i just browsed my friends photos and when i see his photos taken around school, it really brought back lots of memories of my school days. From the 1st day i went to Temasek Poly and made a milestone for myself hahhaha (wah so the beh paiseh) i really enjoyed myself during my 3 years stint there. Though there were a few hiccups here and there, i managed to overcome it during the 3 years. I just wish time can be rewind and i just run back to the past and just enjoy myself and the camps entertaining campus and the freshmens with my psychotic eccentric ideas just to make sure everyone feels good. Though i might not feel good in the end, at least i know i have made a difference in people's life. Haiz now the only people i have to entertain are people who are so lifeless emotional empty, why i say this cause everyone in camp is just wasting time and making sure that whatever task assign to them is done just to kill time. I am already in the 6th month in the Slavery and i begin to ask myself what is in there that would benefit me. I guess the only beneficial that the Slavery can provide is killing boredom. I seriously feel tired just waiting around and expecting things to happen.Why i cant make things happen is because there it so many higher authorities who are like in thier own world. Just because they have tons and tons of experience they rule the world.
Ever since wednesday night i got back from the place, i just feel shitty sitting in the pathetic class doing shit nothing and making shitty dreams in the afternoon like what the hell....i was too pissed off i guess i got really sick and yah i took two days MC. And since than my mood is swinging, one moment i can all be nice the next moment something furious is bothering me and i feel like blasting out and most of the time it happen at home. Had an outing with my kakis....ahmad, yan, nazmi, muhsin and fir.....hahahah most of us were in no mood. 3 of us me, ahmad and yan were like bothered by something but we just kept quiet and Nazmi and Mushin the bros tried thier very best to lighten the group. In the end we all had a great night, we all ended the night by watching Ultra violet at the new cathy which was like WOAH awesome and chic. we than became cam whores taking photos most of the time. Any way i have learnt a thing, if things are not going well for my friend i shall just grab famous amous choc cookies and ask him to consume it. That will make him lighter and be himself again.
overall i just have to say currently i just feel shitty about myself and the place where i am at. Am i going to turn into a heartless lifeless boring human during my these two years haiz....i really dunno.......no wonder i notice all my seniors are like not smiling as much as there use to be while in school i guess all thanks to the Slavery.
emotionally empty, boredom, moody, quiet, lifeless dats wat i am feeling................
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