitchen for her.
wats worst is my mom keep nagging about my constant usage of the PC like hello i onli got like the 19th of this month to use after dat the service will be terminated so wats the big hooHaa and also i left how many days dan after dat i cant use the PC as much as now already cause i am in NS.
Haiz seriusly dont understand ah but wat ever it is i got a few photos from the gig on the 2nd Oct check mi out
See me at the side there with the bikini top i was preparing to strip down to my hot pants........
dats Me at the side again with Idli from secret 7.
For ur info the guy half naked is a prison warden aint he kool......
u see the guy in briefs? he is the masterhood of stripping naked. He occasionally stripped down to his briefs n run around half naked with briefs but we are still deciding to totally strip naked coz currently at the moment we are feel insecure with the length n the size of our penis.
BTW these are the brothers of the outrageous clan idli, Shai n Mie
Aniway there are many more pics dat i am awaiting for. But the one dat i hope to get is the one where someone will snap the pic of my G string hope i can get that are
HOPE U ENJOY THE PICS
pictures all courtesy of Clement the Punk
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
beginning of the fasting month
ok tmr will be the 1st day of fasting which I am not really looking forward to it.
Coz during this month i have to be very busy coz i need to pack my house stuff to prepare for the house renovation which will be after HARI RAYA. Thus i will be the onli soul who will be doing the packing of the whole house. And furthermore is very sickening to pack half way n u cant decided which things are to throw or not coz it does not belongs to mi n have to keep asking my parents whether to keep it or not. Sometimes wat maybe thrash to mi is supposingly to be useful stuff for my parents which i hate that coz they dont use it at all n i still have to pack it. Also with this packing, i dont think i will have time to hang out or go out ith any of my friends. Haiz is realli sucky, b4 going NS ur just stuck at home with so many things to do all by urself dan once ur in NS there u go again doing the silliest stuff ever imagine. Aiyo y cant i just go out n enjoy n slack n sit ack n enjoy nature at it's fullest. Realli demoralising leh......
Coz during this month i have to be very busy coz i need to pack my house stuff to prepare for the house renovation which will be after HARI RAYA. Thus i will be the onli soul who will be doing the packing of the whole house. And furthermore is very sickening to pack half way n u cant decided which things are to throw or not coz it does not belongs to mi n have to keep asking my parents whether to keep it or not. Sometimes wat maybe thrash to mi is supposingly to be useful stuff for my parents which i hate that coz they dont use it at all n i still have to pack it. Also with this packing, i dont think i will have time to hang out or go out ith any of my friends. Haiz is realli sucky, b4 going NS ur just stuck at home with so many things to do all by urself dan once ur in NS there u go again doing the silliest stuff ever imagine. Aiyo y cant i just go out n enjoy n slack n sit ack n enjoy nature at it's fullest. Realli demoralising leh......
Monday, October 03, 2005
loudfest......a new level of insanity
today had a gig at substation.
the gig suppose to start at 2 but yah somehow it got delayed n it started at 4
my band was the 4th band to perform for the gig so yah i came on time just to see the 3rd band finish off their 2nd last song.
Actualli is one of the best metalcore bands in Singapore ah DEAD by SIX though i onli listen to them at gigs but they never fail to make me headbang with such heavy grooves. though i dont realli like the vocs with high pitch (This is not a personal attack) which i rather have it with the heavy low growling tone i seriously like the sound. Any way once they finished their set it was time for thrashing dancing jumping sing along session with my band yogyakarta. i started of the set by taking out my top where i was wearing a Bikini top but as the sets get hotter with more ppl more energetic i strip down to my hot pants. it was mesmerizing intoxicating with all the girls eyes bugling at u n giggling at ur set, guys getting all touchy with ur ass comments flying around n yah GodFather was stripping down to his briefs again n idli from secret 7 half naked with a feathery shawl hahahahahha it was wild n mad n it seems dat we are in the gay party. There were some visitors who were supporting another band n never attended such gigs were totally amused n yah i really enjoyed the attention the eyes on u kinda stuff n ppl smiling at u. But the sad thing was i injured my leg during yesterday gig. i didnt know how i injured my feet but yah it was realli painful by the time i finished my set i was realli limping as if i sprain my ankle.
any way i am trying to get pics of myself for the gig n if all goes well i will post the link for u guys to check out how i look like
Hardcore is about how u potray urself is not about wat music u listen
Sunday, October 02, 2005
............
yesterday my bro went out for a gathering with all his former colleagues which is mine but the organizer never invite me so yah i didnt like the idea of gatecrashing such an event coz i am not the thick face after all although i have done many undesirable act in public but i onli do it in the name of fun n entertainment. Any way we left the house together with our parents assumption that we were out together but in real fact we were all on our own. My Bro headed down to Selegie while i was left with nothing to do n no one to hang out with so i decided to take a walk. i alighted at city hall n i walk the whole of the CBD area tilll i reach the Rainway train station decided to walk all the way till i almost reach Telok blangah dan i decided to stop n head back to city hall esplanade there. At esplanade, i just sat there alone n daze into the cloudy sky n the not attractive scenic dat every visitor assume dat is so attractive dat they have to take it as thier back ground. Ani way yah...i sat there all alone for like 2 hour or so n yah after dat decided to meet my bro at Selegie. So i from esplanade i walk all the way to selegie there. It was kinda near for mi ah but considering after walking like from city hall to Telok blangah n fro it was kinda tiring ah but it felt good. At selegie i watched my Godsister n my bro n one more of thier colleague played pool with two of my godsister friends ah. Sat there for like half n hour or so everyone wanted to go home so my bro n i walk back to city hall just to take a bus back home.
We Finally reached home n it was 5 in the morning.
today went to my cousin house for house warming at Jurong. I really like her house coz it is so simple n empty yet a classic design. though the house could not accomodate her uncles n aunties n her friends i guess it doesnt matter coz the house is very nice indeed. At her place one of my uncle Demostrated the Diamond water Fucking bullshit thing. It sounds so the amazingly like making ur facial better providing nutrients for the skin good for hair n food. Cook in food it will enhance the smell, soak fruits n veg in the water will make it more crunchy n fresher. to me is all bullshit. how enhance can food become, how does fruits get crunchier when wat u all consume is chemical chemical n more chemical. Wat u drink is chemical from mineral water where they assume is from the mountain of evain are just pure bullshit, Coke Pepsi sweet drinks all contain chemicals, the food u consume have insecticide, growth enhancement chemicals n not forgetting when u cook u use the teflon wok or non stick cooking materials to cook, the spatula u use is made of parts glue together, chances of glue melting n getting into ur food is so high so wat u talking about making things fresher. Or wait are we talking about longetivity? y the sudden obsession of all these ideas..making urself look good, eat healthy, drink pure good water.......wat the fucking bull....i guess this is the main reason dat ppl get so obsesse about but let mi ask u do u noe how long u will live, when will u die, when will u give birth? eat so healthy n yet get crush under the lorry wheel, eat so healthy n yet get struck by lightning hahahaah u see wat i mean...y eat so healthy n yet there are so many factors to consider to make u die so i dont understand the need n obsession of growing old n heathy.Ani way after dat i went off go the mini gig at beat merchant. it was realli as usual thrashing good energetic session where we excuted many moves but i needed to rush off after the mini gig to collect so barang barang from my Grandma house at Tanjong pagar. After collecting went home in the train i saw many malay tough guy with tattoos half colour unattractive tattoos using chinese ink n many types of guys dunno where they heading too but yah in my mind was the big deal about being a tough guy? the manly u are the more chicks u get to fuck hahaahh hello i can tell u one thing malays guys most of them are fucking dickless dont have the guts to approach a girl n also need to do things in a group not independant. Ok back to the topic y tough guy? y in the world do we need tough guy we keep emphasizing make peace not war if is peace y have tough guys y do we have tough guy like Mr Bush administration, y have tough guys trying to fight for pride, y have tough guys who are not tough but act tough y must we have such stupid idiots in our society n destroy the peace of our society by fighting n showing off who is more powerful stronger n mightier......fuck u tough guys.
finally i just have to say dat i hate my life rite now so much for being 21 when ur not even treated one. so much for the 21 years n couting of staying at home n listeining to PAPA MUMMY. Fucking fuck up.....y is life like dat where is the simplicity of life when someone reaches a age let him go..... where is the fun in life when all u do is work hard to get more n more money.....where is the love when love is all about possesion in life.....
Friday, September 30, 2005
COMFY FOR HORNY GIRLS UNCOMFY FOR HORNY GUYS(UNLESS UR GAY)
Just put on my clothes to try out see whether i can fit in it n my was it outrageous n turn off.
had the bikini on
the hot pants
n
the G STRING
my i was ok with the hot pants n the bikini top
but the onli discomfort i had was the g-string
the G String is freesize
but i guess i am too big for it
n the line was so tight up my ass line......
n furthermore the front part was see thru with holes
n my balls feel so the itchy
if is ticklish i am ok but this is itchy
ani way i was just wondering how women will feel
when they put on the g string
imagine how much of pleasure it can give
to the lovely lips n the holy hole
with a pull of the string it slices sharply the lips into two
thus bringing tightness n pleasure between the lips
the sideways movement of the string
makes the lips seperated furthermore
making movement to the entrance of love
so wet n cumable
the higher the back in pulled
the deeper the line will venture
n eventually will reach the tip
of the entrance of love
teasing the tip with just dat line
makes one shiver n want more
for the BF all one need to do
is to lick the love hole
together with the G string
n using it as a weapon of
pleasure to satisfy the women
sometimes with the elasticity of the string
we can pull back n let go
give the hole a little tight sharp smack
moaning n breatheless
session i think it will give
had the bikini on
the hot pants
n
the G STRING
my i was ok with the hot pants n the bikini top
but the onli discomfort i had was the g-string
the G String is freesize
but i guess i am too big for it
n the line was so tight up my ass line......
n furthermore the front part was see thru with holes
n my balls feel so the itchy
if is ticklish i am ok but this is itchy
ani way i was just wondering how women will feel
when they put on the g string
imagine how much of pleasure it can give
to the lovely lips n the holy hole
with a pull of the string it slices sharply the lips into two
thus bringing tightness n pleasure between the lips
the sideways movement of the string
makes the lips seperated furthermore
making movement to the entrance of love
so wet n cumable
the higher the back in pulled
the deeper the line will venture
n eventually will reach the tip
of the entrance of love
teasing the tip with just dat line
makes one shiver n want more
for the BF all one need to do
is to lick the love hole
together with the G string
n using it as a weapon of
pleasure to satisfy the women
sometimes with the elasticity of the string
we can pull back n let go
give the hole a little tight sharp smack
moaning n breatheless
session i think it will give
this is just fictional n has nothing to do with true life encounter
if this were to happen i onli hope it will be true
coz i have never done tis b4
wat a exciting week ahead for mi
1st i want to say my BIGGEST CONGRATULATIONS to MR FAUZI for claiming the 3rd position in Anugerah. Would like to wish him all the best for his future n may this be a platform for him to expand into a popular artist.Ani way when i was on my way back home from Mediacorp, memories of wat happen in skool just flashes n it was realli great to have such a friend like u ah.....ok enugh of him.
Just now i was like the hounding dog of the studio coz whenever it comes to cheering on my friend i will make the HOO HOO sound hahahahaa if u dunno how it sounds call mi i can give u a treat.......it was dam freaking loud n yah when i started doing it frequently, the other fans of the other idols started to follow me ah but hahahah hello i start first n i am the loudest k.....ani way yah my face was like printed on the screen a couple of time n i even had a close up view of my face n my mouth doing a kissing pose ahhahahahahahhah but never mind ani way yah today saw my idol in entertainment industry....Najip Ali (currently my idols are Gurmit, Najip n Kumar, i use to like Sheikh Haikel but yah he started his piercing ears n all crap i kinda like despise him already ah......) aok back to najip ali i just now manage to capture his attention n ask for a photo shoot with him after the whole show ended but haiz disappointingly my Digital camera malfunction n i was realli utterly disappointed.Ani way i guess i had lots of fun n yah did made a few heads turn towards my direction with all the sounds n remarks i made to the ppl on stage.
ani way the thing i am looking forward to will be this weekend this SUNDAY
is going to a a great kicking hell violent chaotic gig dat i am going to attend n perform b4 i go in NS
dats y i am trying to make a memorable event by dressing up. there was one night i was discussing with the grandpa jones of Hardcore( is a genre of music not porn) n stripping n he was asking me wat i will be wearing. I did not think of it till he pop up the question. Didnt had an idea till i tot of Jessica simpson n her rendition of these boots are made for walking. She was in this demin hot pants or Daisy as they call it n the finale part where she was in Bikini which gave me inspiration to wat to wear.
so i have decided n have already got my stuffs for sunday. i have to thank my ex Gf for lendin me her Bikini top. though is not the same as Jessica Simpson but is still striking. Ok i too got myself a hot pants but not the denim type one ah but the cloth material n according to my Xgf the length of the shorts is like to ur butt cheeks only which i think dats outregeous enugh n finally the icing of the topping, i will be wearing a colourful G string ahhahahaha i wonder how i feel on dat day.....a line between my arse.
ok ani way if u wanna see mi in the clothes i just mentioned do feel free to come down to substation this Sunday n yah see my band perform n also support the other bands too........ciao ciao ciao ciao n let me leave u with a quote which i just read dat makes me feel excited.......
Just now i was like the hounding dog of the studio coz whenever it comes to cheering on my friend i will make the HOO HOO sound hahahahaa if u dunno how it sounds call mi i can give u a treat.......it was dam freaking loud n yah when i started doing it frequently, the other fans of the other idols started to follow me ah but hahahah hello i start first n i am the loudest k.....ani way yah my face was like printed on the screen a couple of time n i even had a close up view of my face n my mouth doing a kissing pose ahhahahahahahhah but never mind ani way yah today saw my idol in entertainment industry....Najip Ali (currently my idols are Gurmit, Najip n Kumar, i use to like Sheikh Haikel but yah he started his piercing ears n all crap i kinda like despise him already ah......) aok back to najip ali i just now manage to capture his attention n ask for a photo shoot with him after the whole show ended but haiz disappointingly my Digital camera malfunction n i was realli utterly disappointed.Ani way i guess i had lots of fun n yah did made a few heads turn towards my direction with all the sounds n remarks i made to the ppl on stage.
ani way the thing i am looking forward to will be this weekend this SUNDAY
is going to a a great kicking hell violent chaotic gig dat i am going to attend n perform b4 i go in NS
dats y i am trying to make a memorable event by dressing up. there was one night i was discussing with the grandpa jones of Hardcore( is a genre of music not porn) n stripping n he was asking me wat i will be wearing. I did not think of it till he pop up the question. Didnt had an idea till i tot of Jessica simpson n her rendition of these boots are made for walking. She was in this demin hot pants or Daisy as they call it n the finale part where she was in Bikini which gave me inspiration to wat to wear.
so i have decided n have already got my stuffs for sunday. i have to thank my ex Gf for lendin me her Bikini top. though is not the same as Jessica Simpson but is still striking. Ok i too got myself a hot pants but not the denim type one ah but the cloth material n according to my Xgf the length of the shorts is like to ur butt cheeks only which i think dats outregeous enugh n finally the icing of the topping, i will be wearing a colourful G string ahhahahaha i wonder how i feel on dat day.....a line between my arse.
ok ani way if u wanna see mi in the clothes i just mentioned do feel free to come down to substation this Sunday n yah see my band perform n also support the other bands too........ciao ciao ciao ciao n let me leave u with a quote which i just read dat makes me feel excited.......
The way that he parts the slices of the orange is the way that he'll part your thighs and lips,
if he takes care to remove each slice and gently sucks it into his mouth,
then he'll do the same to you, if he takes his time to begin sucking the juice from the orange,
he'll do the same to you.
If he delves his fingers into the middle of the orange and pulls the fruit apart,
he will do the same to you.
Monday, September 26, 2005
useless i am, lonely i'll be
slacking at home all the way
guess i will be doing it till my enlistment day
21 years n 6 days old
makes no diff when i was 19 years old
confine to my house n parents i have
making my life miserable n tiring it seems
relationship n friendship
are two things with diff meanings
chaos n confusion
is all i feel right now
nothing is clear
future still in a bleak
feelings are intertwined
how i wish i can just go back time
when i was young n carefree
playing my toys is all i had in my mind
slacking at home all the way
guess i will be doing it till my enlistment day
21 years n 6 days old
makes no diff when i was 19 years old
confine to my house n parents i have
making my life miserable n tiring it seems
relationship n friendship
are two things with diff meanings
n r interlinked with one another
but both brings many unhappinesschaos n confusion
is all i feel right now
nothing is clear
future still in a bleak
feelings are intertwined
how i wish i can just go back time
when i was young n carefree
playing my toys is all i had in my mind
Saturday, September 24, 2005
i am 21.....
first of all i would like to thank all of those who have send me thiers Bday wishes n dat special one for giving me a treat......Sake sushi Buffet n a great movie to go along......"Be with mi" which was one day early....
the following day i was most of the time at home unless my mom ask mi to tag along.....aniw ay went to make my specs finally bought myself a bass bag, had lunch with my mom n after dat bought my cake from HAN's. i didnt know that the cake shop dat we went near the penisula there was a HAN's cake shop till i saw the plastic bag they gave.....aniway bought a chocolate cake thingy ah which was i guess the sweetest m the best cake i have ever had(aniway for ur info my last year cake was a chocolate cake from Cold Storage which cost onli like 5 bucks hahahahahah) aniway i am still fortunate that is a cake better than having none.......
the following day had to attend the INTSC sub comm n executive bonding camp. actualli i wasnt realli dat excited about the camp seriously but i just went ah b4 dat i hang out with Ahmad at Starbucks it's been a while since i sat there.....the camp was utterly disappointing for mi coz the games were never exciting at all ani way i had to become a facilitator for the group n the name was Edna mod. The reason for asking mi to Facilitate the group was because i have a resemblance with the character itself from "The Incredibles". Was really really bored and less entertaining cause most of the campers are ppl who are waiting for things to happen rather than make things happen so yah it was really disappointing and also tiring for mi.
aniway it was finally over n yes i left the campus early at 4 to rush back home for dinner n also a movie at marina. actualli i wanted to head there straight but my dad insist mi to go home and yes it was a totally bad experince.actualli everything was in a rush n everything was not going smoothly for mi. we had a movie at 6.50 at marina but we reached there at 7.10 luckily our seats were at the side so it was not a hindrance to others watching the show but half way the show....my mom handphone rang n she was sturggling to pick up the phone. she tot dat her phone was connected to her ear piece so she tried answering using her ear piece but it wasnt working n yah it rang for like 50 secs or so which was dam loud n irritating for mi. The most irritating was that when the phone rang n yah she manage to pick it up n had a conversation on the phone with i dunno dat realli boils mi n i screamed at her with my softest voice to switch it off. aniway we watched the new jackie chan show called the myth. after the show we headed to beach road to have our dinner.
aniway i think i will be hurting someone by saying this are but recently when i watch the two shows, Be with me n the Myth there was certain part that made me feel like crying n also it reminded me of how enjoyable the times i had spent with someone. there was also a part in be with me when the husband visit her wife at the hospital reminds me of how i visited her while she was at the hospital too where she almost had a close shave of death. aniway i manage to revive my PC again which like died on me for 4 days before the camp so yah......
ok guys see u around
take care enjoy urself
wanna watch RA movies do invite me
n
ciao
the following day i was most of the time at home unless my mom ask mi to tag along.....aniw ay went to make my specs finally bought myself a bass bag, had lunch with my mom n after dat bought my cake from HAN's. i didnt know that the cake shop dat we went near the penisula there was a HAN's cake shop till i saw the plastic bag they gave.....aniway bought a chocolate cake thingy ah which was i guess the sweetest m the best cake i have ever had(aniway for ur info my last year cake was a chocolate cake from Cold Storage which cost onli like 5 bucks hahahahahah) aniway i am still fortunate that is a cake better than having none.......
the following day had to attend the INTSC sub comm n executive bonding camp. actualli i wasnt realli dat excited about the camp seriously but i just went ah b4 dat i hang out with Ahmad at Starbucks it's been a while since i sat there.....the camp was utterly disappointing for mi coz the games were never exciting at all ani way i had to become a facilitator for the group n the name was Edna mod. The reason for asking mi to Facilitate the group was because i have a resemblance with the character itself from "The Incredibles". Was really really bored and less entertaining cause most of the campers are ppl who are waiting for things to happen rather than make things happen so yah it was really disappointing and also tiring for mi.
aniway it was finally over n yes i left the campus early at 4 to rush back home for dinner n also a movie at marina. actualli i wanted to head there straight but my dad insist mi to go home and yes it was a totally bad experince.actualli everything was in a rush n everything was not going smoothly for mi. we had a movie at 6.50 at marina but we reached there at 7.10 luckily our seats were at the side so it was not a hindrance to others watching the show but half way the show....my mom handphone rang n she was sturggling to pick up the phone. she tot dat her phone was connected to her ear piece so she tried answering using her ear piece but it wasnt working n yah it rang for like 50 secs or so which was dam loud n irritating for mi. The most irritating was that when the phone rang n yah she manage to pick it up n had a conversation on the phone with i dunno dat realli boils mi n i screamed at her with my softest voice to switch it off. aniway we watched the new jackie chan show called the myth. after the show we headed to beach road to have our dinner.
aniway i think i will be hurting someone by saying this are but recently when i watch the two shows, Be with me n the Myth there was certain part that made me feel like crying n also it reminded me of how enjoyable the times i had spent with someone. there was also a part in be with me when the husband visit her wife at the hospital reminds me of how i visited her while she was at the hospital too where she almost had a close shave of death. aniway i manage to revive my PC again which like died on me for 4 days before the camp so yah......
ok guys see u around
take care enjoy urself
wanna watch RA movies do invite me
n
ciao
Sunday, September 18, 2005
a day at sentosa
today was realli n hot blistering jumping plenty of activities sporty day for mi
went to sentosa n the weather was all so great for a day to be at sentosa
but the prob was dat the sand was too hot to play any activities but wat to do go against it an yah just play on the surface. ani way i felt realli realli old there coz i was like the aiyah no need to explain ah.
played touch rugby (my fav)
beach soccer
basketball( is been a long time i played dat sports which i suck)
wolleyball( hahahah is a slang ah......actuali is volleyball)
so the athlete ah mi today hahahah but lucky never had a major cramp ah......ani way the body was totally burned n not it looks like the roasted pig that the chinese prepare for thier prayers. ANi way had fun with the GODIVIANs hahaahh actualli the upcoming TPSU sub comms.......
on our way out to mainland, our group was realli cranky ah hahahah actualli we had been crank all the way ah forfeiting n asking ppl to let them use them as tricks ah from the girl in the blue top dat yasin approach to the indian national dat ivan kiss ahahhahaha yah i mean it was in the name of fun. Yah back to the bus we were like singing our way out to mainland ah n we are like seperated ah n yet we still managed to sing the song dat we all hav in mind hahahahah dan went for dinner to subway
at subway order our food n had a real good discussion about from Sec skool to Sex hhahahahha which in the end i became the Guru ahhahahaha n tot them the diff Gspots of a human being also told them my diff levels of intimacy hahahaah it was realli enjoyable n noisiable ahhahahah got such word meh hahaha aiyah nvm. yah we sat there for like n hour plus laugh our way n yah i ate a feet long of subway sandwich which is marvellously nice n i think i like italian bread ah is so soft n with the meat filling dam i am feeling hungry again ehheheheheh
ani way to all racist ppl dont care bloggers or non bloggers i admire ur courage to speak out n make urself heard though it maybe agitating but i seriously dont mind coz ur speaking out from ur own mind n will everyone has thier own say ani way is just a blog ani way is just words as long as u dont use action towards each other i am seriously fine with it. Ani way i guess all of us kinda racist ourself, some of us hate the China chinese, the india indians, the Ang mohs n all but as long as u dont show ur grudge against them i mean is totally fine. And now with bloggers under scrutiny i am just imgaining how the taxpayers moeny are being spent. just paying ppl to go thru blog n make sure every content is appropriate......ani way i guess if not for the media who started the SPG blog or the other stupid blogs i guess we will not be implying such laws here in Singapore.....n yes so much for speaking out but within our laws.......
went to sentosa n the weather was all so great for a day to be at sentosa
but the prob was dat the sand was too hot to play any activities but wat to do go against it an yah just play on the surface. ani way i felt realli realli old there coz i was like the aiyah no need to explain ah.
played touch rugby (my fav)
beach soccer
basketball( is been a long time i played dat sports which i suck)
wolleyball( hahahah is a slang ah......actuali is volleyball)
so the athlete ah mi today hahahah but lucky never had a major cramp ah......ani way the body was totally burned n not it looks like the roasted pig that the chinese prepare for thier prayers. ANi way had fun with the GODIVIANs hahaahh actualli the upcoming TPSU sub comms.......
on our way out to mainland, our group was realli cranky ah hahahah actualli we had been crank all the way ah forfeiting n asking ppl to let them use them as tricks ah from the girl in the blue top dat yasin approach to the indian national dat ivan kiss ahahhahaha yah i mean it was in the name of fun. Yah back to the bus we were like singing our way out to mainland ah n we are like seperated ah n yet we still managed to sing the song dat we all hav in mind hahahahah dan went for dinner to subway
at subway order our food n had a real good discussion about from Sec skool to Sex hhahahahha which in the end i became the Guru ahhahahaha n tot them the diff Gspots of a human being also told them my diff levels of intimacy hahahaah it was realli enjoyable n noisiable ahhahahah got such word meh hahaha aiyah nvm. yah we sat there for like n hour plus laugh our way n yah i ate a feet long of subway sandwich which is marvellously nice n i think i like italian bread ah is so soft n with the meat filling dam i am feeling hungry again ehheheheheh
ani way to all racist ppl dont care bloggers or non bloggers i admire ur courage to speak out n make urself heard though it maybe agitating but i seriously dont mind coz ur speaking out from ur own mind n will everyone has thier own say ani way is just a blog ani way is just words as long as u dont use action towards each other i am seriously fine with it. Ani way i guess all of us kinda racist ourself, some of us hate the China chinese, the india indians, the Ang mohs n all but as long as u dont show ur grudge against them i mean is totally fine. And now with bloggers under scrutiny i am just imgaining how the taxpayers moeny are being spent. just paying ppl to go thru blog n make sure every content is appropriate......ani way i guess if not for the media who started the SPG blog or the other stupid blogs i guess we will not be implying such laws here in Singapore.....n yes so much for speaking out but within our laws.......
Friday, September 16, 2005
things dat i have done for the past few days
i bought myself two CDs from HMV
dats like so the first time coz i never buy CDs from there
but luckily they are cheap
so the CDs i bought were
PLACEBO once more with feelings (my CURRENT FAV BAND)
NIRVANA remastered
actualli had a tough time deciding which CD to buy
coz is either the Nirvana cd or the minor threat discography
ani way yah decided on Nirvana coz of the price
other dan dat hmmmm i never realli buy much stuff, haven been going out often except for like yesterday
reached home around 11.30pm from town where i met up my old kakis
things to buy soon or later
a DVD (hmmmm still considering wat DVD to buy, either BOB Marley, Metallica, Placebo or i dunno ah)
my Bass Bag ( till now haven buy till now)
a HP( yah now no more Hp n feeling so restless n uncontactable)
a new specs ( yah need to make my black frame old skool specs for NS)
dats like so the first time coz i never buy CDs from there
but luckily they are cheap
so the CDs i bought were
PLACEBO once more with feelings (my CURRENT FAV BAND)
NIRVANA remastered
actualli had a tough time deciding which CD to buy
coz is either the Nirvana cd or the minor threat discography
ani way yah decided on Nirvana coz of the price
other dan dat hmmmm i never realli buy much stuff, haven been going out often except for like yesterday
reached home around 11.30pm from town where i met up my old kakis
things to buy soon or later
a DVD (hmmmm still considering wat DVD to buy, either BOB Marley, Metallica, Placebo or i dunno ah)
my Bass Bag ( till now haven buy till now)
a HP( yah now no more Hp n feeling so restless n uncontactable)
a new specs ( yah need to make my black frame old skool specs for NS)
Monday, September 12, 2005
bad bad bad bad.......
these past few days have been a freaking weird unlucky close shave bad days for me n my family i guess.......
first was tricycle went missing or should i say stolen. The tricycle brings back 7 years of memories for the family from our first ride on the tricycle to the distance dat it had travelled n serve us withut failing us make it a family treasure but now is all gone......hmmmm like they say nothing last forever.
secondly, was a freaking fast event.......my dad blasted at my bro for skipping work n the whole family got a hell of a scolding my phone got confiscated, my bro suspected of dengue fever.....my mom just finish vomiting......i was nearly knocked down by a motorbike n i also nearly hit a pedestrian while was cycling wah i dunno ah alot of things have happen n i will be looking forward to the next few unfortunate events or blessing events i should call them n face it.......ani way to all my friends sorry my shalet is cancelled due to some family disagreement so yah sorry guys.....ani way the onli events that are going fine is like the recent gig i had at beat merchant, bought myself an MP3 player n is unique n handy i realli like it......n yah the best will be without my HP.....though i am not trying to say dat i forget my friends n all by not smsing them but it gives mi the cold turkey period n make me escape from the HP world n prepare mi for NS heheheehhe coz in NS i cant sms as much as i am doing now n also i cant entertain the calls too.....
ani way things i am looking forward......
18th sep gig
20th sep my simple Bday
22nd-23rd sep INTSC school bonding
outing with the gang(u guys noe who u are)
sentosa but i dunno with who
Movie outing with batman
printing my own TEE
Clubbing again
n the rest i dunno wats upcoming but i will appreciate it with open arms.......
ani way if u guys wanna contact mi do feel free to call mi at 67583057 but call b4 11pm k
coz is my house phone not my personal phone
not someones other phone
but the house phone do give some respect
when u call k
ciao Bye miss ya
take care
first was tricycle went missing or should i say stolen. The tricycle brings back 7 years of memories for the family from our first ride on the tricycle to the distance dat it had travelled n serve us withut failing us make it a family treasure but now is all gone......hmmmm like they say nothing last forever.
secondly, was a freaking fast event.......my dad blasted at my bro for skipping work n the whole family got a hell of a scolding my phone got confiscated, my bro suspected of dengue fever.....my mom just finish vomiting......i was nearly knocked down by a motorbike n i also nearly hit a pedestrian while was cycling wah i dunno ah alot of things have happen n i will be looking forward to the next few unfortunate events or blessing events i should call them n face it.......ani way to all my friends sorry my shalet is cancelled due to some family disagreement so yah sorry guys.....ani way the onli events that are going fine is like the recent gig i had at beat merchant, bought myself an MP3 player n is unique n handy i realli like it......n yah the best will be without my HP.....though i am not trying to say dat i forget my friends n all by not smsing them but it gives mi the cold turkey period n make me escape from the HP world n prepare mi for NS heheheehhe coz in NS i cant sms as much as i am doing now n also i cant entertain the calls too.....
ani way things i am looking forward......
18th sep gig
20th sep my simple Bday
22nd-23rd sep INTSC school bonding
outing with the gang(u guys noe who u are)
sentosa but i dunno with who
Movie outing with batman
printing my own TEE
Clubbing again
n the rest i dunno wats upcoming but i will appreciate it with open arms.......
ani way if u guys wanna contact mi do feel free to call mi at 67583057 but call b4 11pm k
coz is my house phone not my personal phone
not someones other phone
but the house phone do give some respect
when u call k
ciao Bye miss ya
take care
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
back back back.......by popular demand hahahahahah
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Monday, August 22, 2005
the end of an environment and the beginning of a new
Sat was a great day help out TPSU sub comm training camp and yah still haven lost the grooves that i had during the FOC. aniway after the whole event i kinda think of the effect of having me and losing me.
the good thing was whenever i was around , the atmosphere is definately great but when i leave who will take over me and how is things going to be fun. Ok i am not trying to say i am indispansable but is kinda true......
ok enugh of all the self esteem thingy
after the camp i joined in the gang at town. The gang consisted Ahmad, Fir, Naz, HXC muhsin, yan N the GF(initially but in the end she went back home and i did not manage to catch a glimspe of her) ani way yah it was realli great getting together and listening to thier blabbering thier NS stuff but it was still fruitful eventually. ani way met them at orchard building dan from there headed to plaza Singa to catch the Loo and also Yan Bought MAcDonald and yah Naz and Muhsin Left for home while the 3 of us continued our journey from plaza Sing al the way to Esplanade where we all took our respective night rider back home......it was realli fun yah and though it was tiring i guess it did not bothered me.
Sunday
Last day of work and had to work with the Siao Cha Bo for the last time. Though it was like 10 hours of endurance i guess i pass it with high flying colours hehehehe coz it felt like it was 20 hours working with her.....after work went home straight and yah slack and slack
today
slacking again later heading to MEdiaCorp to support the Singer and have to wear red colour dat looks so the EEEE ani way good luck to him later on yah.......
btw these are a few punk rock emo songs that reminded me of those days.......
DO YOUR FEET HURT
can i call you sweetheart or even baby doll? if i had your number, you'd be getting a phone call can i leave you a message on your machine? letting you know that you're the bomb and you blew up on me are you anxious to see me after your next class? do you care when i tell you step around that broken glass? can i see you after you get out of school? i won't even mind if you treat me cruel take a ride on my vespa, i'll take you home i'll climb up to your window and read you a poem i know that you believe in the one true god above and that's why you're waiting for your one and only love do your feet hurt? did you fall from heaven? 'cause you've been running through my mind all day my mind don't mind i don't know what to say or do i can't eat when i'm with you goodnight sweetheart i gotta go and you won't come to my next show
MOVE TO BREMERTON
when i meet a special girl she always lives somewhere else in the world don't want to call her on the phone wanna talk to her when i'm at home drop out of school and run away quit your job, you got a place to stay pack your bags and hitch a ride bremerton's a good place to reside move to bremerton - we'll hang out move to bremerton - we'll go all out move to bremerton - will you be mine? (move to bremerton til' the end of time) i'll change the street signs you drive down so you end up in my town i'll re-draw the maps all one by one so they all lead to bremerton drop out of school and run away quit your job, you got a place to stay pack your bags and hitch a ride bremerton's a good place to reside if you cut your hair and bleach it too you gotta know that i'll have a crush on you i'm a sucker for a short haired girl with a pretty smile she gotz to have ideas, yeah, and she gotz to have style
CHRISTALENA
cristalena, ya she's so cool cristalena, she's out of control half the time she don't know where she's at cristalena don't know much about that but you know, and i know cristalena but you know, and i know where i've seen her cristalena, she's in her own world she's always happy as a littly girl cristalen's nice unless she's annoyed cristalena happens to like boys - but not me cristalena, where'd you go? don't even know where you've been cristalena, won't you stay? please don't go away, won't you be my friend?
ani way these songs are from MXPX heheheheh
old skool
taken from LET IT HAPPEN album
the good thing was whenever i was around , the atmosphere is definately great but when i leave who will take over me and how is things going to be fun. Ok i am not trying to say i am indispansable but is kinda true......
ok enugh of all the self esteem thingy
after the camp i joined in the gang at town. The gang consisted Ahmad, Fir, Naz, HXC muhsin, yan N the GF(initially but in the end she went back home and i did not manage to catch a glimspe of her) ani way yah it was realli great getting together and listening to thier blabbering thier NS stuff but it was still fruitful eventually. ani way met them at orchard building dan from there headed to plaza Singa to catch the Loo and also Yan Bought MAcDonald and yah Naz and Muhsin Left for home while the 3 of us continued our journey from plaza Sing al the way to Esplanade where we all took our respective night rider back home......it was realli fun yah and though it was tiring i guess it did not bothered me.
Sunday
Last day of work and had to work with the Siao Cha Bo for the last time. Though it was like 10 hours of endurance i guess i pass it with high flying colours hehehehe coz it felt like it was 20 hours working with her.....after work went home straight and yah slack and slack
today
slacking again later heading to MEdiaCorp to support the Singer and have to wear red colour dat looks so the EEEE ani way good luck to him later on yah.......
btw these are a few punk rock emo songs that reminded me of those days.......
DO YOUR FEET HURT
can i call you sweetheart or even baby doll? if i had your number, you'd be getting a phone call can i leave you a message on your machine? letting you know that you're the bomb and you blew up on me are you anxious to see me after your next class? do you care when i tell you step around that broken glass? can i see you after you get out of school? i won't even mind if you treat me cruel take a ride on my vespa, i'll take you home i'll climb up to your window and read you a poem i know that you believe in the one true god above and that's why you're waiting for your one and only love do your feet hurt? did you fall from heaven? 'cause you've been running through my mind all day my mind don't mind i don't know what to say or do i can't eat when i'm with you goodnight sweetheart i gotta go and you won't come to my next show
MOVE TO BREMERTON
when i meet a special girl she always lives somewhere else in the world don't want to call her on the phone wanna talk to her when i'm at home drop out of school and run away quit your job, you got a place to stay pack your bags and hitch a ride bremerton's a good place to reside move to bremerton - we'll hang out move to bremerton - we'll go all out move to bremerton - will you be mine? (move to bremerton til' the end of time) i'll change the street signs you drive down so you end up in my town i'll re-draw the maps all one by one so they all lead to bremerton drop out of school and run away quit your job, you got a place to stay pack your bags and hitch a ride bremerton's a good place to reside if you cut your hair and bleach it too you gotta know that i'll have a crush on you i'm a sucker for a short haired girl with a pretty smile she gotz to have ideas, yeah, and she gotz to have style
CHRISTALENA
cristalena, ya she's so cool cristalena, she's out of control half the time she don't know where she's at cristalena don't know much about that but you know, and i know cristalena but you know, and i know where i've seen her cristalena, she's in her own world she's always happy as a littly girl cristalen's nice unless she's annoyed cristalena happens to like boys - but not me cristalena, where'd you go? don't even know where you've been cristalena, won't you stay? please don't go away, won't you be my friend?
ani way these songs are from MXPX heheheheh
old skool
taken from LET IT HAPPEN album
Friday, August 19, 2005
thank you
today is a good day.....
got an award today for CCA
finally i feel rewarded for all the shit i been thru
but wait though is did not fill up the nominations form
i guess is not the duty of us to nominate ourself to the award
furthermore all of us had to put in the same extra effort
except some ppl ani way KUDOS to those who put in the effort
to make our office term a marvellous
though they are numerous projects not closed yet
but arghhh heck care dude
coz i noe i have done my best in my area
so the rest is up to someone to clear our mess
hahhahahaa
today i met ahmad and fauzi and nazmi
as usual ahmad as cranky
fauzi as ever kool
and nazmi as ever horny
hehheheh after hearing the
sudah masuk thingy
after dat..............
went to meet up with hannah n muhsin
muhsin looks freaking slim and smaller
and hannah looks ever chirpy
ani way went to the audi met lots of ppl
who knew me
kinda happy dat ppl recognize u
after so long of absence
got my awards and i got quite an arousing cheer
heheheheh
even my parents were happy
dan went on stage to perform i guess the last TP school song that i will be singing
heheheheh it was also a last minute thingy all thanks to safahri for pulling me
yah it was realli fun and enjoyable
had dinner with family
and yah now at home
btw there are a few ppl who i was looking out today in school
there are
Sarah......(from HTM)
Emy hehheheheh u guys must be haiz wat the heck( actualli wanna godeh with her somemore ah)
Stacie my cheerful chirpy VP
Grace my lovely sweetie(but she in Australia)
these ppl are who i miss in skool and i did not get to see them ah
ok how bout ppl i miss and i manage to see them
there are
ALLLLLLL
OF
YOU
WHOM
I
MET
hehhehehehehhehe
ok enugh of bullshit and yes
ahmad i am a gay freak
wanna join mi in a mardi gras gay party in KL
hahahhahah
actualli onli in a hotel ah
i got offer next Sunday
but i am siao
if i were to go
n
got an award today for CCA
finally i feel rewarded for all the shit i been thru
but wait though is did not fill up the nominations form
i guess is not the duty of us to nominate ourself to the award
furthermore all of us had to put in the same extra effort
except some ppl ani way KUDOS to those who put in the effort
to make our office term a marvellous
though they are numerous projects not closed yet
but arghhh heck care dude
coz i noe i have done my best in my area
so the rest is up to someone to clear our mess
hahhahahaa
today i met ahmad and fauzi and nazmi
as usual ahmad as cranky
fauzi as ever kool
and nazmi as ever horny
hehheheh after hearing the
sudah masuk thingy
after dat..............
went to meet up with hannah n muhsin
muhsin looks freaking slim and smaller
and hannah looks ever chirpy
ani way went to the audi met lots of ppl
who knew me
kinda happy dat ppl recognize u
after so long of absence
got my awards and i got quite an arousing cheer
heheheheh
even my parents were happy
dan went on stage to perform i guess the last TP school song that i will be singing
heheheheh it was also a last minute thingy all thanks to safahri for pulling me
yah it was realli fun and enjoyable
had dinner with family
and yah now at home
btw there are a few ppl who i was looking out today in school
there are
Sarah......(from HTM)
Emy hehheheheh u guys must be haiz wat the heck( actualli wanna godeh with her somemore ah)
Stacie my cheerful chirpy VP
Grace my lovely sweetie(but she in Australia)
these ppl are who i miss in skool and i did not get to see them ah
ok how bout ppl i miss and i manage to see them
there are
ALLLLLLL
OF
YOU
WHOM
I
MET
hehhehehehehhehe
ok enugh of bullshit and yes
ahmad i am a gay freak
wanna join mi in a mardi gras gay party in KL
hahahhahah
actualli onli in a hotel ah
i got offer next Sunday
but i am siao
if i were to go
n
tuty
the sweetie
of
NUS
i saw ur pic
and i am mesmerize by it
u
are so beautiful in nature
how i pray
u will be beautiful
in ur heart
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
speechless
someone msg me today asking me y am i less friendly,
y am i different,
from appearance to my expression and to my feelings y has it changed
to all my friends i guess u all must be wondering y most of my blog post are boring and depressed
let me tell u straight in the face that i am not wat u see
i am not ur entertainer
i am not ur happy go lucky guy
i am never happy
i am lost in direction(no motive in life)
i am not satisfied with wat i have
i am lazy
i am a wanker who wanks 3 times a day
i am a loser in love
i am ugly
i dont have wat u call charisma, charms and looks
i am fat
i am a quiet person
i am not ur love Doctor
y am i different,
from appearance to my expression and to my feelings y has it changed
to all my friends i guess u all must be wondering y most of my blog post are boring and depressed
let me tell u straight in the face that i am not wat u see
i am not ur entertainer
i am not ur happy go lucky guy
i am never happy
i am lost in direction(no motive in life)
i am not satisfied with wat i have
i am lazy
i am a wanker who wanks 3 times a day
i am a loser in love
i am ugly
i dont have wat u call charisma, charms and looks
i am fat
i am a quiet person
i am not ur love Doctor
i am not ur smart guy with all the brains in the world
i do things to get attention
i am a timid
i fall in love to easily
i am a loser coz i never win ani thing at all
i am a devil not religious at all
there are many more so my please dont see mi as wat i am
if u think i got all the looks and charms and feelings
y do u treat mi like this
u dont even treasure mi
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
wat a week.....is marvellous
First of all i was able to get kinky with two ladies back to back heheheh want to know more call mi but i am not going to post any of the activities in here hehehehe furthermore i was being checked out by a girl whom i told u guys previously in my post dat i regretted not asking her name and her number.
ani way since i have learnt from my mistake today i served this two ladies both of them were friends and yah one of them is like extremely gorgeous and yah she wore tudong hehehhehe her name was super cute and i kept giggling at her name. i could not take it any more i had to apologize to them about me giggling at her name because it was extremely cute. ani way yah after dat when she was about to leave i took the initiative to ask her friends name and yah in the end she too ask for my name hehheheheh...... after work i msg the cute name girl Hp heheheheh u guys must be wondering how i got her number hehehehh yah all thanks to the application form hehhehehe coz she has to input her upgrading number and yah TADA!.......
and yah btw both of them are like one year younger dan me, both of them in NUS heheheh smart girls my fetish hehheheh the cute name girl is majoring in political science while the other is majoring psychology heheheh my oh my guess i have a soft sopt for smart girls.....ani way when i msg them they were not shocked or stunned at all hehheheh guess she is a very open and friendly lady i guess.....hhehehe but when i saw her IC though she may not look attractive to some one u guys but to mi she is geeky lovely hahahhaahah i dunno how to explain dat but yah thats the best way to explain and describe about her. Haiz......this few days have been a marvellously great period of time even my X & XXgf are looking for my companion u see la....
but the after effect will be
High HP bill
coz number of sms will shoot up to like thousand
hahahhaha
ani way since i have learnt from my mistake today i served this two ladies both of them were friends and yah one of them is like extremely gorgeous and yah she wore tudong hehehhehe her name was super cute and i kept giggling at her name. i could not take it any more i had to apologize to them about me giggling at her name because it was extremely cute. ani way yah after dat when she was about to leave i took the initiative to ask her friends name and yah in the end she too ask for my name hehheheheh...... after work i msg the cute name girl Hp heheheheh u guys must be wondering how i got her number hehehehh yah all thanks to the application form hehhehehe coz she has to input her upgrading number and yah TADA!.......
and yah btw both of them are like one year younger dan me, both of them in NUS heheheh smart girls my fetish hehheheh the cute name girl is majoring in political science while the other is majoring psychology heheheh my oh my guess i have a soft sopt for smart girls.....ani way when i msg them they were not shocked or stunned at all hehheheh guess she is a very open and friendly lady i guess.....hhehehe but when i saw her IC though she may not look attractive to some one u guys but to mi she is geeky lovely hahahhaahah i dunno how to explain dat but yah thats the best way to explain and describe about her. Haiz......this few days have been a marvellously great period of time even my X & XXgf are looking for my companion u see la....
but the after effect will be
High HP bill
coz number of sms will shoot up to like thousand
hahahhaha
Sunday, August 14, 2005
wO Hui Lai Le.....
hellO ppl is been days i last updated my blog ani way i guess u guys never miss out ani thing interesting of my life. Btw NatioNal day was a bOred.......and yah the following was boring too until on friday while i was working at Bukit batok. There was this delicious busty babe approached and yah she like flirted with me commented about my hair and yah and yah we were literally talking about ourself but the fuck up thing was that in the end when she reacehed out her hand to shake mine, i never ask her name and her contact number.
ani way it was the 2nd time dat i regretted not doing something like that. The 1st was during CCN day when i was with ahmad and we met this super dam duper cute girl sitting at the engineering staircase my she was super cute in her pink bottom haiz.....and she even waved at me but fuck i did not go an approached her and say hi to her haiz kai sleng ah
arghhhhhhh fuck ah i just wrote alot of stuff and in the end i lost my post coz i got DC from my internet ani way if u wanna noe more do feel free to call mi or msg me ah......hehehehehh take care ah ciao
ani way it was the 2nd time dat i regretted not doing something like that. The 1st was during CCN day when i was with ahmad and we met this super dam duper cute girl sitting at the engineering staircase my she was super cute in her pink bottom haiz.....and she even waved at me but fuck i did not go an approached her and say hi to her haiz kai sleng ah
arghhhhhhh fuck ah i just wrote alot of stuff and in the end i lost my post coz i got DC from my internet ani way if u wanna noe more do feel free to call mi or msg me ah......hehehehehh take care ah ciao
Monday, August 08, 2005
exploration of once sexuality
i dunno but yah i think i am becoming more homosexual
maybe is a disease
maybe is a trend
maybe is just me trying
to get out of hand
shall i try or shall i not
just had a request to be someones BF
and he wants me to be his BF
dunno whether i should
or whether i shouldnt
guess is all up to me to choose
the idea of holding hands of the same sex thrills me sometimes
but i guess i need to get out of this comfort zone and be not normal
but many things are still pondering
like ppl like u reading my blog
will u ever treat me the same again
maybe is a disease
maybe is a trend
maybe is just me trying
to get out of hand
shall i try or shall i not
just had a request to be someones BF
and he wants me to be his BF
dunno whether i should
or whether i shouldnt
guess is all up to me to choose
the idea of holding hands of the same sex thrills me sometimes
but i guess i need to get out of this comfort zone and be not normal
but many things are still pondering
like ppl like u reading my blog
will u ever treat me the same again
Friday, August 05, 2005
Now Believe This
just now at work i had my lunch alone as usual
had chicken rice and tea-o
after dat had
9 piece Macnugget meal with fries and Coke
after dat
had two donuts
and jolibeans choc bun
my oh my i today eat alot
and also yah
i am still sad coz she onli msg me once
and no more already
hahhaha
guess i fall to easily....
had chicken rice and tea-o
after dat had
9 piece Macnugget meal with fries and Coke
after dat
had two donuts
and jolibeans choc bun
my oh my i today eat alot
and also yah
i am still sad coz she onli msg me once
and no more already
hahhaha
guess i fall to easily....
Thursday, August 04, 2005
congrats
congrats first of all to my my Frd Fauzi for getting thru. just came back from anugerah supporting him and yah it was a real feast for mi. hahhaha as u noe being a single desperate pathetic guy i had the opportunity to view all the girls i like to but yah at the moment they are a few people dat are close to my heart but i shall not disclose thier identity. Ani way yah get to meet up with ahmad, rahmad, siti ,and rahmat GF, with tengku, sarip and fauzi's relatives but the only one not there is his ever hot sister. actualli the Gf also hot ah heheheh but yah is his i cant touch hahahaha bet u must be cursing and swearing at me ah Fauzi hahahahahh just kidding ah
aniway today at the studio the seats we sat was amazingly perfect sat behind the judges and u can always see this white tudong girl always at the background ah .......hahahah very the obvious and also the camera man also notice her beauty ah dats y......when there is a need for crowd shot they always wants to shoot her but cant ah coz there is always empty seats around us ah. ani way today all the participants hmmm i should say all lemah lembut but there are few ppl i would like to mention. one of them is andre laksmana an indonesian staying around bukit timah came to my shop to subscribe some starhub service hahahah my wat a small world
the other person is this guy. i forget his name but he sang the amy mastura song and yah he was charismatic and for mi i kinda like him hahhhaha siak ah gay ah but yah i find him handsome and kinda cute with his chirpy and enthu spirit i find him the most outstanding person amoung the participants ah though he got knocked out but yah haiz.......melt siak hahhaahha
aniway before going to anugerah i went shopping with my mom at JB ah
wah lau happy like dunno wat ah
coz i bought myself a new pair of shoes and also a pair of new pants and also a new shirt my goodness i did not know i looked good in the stuff dat i bought was realli satisfied but onli temporarily coz y in my heart i dunno i think i just fall to easily for someone dat now i kinda feel hurt and also sad. haiz now someone else also got hurt ah and dat someone is also my X. Dunno but yah i think i shall not bother her too much but i just told her if she need ani help just call mi dats all. But now i have to make a decision whether to continue with wat i have been doing the past few days or just dont bother
haiz dunno and i shall just be lost
in the name of love
aniway today at the studio the seats we sat was amazingly perfect sat behind the judges and u can always see this white tudong girl always at the background ah .......hahahah very the obvious and also the camera man also notice her beauty ah dats y......when there is a need for crowd shot they always wants to shoot her but cant ah coz there is always empty seats around us ah. ani way today all the participants hmmm i should say all lemah lembut but there are few ppl i would like to mention. one of them is andre laksmana an indonesian staying around bukit timah came to my shop to subscribe some starhub service hahahah my wat a small world
the other person is this guy. i forget his name but he sang the amy mastura song and yah he was charismatic and for mi i kinda like him hahhhaha siak ah gay ah but yah i find him handsome and kinda cute with his chirpy and enthu spirit i find him the most outstanding person amoung the participants ah though he got knocked out but yah haiz.......melt siak hahhaahha
aniway before going to anugerah i went shopping with my mom at JB ah
wah lau happy like dunno wat ah
coz i bought myself a new pair of shoes and also a pair of new pants and also a new shirt my goodness i did not know i looked good in the stuff dat i bought was realli satisfied but onli temporarily coz y in my heart i dunno i think i just fall to easily for someone dat now i kinda feel hurt and also sad. haiz now someone else also got hurt ah and dat someone is also my X. Dunno but yah i think i shall not bother her too much but i just told her if she need ani help just call mi dats all. But now i have to make a decision whether to continue with wat i have been doing the past few days or just dont bother
haiz dunno and i shall just be lost
in the name of love
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Sorry Guys So many DayS not Updated
I am Back again AFter 3 days of rest i decided i need to updated my blog. ok ani way my Emcee thingy was realli sucky to the max...i received a comment which was like can u please tell the emcee to cut down the number of okies hahhaahha which i think is kinda habit for mi but the sad thing is i was not really very prepared. i did not plan out wat i wanted to say and also yah never realli rehearsed well. ani way 3 hours of dat crap i got paid for like $120 hahahah not bad ah but is kinda freaking low and cheap(not expecting much though).
hmmm wat else happened to mi ah? hmmmm yah i guess most of the time i was running to join the DoDo guys afetr work. the last day when they was in Sg i met up with dem and in the end go back alone haiz dam freaking bored lucky got this cute kind little stony soul accompanied mi. the following day i accompanied the cute kind little stony soul home after her tuition and yah i slip. Wah lau dam malu siak and my pants was like dirt and the shoe was also dirt.but ani way the kind cute soul helped mi out again and i gave her a pack of choc and dats where she turn so cute i feel like giving her more chocs hahahahhaha and after dat she listen to my cock and bull story and yah please ah dont smoke so much k.....
aniway yah n to my Two Friends Good LuCk in ur life and yah may u guys enjoy wat u are enjoying now. Btw just wondering wat are the two girls dat i use to like are doing now ahhahaha is been a long time i since contacted them oh ok u dunno the name ah is Nisa and Emy hahahah these two ah kinda like break my heart but yah is all over......so cant wait for this wed.....going to anugerah to support Fauzi.....Friday, gig at Substation......Sat, charlie and the choc Fac with CuteyStoney......hehheheh and also going in JB maybe on the Wed also to buy my skate shoe......hehhehe
ani way ciao my friends take care and yah
if the world is full of killings dat does not mean u follow the killings too
make a diff in the world by standing against Violence towards people
and encourage love and compassion and
weed for all the live...
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Surprise scary weirdy Funny Novicing Job
ani way today kinda piss off with the crowd at work coz there was totally nobody who was interested in getting a phone or a line and yah i was literally digging my nose or i should term it as Deepnose coz i was digging as deep as i could. ani way it was kinda fun with Mai Thanks for accompanying me at work and also u have to thank me for having me working there if not u also boring alone hahhahahaha.
ani way hmmmm mai mai luo mai kai hehehehehh if u r reading this go ask ur chinese frd wats luo mai kai hehehee.
ani way after work rush down to meet up with the lioncitydiy crew kinda one big family. it was realli nice to see everyone connected to each other one way or another and i feel like one big family. guess they should have such events more often not just gathering at the gigs but like just sitting down and talking cork and drink tea hahahah.
and i have to prepare for tmr...my i am going to be an emcee for the 1st time in public at Toa payoh. My is going to be some arts events thingy and i tot my job scope was just RaRA the crowd but dam i have to even say so much things i now pressure leh and also i am being paid like 200+ hhahahah haiz.....dunno ah hope not to see ani one familiar around dam paiseh leh........
ani way hmmmm mai mai luo mai kai hehehehehh if u r reading this go ask ur chinese frd wats luo mai kai hehehee.
ani way after work rush down to meet up with the lioncitydiy crew kinda one big family. it was realli nice to see everyone connected to each other one way or another and i feel like one big family. guess they should have such events more often not just gathering at the gigs but like just sitting down and talking cork and drink tea hahahah.
and i have to prepare for tmr...my i am going to be an emcee for the 1st time in public at Toa payoh. My is going to be some arts events thingy and i tot my job scope was just RaRA the crowd but dam i have to even say so much things i now pressure leh and also i am being paid like 200+ hhahahah haiz.....dunno ah hope not to see ani one familiar around dam paiseh leh........
Friday, July 29, 2005
Just as everything was going smoothly
just as i tot all was going smoothly and tmr i will be able to attend the gig idiotic stanley justtold mi sorry cannot find replacement basket wah lau i tell him one week advance also cannot make it must tell like wat 3 weeks one month advance ah KNN ah him. aniway i am feeling disappointed with myself coz i will be putting alot of ppl down. Ppl like DoDo Kids, audrey and gang, and also hannah and also my band siak haiz and the organizer wah lau i am feeling fucking fuck up siak......
and also if u guys read the news dat there was this boy who was run down by a lorry at Choa Chu kang dats kinda like my 2nd Cousin. wah lau his face was smashed up. i was wondering how will he be cleaned up to be buried ah....coz like yah for muslims for those who dunno we wrap ourselves in cloth and buried in the groud but for his case my cousin how siak? ani way life is precious my friends and my darlings and everyone who is reading this take good care of ur life and enjoy every moment spent with ur loved ones coz u will neber know when u will see them again......
and mai thanks for the chat kinda enjoyable and makes mi feel so comfortable.....hahah ciao
and also if u guys read the news dat there was this boy who was run down by a lorry at Choa Chu kang dats kinda like my 2nd Cousin. wah lau his face was smashed up. i was wondering how will he be cleaned up to be buried ah....coz like yah for muslims for those who dunno we wrap ourselves in cloth and buried in the groud but for his case my cousin how siak? ani way life is precious my friends and my darlings and everyone who is reading this take good care of ur life and enjoy every moment spent with ur loved ones coz u will neber know when u will see them again......
and mai thanks for the chat kinda enjoyable and makes mi feel so comfortable.....hahah ciao
Thursday, July 28, 2005
perfect excellent marvellous day
today was a fine smoothing day met up with ahmad to slack actualli wanted to grab a movie but did not had a movie of our choice. Slack for quite sometime and Fauzi our Abang singer Superstar join us too and we walk around orchard. Kinda like miss those days where we will go out the whole gang together, Yan, Sin, NaZ, Zi, ahamd, is, and not forgetting me together. any way after that Ahmad had to move out for work while fauzi had to move out for his fitting though it was just a short period of time dat we spent with each other i guess each of us treasured it.
after dat met up with seelan at Dhoby Ghuat and went to peace center for his printing n yah after dat rush to Garage studio for jamming. Today jamming the ambience not power thrashy enugh ah maybe is the guitar amp. and though we kinda like waste our fucking time jamming though i guess we are kina tight we just continue thrashing our music all the way. after jamming hang out with DoDo, Din, Kyn from my precious, rahmat, jamez, shai, yati, Ep and Gf which later on for a while met and the other guy i forget his name. ani way DoD o just came back from Sentosa and could see that they were kinda tired. Had dinner where i didnt and saw them eating like Char siew, trotters soup and tom yam i kinda like tell myself kai wake up not all indons are Muslim pardon my short form but i never meant for ani insult. dan after dat when to borders and slack and yah along the way took some photos and i also entertained them with my cranky silly street stunts. they find me crazy hahahahah dats kinda cool. ani way yah Ari is great, dedek was super smiley and the other guy i dunno his name was great to talk to. my oh my come to think about it they are all Uni students my i sometimes feel ashamed of myself for not registering for a Uni even though i might be elgible for but nvm.
ani way the whole day i was msging Mai.....hehheheh.ANiway if u Guys free come Down to My gig on Friday CoZ XyX is going to Have thraShing GooD time....
after dat met up with seelan at Dhoby Ghuat and went to peace center for his printing n yah after dat rush to Garage studio for jamming. Today jamming the ambience not power thrashy enugh ah maybe is the guitar amp. and though we kinda like waste our fucking time jamming though i guess we are kina tight we just continue thrashing our music all the way. after jamming hang out with DoDo, Din, Kyn from my precious, rahmat, jamez, shai, yati, Ep and Gf which later on for a while met and the other guy i forget his name. ani way DoD o just came back from Sentosa and could see that they were kinda tired. Had dinner where i didnt and saw them eating like Char siew, trotters soup and tom yam i kinda like tell myself kai wake up not all indons are Muslim pardon my short form but i never meant for ani insult. dan after dat when to borders and slack and yah along the way took some photos and i also entertained them with my cranky silly street stunts. they find me crazy hahahahah dats kinda cool. ani way yah Ari is great, dedek was super smiley and the other guy i dunno his name was great to talk to. my oh my come to think about it they are all Uni students my i sometimes feel ashamed of myself for not registering for a Uni even though i might be elgible for but nvm.
ani way the whole day i was msging Mai.....hehheheh.ANiway if u Guys free come Down to My gig on Friday CoZ XyX is going to Have thraShing GooD time....
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Smiling
Today i just wrote a comment written by a guest writer on the new paper. He was discussing about whether singaporeans still smile. I guess he has a very good point there in saying that Singaporeans are no more smiling. And also his reasons on y we are not smiling any more is the fact. Come to think about it, have we ever tot our family members or our little kids to smile at each other? and also nowadays kids are ever less friendly.....i use to remeber back in those days when i was young, race colour and language was no issue in mind just as long as we share our toys and make the best and realistic noise from the toys is the only thing that we were concern about. Playing soccer, catching at those humongous with sand and those wooden planks bridges playground and also poison ball, all u need to do is just stand there and those are playing will immediately approach u and ask "Want to Play?" now haiz is so sad to say that we come from a racial harmony country but do w play with each other, interact often? NO is only when it comes to NS, Studying in school(doing projects)and this depends also coz is always the one race group thing unless group by the teacher. when we go to the market also we dont hear the aunties speaking malays to the Mak cik, we seldom hear the malays askin the Aunties "Ku lui"ah ? Soon we will hear everyone speaking in the heaviest accent " Duo Sao Neh?" coz not long our markets will be infiltrated by China Chinese. And the mak ciks will only go to the malay stores onli and no more making buisness with the chinese and there will be less interactivity amoung the races.
another thing dat ponders me is how amazing and ignorant the Chinese China perceive us Singaporeans. Is like as if, all living being in Singapore are able to speak Mandarin and explain every freaking detail in Mandarin. Is so sad to see this happening coz if u come to a acountry u adapt to thier living and not ppl adapt to ur living...my goodnesss dat means from your bathing ettique, speaking on the phone, ur habits my please ADAPT.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Y siak y me siak?
i dunno ah but i was told by my parents dat in the month of september i shall cancel off all my plans and stay at home and look out for my bro PSLE.....haiz like wat the fuck man. Come ah...i had to look out from my second bro PSLE dan now my youngest bro. Furthermore wat a way to enjoy ur taste of childishness and inmaturity and. Come on i am going NS, i dont have any opportunity to destress, go wild, exploit life to its fullest. Y are they doing this to me. Whenever my parents describe about their youger days, they say the do this go here go there, they had abundance of freedom...y cant they give me the same amount of freedom? is not as if i am not educated, drop out, or never complete studies.....i completed and fulfill their wish and now they still wanna control me.....please please y y tell me....
now my life is such a bore....
actualli wat is life?
planning for the future?
learning from mistake?
slacking around?
earning money?
crappy.....
now just wait and slack and die for NS to come and yah fuck the wrld....
and i am deprive of sex hahahahah need to find someone where i can release....
now my life is such a bore....
actualli wat is life?
planning for the future?
learning from mistake?
slacking around?
earning money?
crappy.....
now just wait and slack and die for NS to come and yah fuck the wrld....
and i am deprive of sex hahahahah need to find someone where i can release....
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
yo guys i am back....ani way i have a new crush in heart now...
her name is sarah....
met her at AUdrey BBQ she looks heavenly....
though we never talk much
she sounds so wonderful to me.....
but i guess is just a crush n will not further more
y?
coz first of all
i got low self esteem to chase her
and also she is rich......
high maintainance......
Age is not a prob coz she is going 20 to be
Looks does matter
coz i am ur FatY Kai UglY JoCk
ani way she is athletic and i am pathatic
her pictures are marvellous she looks dam good esp
with her specs on
she makes me go Nuah when i see her in specs
though she aint much meat but i have all the meat in the world to make her warm
haiz but too bad a crush is just a crash
a short period to like someone dats all it stands
ani way today was ok fine and perfect.....
i was walking around naked in my house coz i was totally alone
and yah mine u totally naked nothing on hahahahaahh
but yah not untill my mom who came back from Malacca
and yah starts destroying the peace and the quietness of the house
fucking piss off
she even called me heartless can u just imagined dat
i just wonder which mom says dat to the kid.....
wait i am going to be 21
and still a mama boys...
wait which 21 year old kid still stay at home respect thier parents
does not go out at night
dont club
goes back home straight after work
dont smoke
listen to them
dont retaliate with wat they said
haiz.....y cant she just appreciate
wah lau in such modern society 1 out of 5 kids dont come home b4 12
haiz guess who is more heartless
i think i shall just bear it coz i got another 2 more months to endure and TADA
i am gone
no more ur heartless son
no more nagging from u.....
her name is sarah....
met her at AUdrey BBQ she looks heavenly....
though we never talk much
she sounds so wonderful to me.....
but i guess is just a crush n will not further more
y?
coz first of all
i got low self esteem to chase her
and also she is rich......
high maintainance......
Age is not a prob coz she is going 20 to be
Looks does matter
coz i am ur FatY Kai UglY JoCk
ani way she is athletic and i am pathatic
her pictures are marvellous she looks dam good esp
with her specs on
she makes me go Nuah when i see her in specs
though she aint much meat but i have all the meat in the world to make her warm
haiz but too bad a crush is just a crash
a short period to like someone dats all it stands
ani way today was ok fine and perfect.....
i was walking around naked in my house coz i was totally alone
and yah mine u totally naked nothing on hahahahaahh
but yah not untill my mom who came back from Malacca
and yah starts destroying the peace and the quietness of the house
fucking piss off
she even called me heartless can u just imagined dat
i just wonder which mom says dat to the kid.....
wait i am going to be 21
and still a mama boys...
wait which 21 year old kid still stay at home respect thier parents
does not go out at night
dont club
goes back home straight after work
dont smoke
listen to them
dont retaliate with wat they said
haiz.....y cant she just appreciate
wah lau in such modern society 1 out of 5 kids dont come home b4 12
haiz guess who is more heartless
i think i shall just bear it coz i got another 2 more months to endure and TADA
i am gone
no more ur heartless son
no more nagging from u.....
Monday, July 18, 2005
days after days back to back......
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Fucking Fuck up ah
i hate love.....y must we love.....when u put ur whole heart and soul to it, u get shit but when u just play around u get ppl seriusly loving u fuck u ah love fuck it ah......
now i wonder wat is love
love a word
but pains the world
hearts burning and souls crashing
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
TMR BIG DAY!!!!!
tmr is graduation day hahahha i haven register yet but is ok i called the school up and they say all i need is to come down an hour earlier and yah register and all will be fine hahahah ani way yah i will be missin gmy Matric Card. Though is just one hell of a pathetic card dat does not serve much purpose to me it has plentyful of memories. From the 1st day i step into TP and take photo during the registration at Audi to ppl approaching me to join the FOC hahahha which i will miss and never forget to my first time with my classmates hahahahah i will never forget the lines i said and also the jokes Yan made about me ahhahahhah
wah lau looking back those days where Fauzi me Gaz shafie sara nora and yah i forget this girl name ah hahahha but yah my crush ahhahahaha hanging out after school in school toking cork until like 9. Playing soccer with Vishnu and the gang, my first presentation hahahah IISO hahahah was really cool, TPSU, SCHOOL SONG, ITAS canteen, sambal drumstick rice meal hahhah wah i miss dat...... Yasir Big Showdown, Sleeping in Lectures, Chasing for Tutorials hahahahh wah lau the friends we made the hi and the bye we said to each other along the aisle way hahahahha KAZAA LAB hahahaahah kool.....yahoo POOL dam it got caught playing and was fine $50 bucks CB....hmmmm and muji caught for setting up Counter strike Network in school hahahhahah FYP LABS where i stay there till the end of the day......learning .NET programming haiz so many things to talk about but lazy to type ahahahahha ho wish there is a device where is connecting to my brain and just type out wat i am thinking or wanna say ahhahahahh
ok lah enugh ah i wanna go makan ah very hungry take care kai and kai friends TP is now History......all i can do now is look back and enjoy the moments dat i had........
wah lau looking back those days where Fauzi me Gaz shafie sara nora and yah i forget this girl name ah hahahha but yah my crush ahhahahaha hanging out after school in school toking cork until like 9. Playing soccer with Vishnu and the gang, my first presentation hahahah IISO hahahah was really cool, TPSU, SCHOOL SONG, ITAS canteen, sambal drumstick rice meal hahhah wah i miss dat...... Yasir Big Showdown, Sleeping in Lectures, Chasing for Tutorials hahahahh wah lau the friends we made the hi and the bye we said to each other along the aisle way hahahahha KAZAA LAB hahahaahah kool.....yahoo POOL dam it got caught playing and was fine $50 bucks CB....hmmmm and muji caught for setting up Counter strike Network in school hahahhahah FYP LABS where i stay there till the end of the day......learning .NET programming haiz so many things to talk about but lazy to type ahahahahha ho wish there is a device where is connecting to my brain and just type out wat i am thinking or wanna say ahhahahahh
ok lah enugh ah i wanna go makan ah very hungry take care kai and kai friends TP is now History......all i can do now is look back and enjoy the moments dat i had........
is my planning dat bad
time is a funny thing i guess...when ur free ur totally free and you got seriously nothing to do. But when u got things to do ur freaking busy take example like last week seriously nothing to do boring like shit
now like
TUESDAY
Lunch with ain
WEDNESDAY
Graduation Day at 10(which i think i will not go)
SU gathering at East Coast
Filming for Pilot Screen project
Seesha-ing
XyX Jamming
Friday
Audrey BBQ party(still thinking whether i should go)
Saturday
XyX performing at Safra
Stacie's Bday Party
hahahah wah like got so many activities.......ani way read SPG blog and saw her face and her pic i should say she is not ur hot babe with a great face but i admire her courage and her stand coz for a girl like her confidence is ever oozing for her n dats wat i admire about her and about ladies when they have that confidence in them.
Any way for those who want to know about my love life ahahahah there isnt ani more PPL now in MIA period, Nisa is just a pure friend, and i think i am going to be a gay man. Is so freaking depressing when females just dump u like dat hahahhaah and there they say guys are bastard eat ur words coz u bastard me. Sometimes they give guys too much hope and feelings and in the end TADA! can we just be friends super dam sucky.......
ok they say guys are boring, possessive, heartless.....ok wait lets tonight explain y guys such manners
Lets talk about boring....
Boring wats interesting for guys Esp in Singapore.....everywhere we go is still the same place same area we pak tor same thing doing it again and again so yah of coz is boring. Also y guys are boring coz we dont have fucking money......so we cannot book fullerton hotel for 3 days 2 nights or cannot go to High class restaurant to eat...haiz u tell me if u dont have money where would u go in Singapore? Just name it ah.......name me ten places dat u can go to without spending more dan $50 bucks together...... ok wait i can hear esplanade, pool, beach, window shopping, some more......
ok lets now talk about possesive.......
ok this is kinda common and sometimes extreme but i shall say possesive in the most mildest way. 1st of all let me explain y guys are possesive....b4 GF & BF the guy will spend alot of time with her being with her and like yah spend money buying gifts to arouse her interest and trying to be interesting and not boring....after once got together we feel a sense of an achievement that i got the girl i like and yah i want to keep her till as long as i can till there is no more love dats y we are possesive. Ok wait i can hear the girls say wah lau u think wat we are toys ah objects for u to keep ah.......hahahhah the answer is no but yah u should jolly be faithful towards him....coz we take our guts and pocket money out to chase after u and limit our scope just for u and no one else and dan wat u expect us to do.....just let u free like dat ah......haiz....
ok now to the extreme part
i noe is bad, scary and irritating for guys to go to the extreme but wat to do wat we say we meant it from our hearts like....I LOVE YOU or there is no one who can replace u duh......we all meant it so after we break off we tend to like yah cant forget how the time we spent together and also the feelings we had for each other. ok yah i noe is all over but if there is no one who can replace u life continues like dat for a guy. Coz guy cant multitask we are focus beings thus when we want some one or love someone , we just love and love onli her dats all.
hahahah heartless....
ok guys are weird ppl i noe i am one of them we are heartless to u but deep down inside we are also hurt too. Y do we initiate breakups sometimes or for mi all the time coz we are logic thinking ppl if things are not rite and we cant find no solution we break off. But dan the girls might think dat hey wait since we break off is time for mi to find another guy hahahaah yah do u noe is easy to find a guy dan to find a girl. talking about heartless how bout making a guy wait or maybe tortue him emotionally and tricking him into believing dat love is coming on is way and after dat just dump him ahhahahah so who is heartless.....as i was mentioning a girl finding a guy is like opening up ur two hands and spreading ur fingers as wide as u can.....dats the amount of guys u can choose from.
for a guy to choose a girl, is onli like sticking up ur middle finger and concentrate on getting her dats all. so u tell mi how fortunate girls are......
talking about stupidity
wait guys are actualli smart beings but they sacriface thier ego and thier smartness just to make sure that the girl will have a sense of well being. So how ? we sacriface our time our money our hearts our minds and soul for u and our ego just to make sure u feel great when u go out with us. And we also let u dump ur temper on us and we have to be a fool.......and be heartless and not take watever u say seriusly.....
haiz ani way i wrote this from my own point of view and also experince i heard from my frds all around me. though i may not be right i kinda believe that both sides are also experincing same problems with guys dumping girls and girls dumping guys but have u tot dat if u stop now wat u are doing would u think this will carry on? one person makes a diff when it comes to such things coz is has a chain reaction like how we all must wear the colourful plastic bands rite now ani way yah.....feel free to comment this kinda long stupid and sometimes meaningful post ah hahahahah ani way ciao
now like
TUESDAY
Lunch with ain
WEDNESDAY
Graduation Day at 10(which i think i will not go)
SU gathering at East Coast
Filming for Pilot Screen project
Seesha-ing
XyX Jamming
Friday
Audrey BBQ party(still thinking whether i should go)
Saturday
XyX performing at Safra
Stacie's Bday Party
hahahah wah like got so many activities.......ani way read SPG blog and saw her face and her pic i should say she is not ur hot babe with a great face but i admire her courage and her stand coz for a girl like her confidence is ever oozing for her n dats wat i admire about her and about ladies when they have that confidence in them.
Any way for those who want to know about my love life ahahahah there isnt ani more PPL now in MIA period, Nisa is just a pure friend, and i think i am going to be a gay man. Is so freaking depressing when females just dump u like dat hahahhaah and there they say guys are bastard eat ur words coz u bastard me. Sometimes they give guys too much hope and feelings and in the end TADA! can we just be friends super dam sucky.......
ok they say guys are boring, possessive, heartless.....ok wait lets tonight explain y guys such manners
Lets talk about boring....
Boring wats interesting for guys Esp in Singapore.....everywhere we go is still the same place same area we pak tor same thing doing it again and again so yah of coz is boring. Also y guys are boring coz we dont have fucking money......so we cannot book fullerton hotel for 3 days 2 nights or cannot go to High class restaurant to eat...haiz u tell me if u dont have money where would u go in Singapore? Just name it ah.......name me ten places dat u can go to without spending more dan $50 bucks together...... ok wait i can hear esplanade, pool, beach, window shopping, some more......
ok lets now talk about possesive.......
ok this is kinda common and sometimes extreme but i shall say possesive in the most mildest way. 1st of all let me explain y guys are possesive....b4 GF & BF the guy will spend alot of time with her being with her and like yah spend money buying gifts to arouse her interest and trying to be interesting and not boring....after once got together we feel a sense of an achievement that i got the girl i like and yah i want to keep her till as long as i can till there is no more love dats y we are possesive. Ok wait i can hear the girls say wah lau u think wat we are toys ah objects for u to keep ah.......hahahhah the answer is no but yah u should jolly be faithful towards him....coz we take our guts and pocket money out to chase after u and limit our scope just for u and no one else and dan wat u expect us to do.....just let u free like dat ah......haiz....
ok now to the extreme part
i noe is bad, scary and irritating for guys to go to the extreme but wat to do wat we say we meant it from our hearts like....I LOVE YOU or there is no one who can replace u duh......we all meant it so after we break off we tend to like yah cant forget how the time we spent together and also the feelings we had for each other. ok yah i noe is all over but if there is no one who can replace u life continues like dat for a guy. Coz guy cant multitask we are focus beings thus when we want some one or love someone , we just love and love onli her dats all.
hahahah heartless....
ok guys are weird ppl i noe i am one of them we are heartless to u but deep down inside we are also hurt too. Y do we initiate breakups sometimes or for mi all the time coz we are logic thinking ppl if things are not rite and we cant find no solution we break off. But dan the girls might think dat hey wait since we break off is time for mi to find another guy hahahaah yah do u noe is easy to find a guy dan to find a girl. talking about heartless how bout making a guy wait or maybe tortue him emotionally and tricking him into believing dat love is coming on is way and after dat just dump him ahhahahah so who is heartless.....as i was mentioning a girl finding a guy is like opening up ur two hands and spreading ur fingers as wide as u can.....dats the amount of guys u can choose from.
for a guy to choose a girl, is onli like sticking up ur middle finger and concentrate on getting her dats all. so u tell mi how fortunate girls are......
talking about stupidity
wait guys are actualli smart beings but they sacriface thier ego and thier smartness just to make sure that the girl will have a sense of well being. So how ? we sacriface our time our money our hearts our minds and soul for u and our ego just to make sure u feel great when u go out with us. And we also let u dump ur temper on us and we have to be a fool.......and be heartless and not take watever u say seriusly.....
haiz ani way i wrote this from my own point of view and also experince i heard from my frds all around me. though i may not be right i kinda believe that both sides are also experincing same problems with guys dumping girls and girls dumping guys but have u tot dat if u stop now wat u are doing would u think this will carry on? one person makes a diff when it comes to such things coz is has a chain reaction like how we all must wear the colourful plastic bands rite now ani way yah.....feel free to comment this kinda long stupid and sometimes meaningful post ah hahahahah ani way ciao
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