Hectic Mixed Emotions Week

On the 18th of September, my ah gong passed away. He had a heart attack while he was at home. I was there seeing my Ah Gong heart beat dropped from 60 to 20 and 0. Though i was not close with him, the ppl around me were all teary but the most saddening part was that my Grandma was not able to see his heartbeat dropped. She was outside being console by our other relatives. She only got the news when my mom walked out and told her Mom, my grandma that Father is Gone. The look of my Grandma face was so sad that i too feel like crying but i hold back my tears.

the following day, i escape from sadness and meet up with my GF.....to celebrate my Bday. I knew she planned something but i told her dat i was not in the mood for any surprises so she told me her plans and i tried to make time for what she had planned for me. She picked me up with her close GF kiki where she brought me down to goodwood park hotel. Along the way in the cab, she showed me a video which u can view it here. It made me tear but i had to be strong and hold back my tears coz i dont like to cry infront of ppl cause is very embarrasing. Any way i didnt see that coming but it was really nice and i liked it.

At Goodwood Park Hotel, she ordered my fav cake which was Black Forest Cake. I like the black forest cake at Goodwood park hotel so she decided to get my cake from there. I was abit angry cause it would cost a bomb and i never had an expensive cake b4 which was inmaterial to me and also happy that she made an effort to go buy for me my fav cake which was mouth watering. From there we head down to Borders where i celebrated with my Close buddies, Ahmad, Yan GF and the Muh'S/Z'ins. It was realli nice to celebrate together with ur friends and forget wat happened. Later, we head down to Pizza Hut at Lucky Plaza and dine in for dinner. I was there non stopping critizing Syaf for her fetilized and fermentated milk. After dinner, they head home, my GF brought me to watch Movie the Pulse with her GF kiki.

The show was not scary at all but kiki was shocked and scared, she was literally screaming out of her seats due to the shocking part and also where the Ghost came crawling out from the washing machine.After the movie, went to her dorm to overnight there.

The next following days were spend at the wake, playing taiti. It was realli tiring because you had to entertain most of the visitors and also heheheh i brought my GF to the wake and introduction everyone to her. From my Grandma to my youngest cousin who commented that her hair got boogie hahhah which was cute. Her expression was also hahhhhaha, everytime i introduction her to one person of that table, she would like smile to everyone and shake everybody's hand hahahhaha so cute......

Any way now my mom and dad seen her and has no complains i guess i am on a ok path with her. The last day of the wake was the most saddest part of my life. This was my first time seeing a non muslim ceremony so it was eye opening and also saddening. When the body left the wake for church, my grandma wailed. It was the first time i see her wailed and i was beside her so the only thing i could do was hug her and console her. Later we had to trail the van which was carry the casket, during this trail, ppl start to cry again and my younger cousins were like crying so loudly my goodness my eyes start tearing....but with a few short deep breaths i manage to control them again. Now we were all heading to the crematorium.

i have never been to a crematroium b4 or never heard of wat and how things go by inside onli til this day where i found out how much sadness and pain are shelter in this well furbished "chalet". for the first time i get to see my Ah gong from with limbs and meat going to burned into ashes. Seeing him go thru down the aisle and with a door opening infront and when the oven door starts to open and u can see the fire burning inside, i was realli tearing in pain for my ah gong but i hold back my tears. Even in the muslim world no matter how close dat deceased person u are with hold back ur tears dont let the deceased be sad and thats wat i did. After the whole thing my bro teared badly and i gave him a hug hehehehhehe.......

haiz....wat a week.....
but thank you everyone who wished me and those who i never replied i am so sorry
but most importantly i must thank
my love my baby for being there with me
and also for tolerating some of my stupid nonsense
i love you sayang from the bottom of my heart

ps:if my spelling or grammar sucks to the max thank you very much for picking up my mistakes.

33 THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO DO WITH YOU

Marinah baby dear!!!!
The 33 things that i would like to do with you.
Present
1. Hold your hands
2. Kiss your lips
3. Let you rest your shoulder on me
4. Hug you
5. Comb your hair
6. Smell you
7. Hang out with you
8. Share an ice-cream with you
9. Make your head spin
10. Shopping together
11. Chatting on the phone

Working Adults
12. Pick you up from work in a Car
13. Comment on your cooking
14. Bring you on a romantic cruise
15. Send flowers to your office on special occasions
16. Have Dinner with our parents
17. Share the same bed with you to sleep
18. Make breakfast for each other
19. Reminding you not to work too hard and dont neglect your health
20. Caring for juniors of you and me
21. Volunteers at House of Rabbit on Sunday Morning
22. Exercising with you

Golden Years
23. Admiring our grown up children together
24. Cuddling with our grandsons
25. Picnic at all our "PAH TOH" sites during our younger days
26. Lazing at Home with you beside me
27. Own big backyard for our rabbits to run around
28. Walk down botanical gardens with you
29. Looking back our memories through our photos
30. Share our special moments to our GrandChildren
31. Walk down the beach with you in my arms side by side
32. Supporting each other while walking
33. Dying together

I LOVE YOU SAYANG........