ok today i am very lazy to blog but i feel that since i am online i think i better just do it.
ok just now i was working and an old friend, colleague of mine drop by at work place. Ok he is one guy that is usper Zai or i should say ONz. Cause he use to be a part time staff for the Company, and when he comes to work on Sat and Sun, Me and my Ta Jie will leave him alone in the shop and we will go shopping. Is not just an hour but two hour straight, hahahahhah and when he come back he never even complain or bear grudges at us. Furthermore if there is alot of customers, he will still serve them one by one as quick as he could. Ok now he is in NS and we cant do that stunt ani more with my Ta jie coz nowadays the staff here working are not Onz and Zai as us. Cause we are able to handle many customers back to back alone without our colleagues around.
ok back to him wah lau i notice his level of crapicity hahhaah ok a new word today, a combination of crap and capacity, is much super duper higher than mine. His level of talking cock is unmatchable. Ani way we had a real great time enjoying ourselves listening to his jokes and also reviving the times that we worked together.Than later on, i got my Cheque. Wah happy to get my salary but when i see it, i was SHOCKED. The amount stated there $380.95 i was like what the hell. I was expecting more than that. At least a $500 bucks is much better that a miserable $380. I questioned many people on how long i worked already and also question myself when i started work. It all came clear in mind that i started work straight away my Dinner and Dance which was the 9th of this month. That means i should have at least a $500. i was pissed off, when the office told me i started work on the 17th cause i remembered that while i was working i had a itchy period due to the drinking session i had on the night after DnD. So yah i remember it vividly and now i am just waiting for confirmation with my boss. If he were to tell me that i start work on the 17th dan fine i will not work for him ani more. I am serious, though i am hadam for money coz i need to pay alot of people, i can find other jobs.
ok thats all that happen to me today while at work........so i am lazy to write already coz i got nothing to blog ani more so go sleep now and i will write about tmr if tmr ever comes........
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Thursday, April 28, 2005
dream dream dream
yesterday night i had a dream.....
i dunno whether it was a good dream or a bad dream. At first i was dreaming that i was at Emy's Apartment and she was held hostage by this guy. So i rushed down to the scene immediately when i heard the news. After much negotiation with the kidnappers and much persuasion with the negotiator, i managed to take over the job and enter her apartment.
Once i entered, i was sitting down face to face with the kidnapper and we were talking. I did not see Emy around, than all of a sudden i heard she came out from her bedroom. She just woke up and she wanted to go to the toilet and also make a call. But she did not realise that she was being held captive by an unknown guy. so i decided to plug out the telephone wire from the jack and called her. Than the next thing i knew, she was like so happy to find me at her apartment and she ran towards me and sat next to me.
In the end i managed to resolve the situation and the guy surrendered. Subsequently, we were transported to the hospital just for a full body check up and after that we went back together in the bus. I felt it was my duty to send a girl back home whenever she is out with me. While along the way, we got intimate and the next thing i knew we had an accident and she disappeared.
ok although it was a dream it felt so real. I really dunno y am i having a dream about her. Ok maybe i still have feelings for her, maybe i still like her but i dunno.
Ok enugh of the dream, just now i was working than had my lunch with Huda at Mac. Ok i dunno but i think she is getting too overboard than me. I am finding her sometimes quite irritating cause she laughs too easily and it get exaggerated.sometimes. Hmmm i dunno i am now beginning to find her as a normal friends whom i can apporached to when i need entertainment i guess. Ok i noe is bad to treat a friend like that, but yah i really feel irritated and also like weird. Although i am like super friendly and kinda stuff but yah i feel very weird when i am with her. Is not those type of love weird kinda stuff ah but like "y am i mixing with such kinda of people" kinda stuff. Furthermore, it seems that she is calling me most of the time, although we are just friends i mean every night calling each other to talk on the phone is not good unless ur my GirlFriend.
Ok other than that, just while i was working i met this girl her name is nuraidah, she is like chinese looking babe ah she is not your pretty girl kinda lady but she is the know how to dress up bit of japster with punk rock taste kind fashion. And she was like wearing same specs with me ah ahhaahhahha ok i know ah like bit lame ah but she was asking me whether she was entitled for upgrading of her contract so i got her number and when she left i msg her but hahhahaha no reply. Ani way i mean like i should have approach her personally i guess. Ok today was alright lah overall...... and Ok for the last two days i did not have the mood to blog cause i was too super tired.
ok now i am tired tmr working, work for 3 more days and Freshmen Orientation Camp is along the bay.....ok thats where i am going to meet my X heard from my friends that she is coming for the camp, hmmmmmm i wonder how will our expressions be when we see each other, will it be shame or anger or happy i dont know. Ok guys need to sleep now take care bye.....
i dunno whether it was a good dream or a bad dream. At first i was dreaming that i was at Emy's Apartment and she was held hostage by this guy. So i rushed down to the scene immediately when i heard the news. After much negotiation with the kidnappers and much persuasion with the negotiator, i managed to take over the job and enter her apartment.
Once i entered, i was sitting down face to face with the kidnapper and we were talking. I did not see Emy around, than all of a sudden i heard she came out from her bedroom. She just woke up and she wanted to go to the toilet and also make a call. But she did not realise that she was being held captive by an unknown guy. so i decided to plug out the telephone wire from the jack and called her. Than the next thing i knew, she was like so happy to find me at her apartment and she ran towards me and sat next to me.
In the end i managed to resolve the situation and the guy surrendered. Subsequently, we were transported to the hospital just for a full body check up and after that we went back together in the bus. I felt it was my duty to send a girl back home whenever she is out with me. While along the way, we got intimate and the next thing i knew we had an accident and she disappeared.
ok although it was a dream it felt so real. I really dunno y am i having a dream about her. Ok maybe i still have feelings for her, maybe i still like her but i dunno.
Ok enugh of the dream, just now i was working than had my lunch with Huda at Mac. Ok i dunno but i think she is getting too overboard than me. I am finding her sometimes quite irritating cause she laughs too easily and it get exaggerated.sometimes. Hmmm i dunno i am now beginning to find her as a normal friends whom i can apporached to when i need entertainment i guess. Ok i noe is bad to treat a friend like that, but yah i really feel irritated and also like weird. Although i am like super friendly and kinda stuff but yah i feel very weird when i am with her. Is not those type of love weird kinda stuff ah but like "y am i mixing with such kinda of people" kinda stuff. Furthermore, it seems that she is calling me most of the time, although we are just friends i mean every night calling each other to talk on the phone is not good unless ur my GirlFriend.
Ok other than that, just while i was working i met this girl her name is nuraidah, she is like chinese looking babe ah she is not your pretty girl kinda lady but she is the know how to dress up bit of japster with punk rock taste kind fashion. And she was like wearing same specs with me ah ahhaahhahha ok i know ah like bit lame ah but she was asking me whether she was entitled for upgrading of her contract so i got her number and when she left i msg her but hahhahaha no reply. Ani way i mean like i should have approach her personally i guess. Ok today was alright lah overall...... and Ok for the last two days i did not have the mood to blog cause i was too super tired.
ok now i am tired tmr working, work for 3 more days and Freshmen Orientation Camp is along the bay.....ok thats where i am going to meet my X heard from my friends that she is coming for the camp, hmmmmmm i wonder how will our expressions be when we see each other, will it be shame or anger or happy i dont know. Ok guys need to sleep now take care bye.....
Monday, April 25, 2005
3 months of having to know of Emy
today is the 26th of April today
is a special day for mi if i were to be that someone
but now is just a normal day for mi and
also a day where i think back of those days when i spent the times together at the playground
and the walk from school to the Interchange and the trip back to your house.
would it be nice if i was still with her dan it would be our 3rd anniversary but not ani more.
Though it may be nonsensical towards her by celebrating monthly anniversary, it was a great event for mi.
Coz i treasue every moment that i spent with her, even if i were to be more crazy about her i would take each day as a new anniversary for us. but is now over, all over who should be blame i donno who is the victim i dunno.
Loving you is so sweet but the rewards are bittering.
ani way now i am single and outsourcing for someone who realli takes me in her eyes someone who realli wants me to be with her.
Ok just at work was very the boring cause the number of customers coming in to buy is less than the customers who are questioning. Any way i have been working in this line for quite sometime and i have to say that i am very sad to see how materialistic Singaporeans can get. Furthermore with the numbers of parents buying high end phone for thier kids wah....i am realli disappointed in the parents cause they dont teach the children to earn the hard way. When can we start nuturing our kids to be mentally tough in EQ, when there is a crisis, money is not the answer of all problems. Thats wat the Singapore goverment and also the parents are teaching the younger Generation. If we dont deactivate such idealogy to our kids than Singapore will be a much better place to live in.
is a special day for mi if i were to be that someone
but now is just a normal day for mi and
also a day where i think back of those days when i spent the times together at the playground
and the walk from school to the Interchange and the trip back to your house.
would it be nice if i was still with her dan it would be our 3rd anniversary but not ani more.
Though it may be nonsensical towards her by celebrating monthly anniversary, it was a great event for mi.
Coz i treasue every moment that i spent with her, even if i were to be more crazy about her i would take each day as a new anniversary for us. but is now over, all over who should be blame i donno who is the victim i dunno.
Loving you is so sweet but the rewards are bittering.
ani way now i am single and outsourcing for someone who realli takes me in her eyes someone who realli wants me to be with her.
Ok just at work was very the boring cause the number of customers coming in to buy is less than the customers who are questioning. Any way i have been working in this line for quite sometime and i have to say that i am very sad to see how materialistic Singaporeans can get. Furthermore with the numbers of parents buying high end phone for thier kids wah....i am realli disappointed in the parents cause they dont teach the children to earn the hard way. When can we start nuturing our kids to be mentally tough in EQ, when there is a crisis, money is not the answer of all problems. Thats wat the Singapore goverment and also the parents are teaching the younger Generation. If we dont deactivate such idealogy to our kids than Singapore will be a much better place to live in.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
today today today 23 April 2005
Ok today hmmmm before i left the house i cleared the FANS the Air COn Filter.
it was abit agitating cause it seems like i am the only one who is clearing up the house from vacumming the house to cleaning the fans and the Air Con filter and even folding clothes were all done by me. i am like hello i am 21 to be i wanna be more relax and let all these task be done to my younger bros but it does not seem that way.
ani way by the time i finish i had to prepare to go out to Huda Party. Ok i was thinking of whether i should wrapped her present or not ah or just give her like that. hehehehhehe due to my laziness and also lack of creative and also lack of wrapping paper at home, i decided to give her like that ah. Ani way yah it was a pink ROXY wallet.........
Ok while on the way to Huda house i wanted to buy the kueh Lopez for My Godsister who is working nearby Huda house also but i search high and low still cant find so in the end never buy ah but never mind Kakak i will buy for you soon. Ok i reached her block and was about to enter the lift when i saw this fucker with his Box is some musical instrument ah......i dont like that fucker coz he like stay near my house and also wanna act like he big time gangster kinda stuff ah hahahhahahhahah.........aniway the people here dont know whats my past ah and alot of people dont know my past ah hahahahaah so they wana act act infront of me ah eh lim pei si steady eh nang......hahahhhahah go figure out wat dats means......aniway i was expecting him to go to Huda house also ah and in turn out to be Correct ah....ok so i like paiseh and also like siak ah haven go to ppl house i got enemy already ah hahahahhaha so i like called her ask her to come out and meet mi ah dan after dat i just pass her the present but she told me she dont want to come out coz she was like wearing this whole pinkie retro suit which was kool ah......so i had no choice but to go to the house ah dan the 1st person i saw was the Fucker ah staring at me up and down ah i dont bother ah dan Huda invited mi in to the house ah but i didnt want to ah coz i was actualli also rushing for time ah dan she called her Mom, her two sister and the grandMa seh to the door and ask mi to go in ah hahahahhaah wah lau paiseh ah to the max ah coz like macam like star karat ah wah lau further more they were like calling me names ah like nenek punyer sayang ah and also Budak Starhub ah kinda stuff ah i was like realli embarassed ah coz is like is onli a few times that i know them thats all. Ok dan when i went in the MOm was like introducing me to everyone like "Hello everybody he is Khairudin!" Huh! Khairudin my face was stunned ah dan Huda told her Mom dat my name is not Khairudin ah ahhahahahahh wah lau wat an entrance ah ahhahaha macam like some big star kind thingy ah. Ok so i sat there and took a few photos with the Bday girl, other than dat i didnt talk much to guys at my table cause they like quite "Matish" ah hahahahaah with all the kau awak kinda stuff and the Tapered Jeans like Whoa....not my circle of friend kinda stuff......Ok and also the wierdest thing is that i get a gift for coming to her House like whoa what the hell seh.......ani way yah after i ate some stuff dranks some water and also eat some Ice cream i made my move ah heheheheeh ok it was a fast and hasty one ah coz i was like realli in a rush ah dan i left the place ah without much of a commotion ah. Ani way i dunno ah i think she kinda have feelings for me or maybe is just a close friend thingy i dunno coz like i am the only guy that she cared for amoung all the guys ah ahhahahahaha ok and also like yah when comes to photo taking she is beside me ah hmmmmm i dunno y ah but ani way yah she even called mi in the evening after like everyone left her house so i dunno what dat means ah but aniway yah i will go with the flow ah and see how things work out.
Ok after that went to meet Muhsin Hannah and Waikit at Kenbagan MRT station.It was one of the crankiest way of conducting a Discussion. we were all at the staircase sitting down while i was on the floor facing them and with people walking past us looking at us while we were having our discussion. It is weird ah but i like the idea coz i am sick and tired of having meetings in the Office Office and like yah in the air con ah a new environment is more interesting ah and also it makes the whole discussion less formal.
And after that i had to rush down to Little India for Jamming with XyX. Ok i knew it was a short set ah coz my beloved Seelan came Late but yah it was realli a tiring one for mi coz is like we went thru the songs like 3 times back to back non stop. So it was training non stop ah coz we had like onli 30 mins to realli jam ah coz Seelan came late. So after that we hang out at the Coffeeshop and chill out for a while. We were discussing about plan for XyX and like yah the milestone was our recording which will be on the 14 of May and the 1st XyX gig with the new lineup ah at JB hahahahahha kool man.....cant wait to perform ah. Yah dan after that walk from there to Haji Lane and Lepak at Basement Record. Ok i know maybe some people may not like mi may not see eye to eye with me but never mind is ok. i Dont give a freaking shit about what u wanna think of me ah base on what some idiots whom u think is ur Best friend but actualli a Knife who stabs ur Back. ani way yah chill at basement and listen to some Old skool tracks and even bought 2 cds for myself. Ok the bad thing about hanging at Basement is coz if i go there, i will surely use up alll my money to buy the Cds lor. Haiz realli ah cannot take it ah.....ok dan after that slack till like about 10 like dat i made a move with Seelan and had some great session with Seelan about the whole scen of Hardcore and about us and the people.
ok so on the way back home from the MRt station to the interchange, Huda Called mi ah and we talk ah. as i metioned above it was like the friends all just left ah and like the family members are all clearing up the mess ah while she was on the phone with me. Ani way yah we talk about the Cousin who was the fucker i dont like at her place ah hmmmmm wat a small world ah. Aniway i was walking home dan sat under the block and talk to her ah. Dan she needed to do other work so we hung up dan i called Ilhan my secondary skool friend ah who has been msging me ah but i never reply ah coz i was on the phone with HUda. He was asking mi to lepak ah so i was like asking him to come over to my place here under the block ah. Ok so i went up to my house go and collect his Cds and pass it to him ah. Dan after that we sat down and talk again and catch up with what we left ah for like 3 or 4 years ah since we last contact ah. we also discuss about plans about forming a band and like he was also pasing remarks about me Semagat in the Hardcore scene and also the type of hardcore songs nowadays are like rubbish and crappy. hmmmm ani way now i feel that the hardcore scene esp the mainstream one that he is listening is getting lamer ah so i am trying to bring him to the DIY old skool scene back ah coz thats wat he is into. Yah hmmmm and if the plans work out, i can make us of my Bass again ahhahahaha coz it has been hung there untouched since I switch to Voc.....ok it was great ah going thru the memories we had together ah.............
ok ani way i haven got wat i wanted yet ah later maybe tmr i will get it i dunno ah ok lah i need to sleep already ah take care good night sleep tight sweet dreams.........
it was abit agitating cause it seems like i am the only one who is clearing up the house from vacumming the house to cleaning the fans and the Air Con filter and even folding clothes were all done by me. i am like hello i am 21 to be i wanna be more relax and let all these task be done to my younger bros but it does not seem that way.
ani way by the time i finish i had to prepare to go out to Huda Party. Ok i was thinking of whether i should wrapped her present or not ah or just give her like that. hehehehhehe due to my laziness and also lack of creative and also lack of wrapping paper at home, i decided to give her like that ah. Ani way yah it was a pink ROXY wallet.........
Ok while on the way to Huda house i wanted to buy the kueh Lopez for My Godsister who is working nearby Huda house also but i search high and low still cant find so in the end never buy ah but never mind Kakak i will buy for you soon. Ok i reached her block and was about to enter the lift when i saw this fucker with his Box is some musical instrument ah......i dont like that fucker coz he like stay near my house and also wanna act like he big time gangster kinda stuff ah hahahhahahhahah.........aniway the people here dont know whats my past ah and alot of people dont know my past ah hahahahaah so they wana act act infront of me ah eh lim pei si steady eh nang......hahahhhahah go figure out wat dats means......aniway i was expecting him to go to Huda house also ah and in turn out to be Correct ah....ok so i like paiseh and also like siak ah haven go to ppl house i got enemy already ah hahahahhaha so i like called her ask her to come out and meet mi ah dan after dat i just pass her the present but she told me she dont want to come out coz she was like wearing this whole pinkie retro suit which was kool ah......so i had no choice but to go to the house ah dan the 1st person i saw was the Fucker ah staring at me up and down ah i dont bother ah dan Huda invited mi in to the house ah but i didnt want to ah coz i was actualli also rushing for time ah dan she called her Mom, her two sister and the grandMa seh to the door and ask mi to go in ah hahahahhaah wah lau paiseh ah to the max ah coz like macam like star karat ah wah lau further more they were like calling me names ah like nenek punyer sayang ah and also Budak Starhub ah kinda stuff ah i was like realli embarassed ah coz is like is onli a few times that i know them thats all. Ok dan when i went in the MOm was like introducing me to everyone like "Hello everybody he is Khairudin!" Huh! Khairudin my face was stunned ah dan Huda told her Mom dat my name is not Khairudin ah ahhahahahahh wah lau wat an entrance ah ahhahaha macam like some big star kind thingy ah. Ok so i sat there and took a few photos with the Bday girl, other than dat i didnt talk much to guys at my table cause they like quite "Matish" ah hahahahaah with all the kau awak kinda stuff and the Tapered Jeans like Whoa....not my circle of friend kinda stuff......Ok and also the wierdest thing is that i get a gift for coming to her House like whoa what the hell seh.......ani way yah after i ate some stuff dranks some water and also eat some Ice cream i made my move ah heheheheeh ok it was a fast and hasty one ah coz i was like realli in a rush ah dan i left the place ah without much of a commotion ah. Ani way i dunno ah i think she kinda have feelings for me or maybe is just a close friend thingy i dunno coz like i am the only guy that she cared for amoung all the guys ah ahhahahahaha ok and also like yah when comes to photo taking she is beside me ah hmmmmm i dunno y ah but ani way yah she even called mi in the evening after like everyone left her house so i dunno what dat means ah but aniway yah i will go with the flow ah and see how things work out.
Ok after that went to meet Muhsin Hannah and Waikit at Kenbagan MRT station.It was one of the crankiest way of conducting a Discussion. we were all at the staircase sitting down while i was on the floor facing them and with people walking past us looking at us while we were having our discussion. It is weird ah but i like the idea coz i am sick and tired of having meetings in the Office Office and like yah in the air con ah a new environment is more interesting ah and also it makes the whole discussion less formal.
And after that i had to rush down to Little India for Jamming with XyX. Ok i knew it was a short set ah coz my beloved Seelan came Late but yah it was realli a tiring one for mi coz is like we went thru the songs like 3 times back to back non stop. So it was training non stop ah coz we had like onli 30 mins to realli jam ah coz Seelan came late. So after that we hang out at the Coffeeshop and chill out for a while. We were discussing about plan for XyX and like yah the milestone was our recording which will be on the 14 of May and the 1st XyX gig with the new lineup ah at JB hahahahahha kool man.....cant wait to perform ah. Yah dan after that walk from there to Haji Lane and Lepak at Basement Record. Ok i know maybe some people may not like mi may not see eye to eye with me but never mind is ok. i Dont give a freaking shit about what u wanna think of me ah base on what some idiots whom u think is ur Best friend but actualli a Knife who stabs ur Back. ani way yah chill at basement and listen to some Old skool tracks and even bought 2 cds for myself. Ok the bad thing about hanging at Basement is coz if i go there, i will surely use up alll my money to buy the Cds lor. Haiz realli ah cannot take it ah.....ok dan after that slack till like about 10 like dat i made a move with Seelan and had some great session with Seelan about the whole scen of Hardcore and about us and the people.
ok so on the way back home from the MRt station to the interchange, Huda Called mi ah and we talk ah. as i metioned above it was like the friends all just left ah and like the family members are all clearing up the mess ah while she was on the phone with me. Ani way yah we talk about the Cousin who was the fucker i dont like at her place ah hmmmmm wat a small world ah. Aniway i was walking home dan sat under the block and talk to her ah. Dan she needed to do other work so we hung up dan i called Ilhan my secondary skool friend ah who has been msging me ah but i never reply ah coz i was on the phone with HUda. He was asking mi to lepak ah so i was like asking him to come over to my place here under the block ah. Ok so i went up to my house go and collect his Cds and pass it to him ah. Dan after that we sat down and talk again and catch up with what we left ah for like 3 or 4 years ah since we last contact ah. we also discuss about plans about forming a band and like he was also pasing remarks about me Semagat in the Hardcore scene and also the type of hardcore songs nowadays are like rubbish and crappy. hmmmm ani way now i feel that the hardcore scene esp the mainstream one that he is listening is getting lamer ah so i am trying to bring him to the DIY old skool scene back ah coz thats wat he is into. Yah hmmmm and if the plans work out, i can make us of my Bass again ahhahahaha coz it has been hung there untouched since I switch to Voc.....ok it was great ah going thru the memories we had together ah.............
ok ani way i haven got wat i wanted yet ah later maybe tmr i will get it i dunno ah ok lah i need to sleep already ah take care good night sleep tight sweet dreams.........
Saturday, April 23, 2005
smooth sailing
today at work was smooth sailing for mi
ani way today is three of my friends birthday
hahaahaha eh wait is two the other one is extra
ani way today is three of my friends birthday
hahaahaha eh wait is two the other one is extra
NAZMI happy 21st Bday may u be more EMO
AZRIAN happy 21st Also may your EYES be bigger hahhahahahahha
HUDA Happy 17th Bday may all ur dreams come true
AZRIAN happy 21st Also may your EYES be bigger hahhahahahahha
HUDA Happy 17th Bday may all ur dreams come true
Friday, April 22, 2005
...................................
today went back to work met lots of FUCKKED up Customers.......
from fussy to choosy to act as if they are rich and smart customers u name it i got it....
but dats not the whole point.
the whole point is i have been seeing couples everywhere, everyone is so happy being a couple be it Lesbians, Gays, normal couples. everyone is so happy but how bout it, what happen to my relationship? what happen is it my fault that i destroyed my happines is it my fault that i broke up with her is this my fault for knowing her is it my fault to let this befall me, i really dunno i am lost i am sad i am lonely i am crying in my heart again but what can i do what should i fo go back to her forget about her which i cant find another girl which i dont one i really dont know.
furthermore the date is coming closer is like 5 more days to my 3rd month anniversay of knowing her the day where i fall deeply into her......the day where i find her the only most memorable gem i have ever found, the only beautiful flower amoung the garden but what am i to her just another bee taking nectar from her......
argh.......shit it
i am emotionally unstable, weak, deprive of attention, deprive of crankiness........i want to be cranky crappy so i can forget about my past but i dont have much opportunity, argh............
this is the purest of pain
i cant even hide i cant even smile cant even be happy from the bottom of my heart...............haiz
kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai
from fussy to choosy to act as if they are rich and smart customers u name it i got it....
but dats not the whole point.
the whole point is i have been seeing couples everywhere, everyone is so happy being a couple be it Lesbians, Gays, normal couples. everyone is so happy but how bout it, what happen to my relationship? what happen is it my fault that i destroyed my happines is it my fault that i broke up with her is this my fault for knowing her is it my fault to let this befall me, i really dunno i am lost i am sad i am lonely i am crying in my heart again but what can i do what should i fo go back to her forget about her which i cant find another girl which i dont one i really dont know.
furthermore the date is coming closer is like 5 more days to my 3rd month anniversay of knowing her the day where i fall deeply into her......the day where i find her the only most memorable gem i have ever found, the only beautiful flower amoung the garden but what am i to her just another bee taking nectar from her......
argh.......shit it
i am emotionally unstable, weak, deprive of attention, deprive of crankiness........i want to be cranky crappy so i can forget about my past but i dont have much opportunity, argh............
this is the purest of pain
i cant even hide i cant even smile cant even be happy from the bottom of my heart...............haiz
kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai kai
Thursday, April 21, 2005
EnterTaineR
ok my friends
i am borned to entertain people, for the past two days i have been making people happy cheerful chirpy and also making a difference in thier life. I feel satisfied and happy that all my friends and people around me are happy and trouble free. I want to be an entertainer, be it a drama actor, a comedian, a stuntman, an extra, an Emcee, dancer, radio deejay, clown, victim of laughter and many more.
but me entertain than who is going to entertain me. i have friends, they entertain me but who is going to entertain the inner soul of mine? Like a clown happy on the outside but sad in the inside....who sees it, who feels it, i cant always rely my friends cause they have thier own problems too, i can rely on my parents they are too old for this, where can i go, haiz...........when i had a GF i tot all would be better but ever since i broke up with her i feel the world is really crumbling down on me. From money, friendship, work, feelings i am no more the strong kai that i use to be i am no more the heartless person who dont have feelings ani more i am no more the person that i use to be.
kai wats wrong with you is time to move on easy said than done but i still have feelings for someone i really love so bad that i want her to be by myside now . i want her back i need her............arghhhhhhhhh kai
i am borned to entertain people, for the past two days i have been making people happy cheerful chirpy and also making a difference in thier life. I feel satisfied and happy that all my friends and people around me are happy and trouble free. I want to be an entertainer, be it a drama actor, a comedian, a stuntman, an extra, an Emcee, dancer, radio deejay, clown, victim of laughter and many more.
but me entertain than who is going to entertain me. i have friends, they entertain me but who is going to entertain the inner soul of mine? Like a clown happy on the outside but sad in the inside....who sees it, who feels it, i cant always rely my friends cause they have thier own problems too, i can rely on my parents they are too old for this, where can i go, haiz...........when i had a GF i tot all would be better but ever since i broke up with her i feel the world is really crumbling down on me. From money, friendship, work, feelings i am no more the strong kai that i use to be i am no more the heartless person who dont have feelings ani more i am no more the person that i use to be.
kai wats wrong with you is time to move on easy said than done but i still have feelings for someone i really love so bad that i want her to be by myside now . i want her back i need her............arghhhhhhhhh kai
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
LovE
Love is such a beautiful thing rite my friends
but have you ever wondered what is love
is love about being happy
is love about being sad
is love about making Sacrifaces
is love about SEX
is love about accompanying each other
is love about feeling each other
is love about understanding each other
is love about being more than a friend
is love about loving someone due to the looks
is love about loving someone due to the inner self
is love about making the person special
is love about spending years and months together and seperate at the end
is love about expressing to the other person
is love about giving gifts to the special someone
is love about losing someone
is love about fighting
is love about dominance
is love about ego
is love about everything
but have you ever wondered what is love
is love about being happy
is love about being sad
is love about making Sacrifaces
is love about SEX
is love about accompanying each other
is love about feeling each other
is love about understanding each other
is love about being more than a friend
is love about loving someone due to the looks
is love about loving someone due to the inner self
is love about making the person special
is love about spending years and months together and seperate at the end
is love about expressing to the other person
is love about giving gifts to the special someone
is love about losing someone
is love about fighting
is love about dominance
is love about ego
is love about everything
ok some of the above mentioned questions are crap to you but what the hell does it bother you cause this is what i feel unless u can give me an explanation than do feel free....
hmmmm how did i derive from the amout of $1,326
ok today was D day for DnD Committee members on how to pay the $13K to be exact and we brought in lawrenz to make his stand and clear of our doubts that some of the committee had in thier minds. After he had his say and indirectly pointed who was at fault, the whole committee was ok for the raise as much money till $6000 idea....but after i hearing from people taking sides of lawrenz and saying he is a nice man or previously brought up the idea of paying the full amount back to lawrenz, these people only paid like $450 only which is like What the hell after talking so much about raising the whole amount and there u are not willing to fork out the money.
Ok i was given the task to write the black and white. Dam it i am like so stupid in writing, i did the task was a total mediocre. Furthermore with MR telling me what needs to be in like hello he is from Law Management so i decided to throw it to him and ask him to prepare it instead of me.
Ok each one of them stated the amount of money that they decided to pay it was from a range of $100 to $450 that was amoung the committee members. As for me i intially wanted to pay only $500 and Grace My ever lovely Grace wanted to pay $3000 which was wah lau lor.......i dont understand at all.....than MR decided to lower the amount to $1000. MR macam like talk as if he is going to pay the full amount dont even know how much he can pay so hmmmmmm that shows he talk without thinking and when questioned on how long he can raise the amount of money he was telling me 2 years or more like what the hell lor.........maybe if at least 1 year still not so bad haiz.......that shows the true nature of idiocy. Any way when i saw Grace forking out $3000 at that time i felt that i am also guilty cause most of the planning was done all by herself while i was like doing nothing most of the time lor....so i had no choice but to up it to $1000 but than after calculating the whole amount that the committee decided to pay, it was like a $1100 more to like $6000 so what i did was the amount $1100 was divided into MR, Grace and me. Therefore the whole amount of money now stands at $1,326.
Ok i was given the task to write the black and white. Dam it i am like so stupid in writing, i did the task was a total mediocre. Furthermore with MR telling me what needs to be in like hello he is from Law Management so i decided to throw it to him and ask him to prepare it instead of me.
Ok each one of them stated the amount of money that they decided to pay it was from a range of $100 to $450 that was amoung the committee members. As for me i intially wanted to pay only $500 and Grace My ever lovely Grace wanted to pay $3000 which was wah lau lor.......i dont understand at all.....than MR decided to lower the amount to $1000. MR macam like talk as if he is going to pay the full amount dont even know how much he can pay so hmmmmmm that shows he talk without thinking and when questioned on how long he can raise the amount of money he was telling me 2 years or more like what the hell lor.........maybe if at least 1 year still not so bad haiz.......that shows the true nature of idiocy. Any way when i saw Grace forking out $3000 at that time i felt that i am also guilty cause most of the planning was done all by herself while i was like doing nothing most of the time lor....so i had no choice but to up it to $1000 but than after calculating the whole amount that the committee decided to pay, it was like a $1100 more to like $6000 so what i did was the amount $1100 was divided into MR, Grace and me. Therefore the whole amount of money now stands at $1,326.
Plans on how to pay the $1,326
The salary of my pay will be divided half. $400 will go to the DnD while the other half will be for my own expenditure.
This will tak around 3 or 4 months thus is much better that way rather than paying it within a long stretch of 1 year which is very taxing.
After the meeting, had program meeting. Hahahahah by the time i came out, the whole program meeting ended already so i was like what the hell lor......and everybody was slacking and i saw Saf like abit sad by his broke up. And also Phyllis also never come so it was like very ill discipline and also very demoralising. Furthermore with most of the sub comms having jobs commitment.
After that meet up with Grace, Lydia, MR, Alvin, Kai, Jenna opposite school. I was with Pam and i knew that she will be a victim of gossip between she and Kai Sheng hahahahahahah ani way i also join in the fun and disturb them also lor........after the makan session we took 23 to Tamp Central Jenna, Kai Sheng and Alvin Parted with us while the rest went to MRT station. Ok at that time i seriusly dunno what to do coz like Funkafellaz jamming and also yah i got no where to go so i just folllowed them aimlessly. Actualli wanted to go down to basement record and hang out but like what for no point also ah so i decided to continue my trip down to city hall. Once reach city hall, i made my decision by going back to Yishun and go and take my MC coz like today i keng from work. So reach Yishun, went to the clinic and i went straight into the consultation room i told the doctor that i need MC for today cause i had Diahorrea hahahahahah and the doctor was like ok let me check and like yah he say ok how many days u want so i told him 2 days ah .........hahahahhaha actualli tmr is my OFF day so i no need to take ah but just in case ah if they the company ask me to work. AFter that went to bugis and meet up with Ahmad, Yana, Yan. Naz and Muhsin. had dinner together and after that went shopping. Ok i bought Huda a Birthday present for this Sat. I am wondering y i spent like 30 bucks on some one whom i just got to know recently. i feel weird but ani way i think she is the other side of me the female version of kai i guess hyper active talkative and also entertaining hahahaahahah ok ani way today after shopping took few shots at suntec city and also hang out there.......woah the pics are perfect ah but ani way dont worry once the pics are up i will upload for u guys to see.
Aniway today has been a very tiring day for me casue today i went bezer. it had been a very long time that i acted this way and also like i was really entertaining my friends which i see pleasure in doing it.....aniway people say i am getting fatter hmmmmm.....yes my weight is already like 95kg just waiting to hit 100kg dan i am like power heavy hahhahahahah and also wah lau i got a new burden. to pay the handphone bill of mine and my mom one while my bro pay his own. i am like what the hell now another one more burden is this the result of turning 21 haiz maybe yes maybe no but now i am wondering now the Hp bills i will be settling how am i going to spent my salary?
Things need to buy
The salary of my pay will be divided half. $400 will go to the DnD while the other half will be for my own expenditure.
This will tak around 3 or 4 months thus is much better that way rather than paying it within a long stretch of 1 year which is very taxing.
After the meeting, had program meeting. Hahahahah by the time i came out, the whole program meeting ended already so i was like what the hell lor......and everybody was slacking and i saw Saf like abit sad by his broke up. And also Phyllis also never come so it was like very ill discipline and also very demoralising. Furthermore with most of the sub comms having jobs commitment.
After that meet up with Grace, Lydia, MR, Alvin, Kai, Jenna opposite school. I was with Pam and i knew that she will be a victim of gossip between she and Kai Sheng hahahahahahah ani way i also join in the fun and disturb them also lor........after the makan session we took 23 to Tamp Central Jenna, Kai Sheng and Alvin Parted with us while the rest went to MRT station. Ok at that time i seriusly dunno what to do coz like Funkafellaz jamming and also yah i got no where to go so i just folllowed them aimlessly. Actualli wanted to go down to basement record and hang out but like what for no point also ah so i decided to continue my trip down to city hall. Once reach city hall, i made my decision by going back to Yishun and go and take my MC coz like today i keng from work. So reach Yishun, went to the clinic and i went straight into the consultation room i told the doctor that i need MC for today cause i had Diahorrea hahahahahah and the doctor was like ok let me check and like yah he say ok how many days u want so i told him 2 days ah .........hahahahhaha actualli tmr is my OFF day so i no need to take ah but just in case ah if they the company ask me to work. AFter that went to bugis and meet up with Ahmad, Yana, Yan. Naz and Muhsin. had dinner together and after that went shopping. Ok i bought Huda a Birthday present for this Sat. I am wondering y i spent like 30 bucks on some one whom i just got to know recently. i feel weird but ani way i think she is the other side of me the female version of kai i guess hyper active talkative and also entertaining hahahaahahah ok ani way today after shopping took few shots at suntec city and also hang out there.......woah the pics are perfect ah but ani way dont worry once the pics are up i will upload for u guys to see.
Aniway today has been a very tiring day for me casue today i went bezer. it had been a very long time that i acted this way and also like i was really entertaining my friends which i see pleasure in doing it.....aniway people say i am getting fatter hmmmmm.....yes my weight is already like 95kg just waiting to hit 100kg dan i am like power heavy hahhahahahah and also wah lau i got a new burden. to pay the handphone bill of mine and my mom one while my bro pay his own. i am like what the hell now another one more burden is this the result of turning 21 haiz maybe yes maybe no but now i am wondering now the Hp bills i will be settling how am i going to spent my salary?
Things need to buy
- Skate shoe
- Fashionable Tees
- Jeans
- PC (since how freaking long already)
- Hp housing
- Hxc CDs
- Hxc Tees
- Recording for XyX
- Hxc Patches
- Bass Guitar Bag
Monday, April 18, 2005
today today today
ok today wat happen.......
went to work......
had lunch with HUDA.....hehehehhe
she is a very chirpy and laughable person realli great......
dan after dat work again.......
dan my Collegue wah lau cannot tahan her.......
dam naggy and also ah no customer service oriented
cant stand the way she talk to customers
cant stand the way when people ask her she bluff her way
a singaporean act Malaysian wannabe
ani way yes....huda is special though i dont realli like her mole on her face....
she is totallly Great......
her smile and her laughter is very contagious......
ani way yesterday i was with her on the phone with her for like from 12.30 till like 4 siak
Woah........and is like non stop got lots of stuff to talk about ah
ani way yah but it seems we have alots in common ah......
hmmmmm can she be the one or not stay tune to find out more on the chronicles of
kai and huda
and two biggest shock was that my younger bro came back from work with braided hair
and also my bro use to chase Huda younger sister hahahahahaahah
wat a small freaking Freaking Freak worLd.......
ok ciao CiAo
Take Care ByeZZ...
went to work......
had lunch with HUDA.....hehehehhe
she is a very chirpy and laughable person realli great......
dan after dat work again.......
dan my Collegue wah lau cannot tahan her.......
dam naggy and also ah no customer service oriented
cant stand the way she talk to customers
cant stand the way when people ask her she bluff her way
a singaporean act Malaysian wannabe
ani way yes....huda is special though i dont realli like her mole on her face....
she is totallly Great......
her smile and her laughter is very contagious......
ani way yesterday i was with her on the phone with her for like from 12.30 till like 4 siak
Woah........and is like non stop got lots of stuff to talk about ah
ani way yah but it seems we have alots in common ah......
hmmmmm can she be the one or not stay tune to find out more on the chronicles of
kai and huda
and two biggest shock was that my younger bro came back from work with braided hair
and also my bro use to chase Huda younger sister hahahahahaahah
wat a small freaking Freaking Freak worLd.......
ok ciao CiAo
Take Care ByeZZ...
Saturday, April 16, 2005
XAnimal Of TodayX
ok during the Animal Lovers League we dicuss on the design had a fruitful ideas here and ther but could not finish it cause our designer Hannah has to rush back home......
ani way after Hannah Left Waikit, muhsin and i discuss furthermore and we came out with some great lines or slogans if u call them like, Are we to be blame, Animal of today (currently our favourite), price of loyalty, and many more ah all with muhsin ah the titles and after dat we slack at the lounge till night dan went back home lor.......so dats the second part of today but ani way today i can realli see alot of different characters of people ah
From ppl calling others not responsible when one is neither at all responsible
Happy Fun loving people
Creative people
understanding people
sympathy people
and i dunno ah......
ani way tmr working so have to sleep early CiaO....take CareZZZZZ
ani way after Hannah Left Waikit, muhsin and i discuss furthermore and we came out with some great lines or slogans if u call them like, Are we to be blame, Animal of today (currently our favourite), price of loyalty, and many more ah all with muhsin ah the titles and after dat we slack at the lounge till night dan went back home lor.......so dats the second part of today but ani way today i can realli see alot of different characters of people ah
From ppl calling others not responsible when one is neither at all responsible
Happy Fun loving people
Creative people
understanding people
sympathy people
and i dunno ah......
ani way tmr working so have to sleep early CiaO....take CareZZZZZ
wat a pack of bullshit
ok today is the decision day where the whole DND committee comes with a decision on how are we going to pay the 12 thousand Dollars.......
everyone had strong points and stated reality all except for one who thinks he is super cool by putting his leg up on the tabe while having a meeting, who thinks his english is extraordinary good who thinks he is a responsible person dan so be it..........
i hated his speech it makes it sound that we are not working and not responsible for our job......like hello we have many responsiblities to handle is just dat we priotize them not like u ass......
first u dont study u act kool during meetings ppl assign task to u to work on it u dont do it.......hello frankly speaking ur the fre loader of TPSU......maybe he is trying to act hero infront of Lydia and grace i dunno maybe he is trying to act sympathy for lawrenz i also dunno i fucking dont give a shit about ur motive at all onli god knows........so please is like a teapot calling kettle black look at urself ah dont talk about responsibility to me when i think my responsibilities are much more greater than urs and i dont run away from it but find a solution to it not just condemming ppl and walk away from life u loser.........
haiz....ani way just now after the DnD Meeting wen for The FOC mini bonding session hahahha i think it was great....all the games dat i triend and tested had great effects KUDOS kai.......and also i think i miss my weird and crazy hype up me coz i have been realli freaking bored and have no proper avenue to release it but ani way now after the games slack for a while and now i am waiting for Hannah and muhsin to come and dan we discuss our plans for awaresness for the animal league.....i am very curious and excitied about it ah........
ok so here i am waiting for them to come and also blogging....ok see ya guys ciao Bye BYe.......
everyone had strong points and stated reality all except for one who thinks he is super cool by putting his leg up on the tabe while having a meeting, who thinks his english is extraordinary good who thinks he is a responsible person dan so be it..........
i hated his speech it makes it sound that we are not working and not responsible for our job......like hello we have many responsiblities to handle is just dat we priotize them not like u ass......
first u dont study u act kool during meetings ppl assign task to u to work on it u dont do it.......hello frankly speaking ur the fre loader of TPSU......maybe he is trying to act hero infront of Lydia and grace i dunno maybe he is trying to act sympathy for lawrenz i also dunno i fucking dont give a shit about ur motive at all onli god knows........so please is like a teapot calling kettle black look at urself ah dont talk about responsibility to me when i think my responsibilities are much more greater than urs and i dont run away from it but find a solution to it not just condemming ppl and walk away from life u loser.........
haiz....ani way just now after the DnD Meeting wen for The FOC mini bonding session hahahha i think it was great....all the games dat i triend and tested had great effects KUDOS kai.......and also i think i miss my weird and crazy hype up me coz i have been realli freaking bored and have no proper avenue to release it but ani way now after the games slack for a while and now i am waiting for Hannah and muhsin to come and dan we discuss our plans for awaresness for the animal league.....i am very curious and excitied about it ah........
ok so here i am waiting for them to come and also blogging....ok see ya guys ciao Bye BYe.......
shocking relaxing frustrated working day
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Friday, April 15, 2005
a happening and tiring day
today woke up around at 10.00am dan bathe wah lau coz jason my guitarist msg me stating is push back to 1.30pm dats y i was taking my own sweet time to go and bathe finish.....dan now is the big problem...... i need to clean up the whole house and the time is already 10.45am.....wah lau where can make it on time for jamming at 12.30pm. Some more is not in yishun but at Beach Road there...... wah i sian lor....... More worst is my bro ah woke up so late no need to do any house hold chores he left the house at 11.00am without any sweat lor while i have to vacum the house and mop the whole house wah i si beh sian lor......... Ok Vacum and mop finish, the time was already, 12.30pm already haiz.....i am very late for the jamming lor.Ok the good thing was that the jamming studio will only open at 1.00pm so i will be late but not dat late ah......... Ok but due to my blurness i tot the jamming was at Raffles place so i alighted at there dan Haresh Called mi and chase me where am i dan i told him i was at raffles place i can feel his head shaking ah even though we were just talking on the phone lor......wah dan i bo pian actualli dont want to take cab one want to save money ah but in the end from Raffles there take a cab to beach Road. Any way, my new found friend HUDA, hehehehh we have been msging each other......hmmm maybe we can go further maybe not i dunno, ani way yah we jam wah lau dam power ah realli shiok ah jamming with XyX dan after dat slack at beat merchant while waiting for sadaya band to finish jamming........ Reached School, had FOC meeting, as usual suppose to start at 6 but start at 7 dan after dat had a freaking irritating cause the whole committee is like freaking unproductive no ones bring ideas and support it but all rather condem it and bring up ideas that are crap like wat the fuck ah.....dan also the thing is the only people thinking is Me stacie and Me the rest all like wanna just finish it fast as possible....fuck off ah......and for the whole fucking clan of the same clan please ah go fuck off ah wah lau u disgrace my name and the SU name ah....... after dat had a chat with Stacie hhahahaha we are becoming like on and off good friends ah hahahhaah like when we meet we will talk personal stuff ah.......hahhaha ani way stacie dont worry i will not turn up in flowers during ur bowling training k hahahahahah |
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
..........^^^^^^............
ok today hmmmmmm wat happen....
nothing really interesting happen today.........
ok here is the the time line for wat happen just now..........
10.30am Wake up
11.00am Breakfast
Two burgers patties with bread
11.30am Go to work
Please note that work starts at 11.30am
11.35am Took a cab
11.45am Reach work place
"work" work" work" work" work"
2.45pm Seelan brought Vegetarian Home made food
3.00pm Lunch outside KFC with Seelan Homde made Food
while talking we were sharing our tots on infamous people in the scene like you noe who i noe who kinda stuff hahahahahah....
3.30pm Discuss plans for XyX hhehehehehhe maybe going to europe for band tour hahahahah POWER lah DEI ok dats too far fetched but South east asia and ASia will be much more enough.........
4.00pm Seelan and i splited he went to skool NYP while i go back to work....
4.45pm BERAK hahahahah too much Vegetables......
"work" work" work" work" work"
7.45pm Girl came with Sister not very attractive but great personality and i served them......
8.15pm Still serving them.......found out her age and her school
8.45pm Left the shop with her contact number with me cause she did an upgrading and have to pass me the number hahahahahaha
8.46pm Took down her number in my handphone and sms her
8.50pm She called me and talk..............
9.30pm Hang up the phone and sms each other.......and also i left the work place
10.00pm Reached Yishun along the way was with a Babelicious tanned babe with brown top and jeans with brown boots and tanned skin whooooooo hooooooreal hot but stand no chance.....
10.15pm Reached home.........bath
10.30pm Watch TV
11.10pm On PC
Now blogging........
Notice the "work" work" work" work" work" it is = slacking
Ok btw i have to conclude myself that i have a strong liking of girls who are much smarter that me or should i say JC or Pre-U girls hehehehehheheh use to like this girl last time in JC also but now like normal friends......recently like another girl from Jc also but it lasted for a while coz she is chasing another guy......and now this girl hehehehhe also from Jc no BF for quite sometime.
Impression of this new found girl
Name: Huda
School: M I
Attidude: Same personality......very expressive
Background: Know her O levels result she is a 4 distiction kid but cant go to Poly and JC coz fail science
Aspire to be a nurse
In Commerce stream
Single
Stay same block number with me but in woodlands
hehehehehehh ok dats all i noe ah
maybe she is not the one maybe she is the one but y not give it a try but this time have to learn to take it slow
hmmmmm and guess wat she just sms mi good night hahahahah ok have to think of a nice good night poem for her ok guys....ciaoS
nothing really interesting happen today.........
ok here is the the time line for wat happen just now..........
10.30am Wake up
11.00am Breakfast
Two burgers patties with bread
11.30am Go to work
Please note that work starts at 11.30am
11.35am Took a cab
11.45am Reach work place
"work" work" work" work" work"
2.45pm Seelan brought Vegetarian Home made food
3.00pm Lunch outside KFC with Seelan Homde made Food
while talking we were sharing our tots on infamous people in the scene like you noe who i noe who kinda stuff hahahahahah....
3.30pm Discuss plans for XyX hhehehehehhe maybe going to europe for band tour hahahahah POWER lah DEI ok dats too far fetched but South east asia and ASia will be much more enough.........
4.00pm Seelan and i splited he went to skool NYP while i go back to work....
4.45pm BERAK hahahahah too much Vegetables......
"work" work" work" work" work"
7.45pm Girl came with Sister not very attractive but great personality and i served them......
8.15pm Still serving them.......found out her age and her school
8.45pm Left the shop with her contact number with me cause she did an upgrading and have to pass me the number hahahahahaha
8.46pm Took down her number in my handphone and sms her
8.50pm She called me and talk..............
9.30pm Hang up the phone and sms each other.......and also i left the work place
10.00pm Reached Yishun along the way was with a Babelicious tanned babe with brown top and jeans with brown boots and tanned skin whooooooo hooooooreal hot but stand no chance.....
10.15pm Reached home.........bath
10.30pm Watch TV
11.10pm On PC
Now blogging........
Notice the "work" work" work" work" work" it is = slacking
Ok btw i have to conclude myself that i have a strong liking of girls who are much smarter that me or should i say JC or Pre-U girls hehehehehheheh use to like this girl last time in JC also but now like normal friends......recently like another girl from Jc also but it lasted for a while coz she is chasing another guy......and now this girl hehehehhe also from Jc no BF for quite sometime.
Impression of this new found girl
Name: Huda
School: M I
Attidude: Same personality......very expressive
Background: Know her O levels result she is a 4 distiction kid but cant go to Poly and JC coz fail science
Aspire to be a nurse
In Commerce stream
Single
Stay same block number with me but in woodlands
hehehehehehh ok dats all i noe ah
maybe she is not the one maybe she is the one but y not give it a try but this time have to learn to take it slow
hmmmmm and guess wat she just sms mi good night hahahahah ok have to think of a nice good night poem for her ok guys....ciaoS
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
itchy Day
wah lau today bui tahan ah.....
whole day my body dam itchy ah...
is not normal itch where u scratch dan ok already....
but this one is dam sharp prickling itch......
haiz if my itch is somewhere that is scratchable is ok ah but this one
wah lau at my back leh haiz......
duno wats the cause ah....
ever since i came back from the hotel ah
my body start having rash....
at first not so bad but now is worst
hope the worst is over.......
still wondering how come i got this rash
maybe i drink 1 and half bottle of beer and few cups of wine
or is it the sofa i was sleeping on at the girls room
or is stacie whom i was cuddling close while taking photos while we were sober
hahaahahahh
these are the three possibilities ah
but the last one is just pure absurd ah
hahahahah sorry Stacie just kidding ah
ani way if there is a first time there will be a second time ah
hahahahahhahahahaha
ani way another good news is that one of the staff in Tp who attended the DnD dat night said Arun and Me were good comperes and he is introducing us to one of his friends who is working in a events company. Hmmmmm i would love to make that as a freelance job whoa.....just imagine just one night u get pai $1000 Wheeeeeeeee.....hoooooooooo but that comes with a price too........hope i can learn vital techniques triks and tips from the experinced ones........hahahha cant wait to start my traning ah if there is........
ok sorry today got lots of ................ and hahahhahaha
coz today though i am itchy but i am happy ahhaahahah
just now also was working serve this malay customer he was trying his super best to speak english but he was realli struggling til i was laughing at him while he was talking so i decided to stop my prank and speak to him in malay and when he found out i was malay and can speak malay he Cursed me hahahahahahhahahah dam it dam funny..... realli felt like rolling on the floor and laugh super seriously tak boleh angkat babes.............
ok lah hope u guys enjoy urself and remember no matter what happens......no matter how sad are......no matter poor you are the most important thing is SMILE ur on Gods candid Camera and he will take photos of you and see how u react......if the more u smile the more happy the gods become the more rewards u can ahhahahahah wah so religious ah but pray dont want to pray, drink some more and is horny wanker opppppppsssss hehehehehhehheh
ok CiaOs........love ya
whole day my body dam itchy ah...
is not normal itch where u scratch dan ok already....
but this one is dam sharp prickling itch......
haiz if my itch is somewhere that is scratchable is ok ah but this one
wah lau at my back leh haiz......
duno wats the cause ah....
ever since i came back from the hotel ah
my body start having rash....
at first not so bad but now is worst
hope the worst is over.......
still wondering how come i got this rash
maybe i drink 1 and half bottle of beer and few cups of wine
or is it the sofa i was sleeping on at the girls room
or is stacie whom i was cuddling close while taking photos while we were sober
hahaahahahh
these are the three possibilities ah
but the last one is just pure absurd ah
hahahahah sorry Stacie just kidding ah
ani way if there is a first time there will be a second time ah
hahahahahhahahahaha
ani way another good news is that one of the staff in Tp who attended the DnD dat night said Arun and Me were good comperes and he is introducing us to one of his friends who is working in a events company. Hmmmmm i would love to make that as a freelance job whoa.....just imagine just one night u get pai $1000 Wheeeeeeeee.....hoooooooooo but that comes with a price too........hope i can learn vital techniques triks and tips from the experinced ones........hahahha cant wait to start my traning ah if there is........
ok sorry today got lots of ................ and hahahhahaha
coz today though i am itchy but i am happy ahhaahahah
just now also was working serve this malay customer he was trying his super best to speak english but he was realli struggling til i was laughing at him while he was talking so i decided to stop my prank and speak to him in malay and when he found out i was malay and can speak malay he Cursed me hahahahahahhahahah dam it dam funny..... realli felt like rolling on the floor and laugh super seriously tak boleh angkat babes.............
ok lah hope u guys enjoy urself and remember no matter what happens......no matter how sad are......no matter poor you are the most important thing is SMILE ur on Gods candid Camera and he will take photos of you and see how u react......if the more u smile the more happy the gods become the more rewards u can ahhahahahah wah so religious ah but pray dont want to pray, drink some more and is horny wanker opppppppsssss hehehehehhehheh
ok CiaOs........love ya
today
ok reach skool late was around 9.30...my lovely Grace and Jacq and Ming Ren were all waiting for me to arrive than we all go meet Lawrenz.......
ok down to serius buisness.....we got some lecture from him about not cancelling the event when we could make a decision. Ani way i feel as part of a committee of an event you definately want to see it happening from paper to action. So ok Dat was partially our fault but is natural, human instinct. Any way he was asking us whats the real fault and i told him is the attidude of the students, we publicize no matter how much but yet it all boils down to teh student. Secondly, we calculated the whole deficit for DnD....total was 12,000++ yah dats was the whole amount and The Bloody lawrenz ok out of kind hear help us fork out this amount 1st dan subsequently, we have to pay him back. he was expecting us to pay him 12k back to him which is ridculous if we divide it amoung our committe members. Any way the way he phrase it was that way so i was boiling mad and also thinkin of how to loosen the burden and also place the blame on Lawrenz too. And i managed to get my thoughts rite and my words right and i told him that we split the coz btwn him and the organizing committee cause Lawrenz too have a say in this project and so that means he is also part of the committee Therefore he agreed to my point but Grace was against it. I seriusly dont see y there is a need to side him ah maybe is a plot to win his compassion hahahahah i dunno.......Any way this will be discussed on this Sat during the meeting.
After that played pool till like 12pm dan after dat rush to work at BUKIT BATOK. Wah lau took a cab and it took half and hour to reach there...so i took the chance to catch a nap. The next thing i knew, i was at bukit batok already and i was so kan chion gi told the Driver to stop and alighted me though the shop was still a distance hahhaaha Dam kan chiong ah.....
ok reach work place macam like superman in the action......the shop was gathering quite a crowd and i spurred into action and serve the customers......all the way till like 4 like dat which was super fast coz i was always busy with work so i had no impression of the time. Ok work work work till like 10.30 dan left the place and got back home.
Reached home...wah was shiok...i got a DVD Player ahhahahahahah Whhheeee Hooooo now can wtchs DvDs already ahahahhaha power ah ani way now i got nothing to do so i decided to show u the menu of wat i had ate the whole day.......
ok down to serius buisness.....we got some lecture from him about not cancelling the event when we could make a decision. Ani way i feel as part of a committee of an event you definately want to see it happening from paper to action. So ok Dat was partially our fault but is natural, human instinct. Any way he was asking us whats the real fault and i told him is the attidude of the students, we publicize no matter how much but yet it all boils down to teh student. Secondly, we calculated the whole deficit for DnD....total was 12,000++ yah dats was the whole amount and The Bloody lawrenz ok out of kind hear help us fork out this amount 1st dan subsequently, we have to pay him back. he was expecting us to pay him 12k back to him which is ridculous if we divide it amoung our committe members. Any way the way he phrase it was that way so i was boiling mad and also thinkin of how to loosen the burden and also place the blame on Lawrenz too. And i managed to get my thoughts rite and my words right and i told him that we split the coz btwn him and the organizing committee cause Lawrenz too have a say in this project and so that means he is also part of the committee Therefore he agreed to my point but Grace was against it. I seriusly dont see y there is a need to side him ah maybe is a plot to win his compassion hahahahah i dunno.......Any way this will be discussed on this Sat during the meeting.
After that played pool till like 12pm dan after dat rush to work at BUKIT BATOK. Wah lau took a cab and it took half and hour to reach there...so i took the chance to catch a nap. The next thing i knew, i was at bukit batok already and i was so kan chion gi told the Driver to stop and alighted me though the shop was still a distance hahhaaha Dam kan chiong ah.....
ok reach work place macam like superman in the action......the shop was gathering quite a crowd and i spurred into action and serve the customers......all the way till like 4 like dat which was super fast coz i was always busy with work so i had no impression of the time. Ok work work work till like 10.30 dan left the place and got back home.
Reached home...wah was shiok...i got a DVD Player ahhahahahahah Whhheeee Hooooo now can wtchs DvDs already ahahahhaha power ah ani way now i got nothing to do so i decided to show u the menu of wat i had ate the whole day.......
- Breakfast
- None
- Lunch
- Steam Chicken Rice (back to back)
- Nasi Briyani (back to back)
- Cup of Hot Milo
- Tea
- two cups of bubble tea
- Dinner
- Sardines
- Rice x2 Fillings
- Cabbage
Monday, April 11, 2005
tiring working day
today is a working day for me at Admiralty......
things i miss doing today.......
i got a temp job thats flexible work 5 days and off 2 days and get paid 800 bucks every month.
A temp cum Partime Job......hmmmm not bad......
ok today got nothing to write feeling just normal no bad mood not over happy just smooth hahahahahha ok good nite my friends see ya love ya
things i miss doing today.......
- Jamming with XyX
- Jamming with Hannah and Muhsin
- Friends from Funkafellaz
- Msging Emy my X
- Shopping
- Sleeping
- Walking around alone
- My PC though is back dated and slow i still love it......
- Being eccentric
- Jumping around
- Being carefree
- Entertaining People
i got a temp job thats flexible work 5 days and off 2 days and get paid 800 bucks every month.
A temp cum Partime Job......hmmmm not bad......
ok today got nothing to write feeling just normal no bad mood not over happy just smooth hahahahahha ok good nite my friends see ya love ya
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Perfect ending of a perfect story
upon completion of 3 years of my Fucking dilploma...i dont feel satisfied.
Coz is a year where all the fuck up things happen
Coz is a year where all the fuck up things happen
- Breaking up with EMY
- Feeling useless after completion of Diploma
- Treated like shit while during in TPSU
- Family is torn apart
- Kai drank for the first time
- Kai broke down into tears fucking often
- Kai is feeling more women than men
- Kai is fucking fatter
- Kai is one horny jerk who cant get laid
- Kai is one fucking good for nothing talk big but no action fucker
- Kai starts blogging
- Kai dont understand the meaning of Relationship LOVE
- Kai dont feel loved
- Kai is fucking worried about everyone around him but not himself
- Fuck Kai
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
Sorry PeOple never BlogG for The Past Few Days Realli no moooood......
ani way wat a fucking good day to start off right after my Dinner and Dance Night.......
Ok EarLier in The MOrNing after the DnD Finish........realli enjoyed myself with henikien Beers Wine Coffee Club and talking CoRk session at THe ladieS Room.
WOke up relax got a msg asking me to work At GS. Ok i am fine with dat after working basket was told to Work Tmr which is like wat the fuck. Ani way when i was told to work, i was in a stone period coz i am freaking tired no enugh rest dan staright away go to work. Chee Bye Ah Stanley.......Fuck U ah. Ani way i was told by my boss i start work on Monday fucking stanley the supervisor want me to work tmr with the fucking irritating IVy Chee Bye ah..........wah lau told him i cant work he say eh cannot cannot must work ah....KNN ah Dan like want his Fucking backside to be wipe cleaned by mE fuck off ah.....any way tmr i going to take MC ah. I dont give a fucking shit ah.
Also another fucking big prob.....my parents quarrelled, my mom run away and like i after a fucking tiring day have to bear with such nonsense from fucking adults. Chee Bye ah......here i am having rashes over my body, i am like feeling whole body hot......going to have a fever....and there so many fucking bad things happening........The most fucked up thing is my mom tells us wat ever happen to dont run away and there she is contradicting herself.......or should i say that WOMEN are CONTRADICTING...........and wat the fuck of switching on your handphone when people call you dont pick up. Are all the girls like dat......fuck from my Fucking X GF to my own Mother wat the fucking wrong is with Girls.......FUck ah yes i am a dreamer ah with so many probs coming ahead people around me are aslo creating more problems to my life.....should i fucking fuck care them or should i help them while i cant even Fucking help myself now......and to the fucking Lawrenz the amount of money that you are going to fork out for the deficit for DnD i think u can fucking forget about getting it Back ok CB u think wat we are paid to get all this fucking shit up so dat u can get ur pay increase ah and also FuCK you for not even saying a word thank you when i spend the whole night working on your design....Fuck you and ur Fucking ideas fuck all the people who are creating fucking conflicts and problems...........FUck you alll...........
ani way wat a fucking good day to start off right after my Dinner and Dance Night.......
Ok EarLier in The MOrNing after the DnD Finish........realli enjoyed myself with henikien Beers Wine Coffee Club and talking CoRk session at THe ladieS Room.
WOke up relax got a msg asking me to work At GS. Ok i am fine with dat after working basket was told to Work Tmr which is like wat the fuck. Ani way when i was told to work, i was in a stone period coz i am freaking tired no enugh rest dan staright away go to work. Chee Bye Ah Stanley.......Fuck U ah. Ani way i was told by my boss i start work on Monday fucking stanley the supervisor want me to work tmr with the fucking irritating IVy Chee Bye ah..........wah lau told him i cant work he say eh cannot cannot must work ah....KNN ah Dan like want his Fucking backside to be wipe cleaned by mE fuck off ah.....any way tmr i going to take MC ah. I dont give a fucking shit ah.
Also another fucking big prob.....my parents quarrelled, my mom run away and like i after a fucking tiring day have to bear with such nonsense from fucking adults. Chee Bye ah......here i am having rashes over my body, i am like feeling whole body hot......going to have a fever....and there so many fucking bad things happening........The most fucked up thing is my mom tells us wat ever happen to dont run away and there she is contradicting herself.......or should i say that WOMEN are CONTRADICTING...........and wat the fuck of switching on your handphone when people call you dont pick up. Are all the girls like dat......fuck from my Fucking X GF to my own Mother wat the fucking wrong is with Girls.......FUck ah yes i am a dreamer ah with so many probs coming ahead people around me are aslo creating more problems to my life.....should i fucking fuck care them or should i help them while i cant even Fucking help myself now......and to the fucking Lawrenz the amount of money that you are going to fork out for the deficit for DnD i think u can fucking forget about getting it Back ok CB u think wat we are paid to get all this fucking shit up so dat u can get ur pay increase ah and also FuCK you for not even saying a word thank you when i spend the whole night working on your design....Fuck you and ur Fucking ideas fuck all the people who are creating fucking conflicts and problems...........FUck you alll...........
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Wicked TuesdaY
Today is a Meeting Day........
Started off with a brief update of DnD and Pageant to Lawrenz and the neccessary tasks that needs to be done.
Is never good to have Lawrenz around cause it means extra work that needs to be done. Furthermore with DnD having so many Problems i really dont know how to solve it. Any way, after the short session with Lawrenz, we had our TPSU Formal Meeting. Main topic is about nominating who for the CCA awards. I feel that is really ridiculous on nominating someone for the award and yet the nomination form has to be done personally.
After the Freaking short "FORMAL" meeting, went down to for lunch opposite school. I had a sumptions meal. Ate Vegetarian noodle with Vegetables, vegetables and more vegetables hahahahahah ok thats lame. Upon finishing my food, i went for two egg and one kosong prata......woah.....shiok...was really full.
Made our way back to school and took down the DnD Poster. It was scary, cause the other side is a long way down to the ground and if i fall, hahhaahah i will get seriously injured to the max. After completing bringing it down, we went to the lounge and had the next meeting........
FOC Meeting
This is the 2nd meeting for FOC, and program committee which is Me Saf and Phillys are suppose to come out with the camp theme and the Empires and the Sub Empire names. ok the theme of the camp is called Radioactiv.
Actually i prefer Radioactif rather than Radioactiv hmmmmm just got a new idea, RadioXtive. The meaning of theme is to gain a chemical reaction from the Freshies. Every Year, we want the Freshies to have a bond amoung these few people that will be thier Friends for the next 3 years. So in this camp, everyone including the Organizing and Sub committee members have to produce radioactive which is friendliness, care and warm to everyone from the freshies to our work mates and to influence the Freshies to produce it too. Since it is going to be a large scale reaction, we call it Radioactiv.
These are the Names and the sub empire names for the camp. The sub empire names are similar from the Empire names. You figure out yourself whats the similarity.
Reached home, start to work on the cake design but due to modern technology that i am having back home, i cannot design at all so i asked my two friends to help me design. They came out with simple and yet attractive ideas and i have to thank them for the effort they put in. Any way one of them i owe him a Big Bubble Tea while the other is a gig entrance for the upcoming gig and a Tee for her heheheheehh........so it pays to be nice to me hahahahahah any way yah after they designed the simple ones, i tried to edit and modify the designs abit and that took me like till 4 in the morning dan i manage to sleep.
Haiz so that was how my Tuesday was..............
Btw it feels great to lift someone up who is down.........
To all my friends out there, those who stab me before, those whom dont, those whom are closeto me, those whom i use to love, those who dunno me please feel free to let me help you free your mind with some entertainment
by kai the Freaking BuBble CLOWN
Started off with a brief update of DnD and Pageant to Lawrenz and the neccessary tasks that needs to be done.
Is never good to have Lawrenz around cause it means extra work that needs to be done. Furthermore with DnD having so many Problems i really dont know how to solve it. Any way, after the short session with Lawrenz, we had our TPSU Formal Meeting. Main topic is about nominating who for the CCA awards. I feel that is really ridiculous on nominating someone for the award and yet the nomination form has to be done personally.
After the Freaking short "FORMAL" meeting, went down to for lunch opposite school. I had a sumptions meal. Ate Vegetarian noodle with Vegetables, vegetables and more vegetables hahahahahah ok thats lame. Upon finishing my food, i went for two egg and one kosong prata......woah.....shiok...was really full.
Made our way back to school and took down the DnD Poster. It was scary, cause the other side is a long way down to the ground and if i fall, hahhaahah i will get seriously injured to the max. After completing bringing it down, we went to the lounge and had the next meeting........
FOC Meeting
This is the 2nd meeting for FOC, and program committee which is Me Saf and Phillys are suppose to come out with the camp theme and the Empires and the Sub Empire names. ok the theme of the camp is called Radioactiv.
Actually i prefer Radioactif rather than Radioactiv hmmmmm just got a new idea, RadioXtive. The meaning of theme is to gain a chemical reaction from the Freshies. Every Year, we want the Freshies to have a bond amoung these few people that will be thier Friends for the next 3 years. So in this camp, everyone including the Organizing and Sub committee members have to produce radioactive which is friendliness, care and warm to everyone from the freshies to our work mates and to influence the Freshies to produce it too. Since it is going to be a large scale reaction, we call it Radioactiv.
These are the Names and the sub empire names for the camp. The sub empire names are similar from the Empire names. You figure out yourself whats the similarity.
- Radon
- RaZEE
- RaMOO
- RaWOK
- Krypton
- KryON
- KryZY
- KryVO
- Argon
- ArTO
- ArFROW
- ArES
- Neon
- NePY
- NeNO
- NePO
- Xeon
- XeRO
- XeWO
- XeNAK
Reached home, start to work on the cake design but due to modern technology that i am having back home, i cannot design at all so i asked my two friends to help me design. They came out with simple and yet attractive ideas and i have to thank them for the effort they put in. Any way one of them i owe him a Big Bubble Tea while the other is a gig entrance for the upcoming gig and a Tee for her heheheheehh........so it pays to be nice to me hahahahahah any way yah after they designed the simple ones, i tried to edit and modify the designs abit and that took me like till 4 in the morning dan i manage to sleep.
Haiz so that was how my Tuesday was..............
Btw it feels great to lift someone up who is down.........
To all my friends out there, those who stab me before, those whom dont, those whom are closeto me, those whom i use to love, those who dunno me please feel free to let me help you free your mind with some entertainment
by kai the Freaking BuBble CLOWN
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Boring Monday
today awaken by the voices and the banging of my mom
it was only 10.30am and she was screaming at the top of her voice, banging wat ever she could grab.
Had no choice but to wake up and feel frustrated.
wat a day to begin with.
Went to my living room, switched on the TV and i continued my sleep till 11.30.
My mom tot i was watching TV so she did not scream at me.
hahahhahha tactic to bluff my Mom.
Subsequently, went to bathe dan after dat had my lunch cum breakfast
My mom prepared to go to work while i prepare to switch on my PC.
Surf the net check my Emails....dan after that went out to woodlands to get my fathers CPF statement of account.
Frankly speaking today is a seriously boring day, no chicks to chat with, no one to sms with , no chicks to see wah seriously boring.Upon reaching the CPF building, line up for quite long when it was about to reach my turn, i read a notice. it says
W.E.F from 1 december 2004, we will not allow any request of CPF statement account from a 3rd party. Due to privacy of confidentiality of account.
wah kau i was like shit wat the hell........
dan reached my turn, and i ask for assitance for alternative since i cant request on behalf of my Dad. Luckily the guy was helpful and service oriented. Spent some time explaining the procedure to me patiently even though there was a long queue behind me.
Thereafter my Hp sms rang, and it was from my XXGF, which i was shocked for a while dan she send me this msg
if u feel stress
try 2 have SEX
it helps u relax
Do you know how to have SEX?
Let Me tell u?
S = Sleep
E = Eat
X = Exercise
hahahah
dont think dirty
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMH
i am wondering what is she trying to implement.
Those who know me with her should understand.
Those who dunno maybe you might catch some BallZ
After that, went to Causeway point, walk around wanted to check out chicks but to no avail. Maybe my taste have increase, or maybe i am too old, or maybe ppl around me are too young i dunno. AFter dat went back home help my mom do some cooking dan after dat go watch Star wars Episode 1. Watched Half way came back to my pc and started chatting. At around 10, my mom ask me to go meet up with her coz she neeed to get some soil and need my help. after helping her get the soil, i went to the petrol station to pump my back tires. Freak the pump ah...instead of pumping, it releases the air coz the head of the pump is spoilt and in the end my Tires went flat on me. Dam it........so had no choice had to push back to my home. Freaking Frustrated.....dan went back to chat again online till now.....still chatting and typing all these words out......
ani way kai
it was only 10.30am and she was screaming at the top of her voice, banging wat ever she could grab.
Had no choice but to wake up and feel frustrated.
wat a day to begin with.
Went to my living room, switched on the TV and i continued my sleep till 11.30.
My mom tot i was watching TV so she did not scream at me.
hahahhahha tactic to bluff my Mom.
Subsequently, went to bathe dan after dat had my lunch cum breakfast
My mom prepared to go to work while i prepare to switch on my PC.
Surf the net check my Emails....dan after that went out to woodlands to get my fathers CPF statement of account.
Frankly speaking today is a seriously boring day, no chicks to chat with, no one to sms with , no chicks to see wah seriously boring.Upon reaching the CPF building, line up for quite long when it was about to reach my turn, i read a notice. it says
W.E.F from 1 december 2004, we will not allow any request of CPF statement account from a 3rd party. Due to privacy of confidentiality of account.
wah kau i was like shit wat the hell........
dan reached my turn, and i ask for assitance for alternative since i cant request on behalf of my Dad. Luckily the guy was helpful and service oriented. Spent some time explaining the procedure to me patiently even though there was a long queue behind me.
Thereafter my Hp sms rang, and it was from my XXGF, which i was shocked for a while dan she send me this msg
if u feel stress
try 2 have SEX
it helps u relax
Do you know how to have SEX?
Let Me tell u?
S = Sleep
E = Eat
X = Exercise
hahahah
dont think dirty
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMH
i am wondering what is she trying to implement.
Those who know me with her should understand.
Those who dunno maybe you might catch some BallZ
After that, went to Causeway point, walk around wanted to check out chicks but to no avail. Maybe my taste have increase, or maybe i am too old, or maybe ppl around me are too young i dunno. AFter dat went back home help my mom do some cooking dan after dat go watch Star wars Episode 1. Watched Half way came back to my pc and started chatting. At around 10, my mom ask me to go meet up with her coz she neeed to get some soil and need my help. after helping her get the soil, i went to the petrol station to pump my back tires. Freak the pump ah...instead of pumping, it releases the air coz the head of the pump is spoilt and in the end my Tires went flat on me. Dam it........so had no choice had to push back to my home. Freaking Frustrated.....dan went back to chat again online till now.....still chatting and typing all these words out......
ani way kai
HAPPY 4th DAY BLOGGING ANNIVERSARY
Monday, April 04, 2005
something to share maybe u can use
My Love poem for my XGF
hahahahaha is all over now................. ok so here is another one for my XGf
Ok ppl these are alll originals ok. No copy cat, no forwarded stuff which i sometimes find it irritating when is too common. hahhaahahhah ok ppl thanks for reading ah.
wah ok babe wah sudah tak sedih lagi
ur smile so enchanting it makes mi weak
accompanied by those little dimples cute indeed
the eyes i see are sparkling neat
and warm my heart when we always meet
the way u move the style u make
when ur tickle the chuckle sound so great
when u hug me i feel so first rate
how i wish ur beside mi everyday
the touch ur skin feels smooth
the smell of ur hair is so groove
the kisses we made the saliva we shared
all of them taste all perfect
the pillow u had the one i smelled
hehheeh smells great with all ur saliva on it
the glares u make to mi on the trains
luckily i am ur bf or i will get ur name
baby ur the only love in my heart compound
i will cherish each and every moment that i have found
every thing of u is quite perfect
thank god i have found that gift of god sent
the eyes i see are sparkling neat
and warm my heart when we always meet
the way u move the style u make
when ur tickle the chuckle sound so great
when u hug me i feel so first rate
how i wish ur beside mi everyday
the touch ur skin feels smooth
the smell of ur hair is so groove
the kisses we made the saliva we shared
all of them taste all perfect
the pillow u had the one i smelled
hehheeh smells great with all ur saliva on it
the glares u make to mi on the trains
luckily i am ur bf or i will get ur name
baby ur the only love in my heart compound
i will cherish each and every moment that i have found
every thing of u is quite perfect
thank god i have found that gift of god sent
hahahahaha is all over now................. ok so here is another one for my XGf
unfaithful day that one particular day
a guy name kai destroyed the clay
the clay of relationship with Emy the girl he loved
and never finish into beautiful ideas they once captured of
clay was wet with all his tears while emy just left without ani queries
for kai sat alone in his dark and shattered world
feeling the bitterness of the cold lonliness
he now realise how warm emy was
but emy was reluctant to spread her warm coz she likes to keep it to her own
the clay is still spinning is still undone
kai has move on with another project and the clay is left there spinning
and emy i guess too have move on to another guy
a guy name kai destroyed the clay
the clay of relationship with Emy the girl he loved
and never finish into beautiful ideas they once captured of
clay was wet with all his tears while emy just left without ani queries
for kai sat alone in his dark and shattered world
feeling the bitterness of the cold lonliness
he now realise how warm emy was
but emy was reluctant to spread her warm coz she likes to keep it to her own
the clay is still spinning is still undone
kai has move on with another project and the clay is left there spinning
and emy i guess too have move on to another guy
Ok ppl these are alll originals ok. No copy cat, no forwarded stuff which i sometimes find it irritating when is too common. hahhaahahhah ok ppl thanks for reading ah.
wah ok babe wah sudah tak sedih lagi
heran tak heran
goyang tak goyang
perempuan banyak lagi
yang aku boleh tikam
hahahahahok dats lame......
goyang tak goyang
perempuan banyak lagi
yang aku boleh tikam
SHOPPING shopping Shopping
Morning Woke up around 10.
Mum Making so much noise until bui tahan have to wake up.
watched TV till like 12 while waiting for the clothes to finish washing.
Hang up the clothes went to bathe had my Lunch cum breakfast and i left for ORCHARD.
AT ORCHARD
Met up with GRace Pam and Fuad to buy Lucky Draw Prizes.
went to Wheelock place to get IPOD mini green and a Ipod SHuffle.........eeeeee how i wish i can bring back.
after dat went to pacific Plaza to get the beauty box make over package, Fossil watches and Voucher and addidas $100 voucher.Hmmm seriusly i felt like we are a bunch of real rich kids ah going in and out of the shops and playing around at the shops like we are so rich ah. Subsequently, we went to shaw house coz my ever lovely Grace wanted a drink. so we went and along the way, Grace went to the fcuk area to look at the sale. Hmmm and i as usual cranky, took a piece of blouse and action action to like see whether i suit in it. Fuad and Pam were like arghhhh kai stop it dats so embarassing. Ok went up to shaw house grab a seat, dan i met two of my former colleagues. Derrick and the other one i forget his name ah. This two twins use to work with me at the HP shop ah now working at HP ah hehehehehe ok the First HP = handphone the second HP= Hewlett Packard. Hmmm been a long time i saw them lucky they still reconized me though i was in contacts.
Later, we went to CK tang wanted to purchase the product we listed but in the end we felt it was too Expensive so we decided to get most of our stuff at Lucky Plaza.
Frankly Speaking i hate lucky plaza especially the electronics stores. They act macam like they real big buisness man and dat the service they give are like Worst dan ah bengs in Hp shops. Ok but i notice that once grace Steps into the shop, all the Freaking uncles will like approach her and say "hi may i help you?" which i think she puts a deaf ear to it coz she dont bother to talk to them.Ani way wanted to buy gameboy advance SP but felt not worth it. wanted to buy DVD player none of them nice. wanted to buy discman but is worthless and expensive so we decide to skip everything and go Takashimaya. At the same time, the watch shows 4.20, hahahha which is i am late for an appointment with one of my old school mates. we were suppose to meet at 4 but yah i told her i wil be abit late and she waited for me till like 5 plus ah which i was like PAISEH to the max.Ok this one, the next paragraph i will continue. Ani way so went to Taka, bought DVD player, Taka Vouchers, Sigg Bottles and yah dat was all. we bought. Later Grace Bro fetch me to Dhoby Ghaut MRT station. THanks Grace and GRACE Bro........
Took a cab down to yishun, after dat go Jamming. As usual nowadays, we jam very tight as in Music fast loud no nonsenese straight in ur face. is more energetic and powerful hahahah i should say.After jamming went to buy drinks at the MAMA store, the guy ask us to help him transfer money into his friends account. We were like stunned, Super Stunned. Dan he gave us like $400 cash and his ATM card and his pin to us and ask us to deposit money into another account. So we were like yah super stunned, dan one of my frd ask him y he like trust us dan he say coz he and his frds dunno how to deposit the money so he ask us to do but with the accompany with his friends all which is onli two ah. While holding the money , i was liek tellling my friends we can easily run away with the money. Is $400 cold hard cash in your possesion, but we did not have either the guts or the attidude to do such stuff. Once we reached the deposit machine, i tot one of his friends on how to use it and he was so happy. after dat he left and nandiri nandiri was the only thing he could say. after dat we went home and i too went home and wrote all this words ok not wrpte but type all these words. Hahahahah i cant believe that i have written it for like hmmm 4 days already.....ok dats cool hope to write the next day. See ya around
Mum Making so much noise until bui tahan have to wake up.
watched TV till like 12 while waiting for the clothes to finish washing.
Hang up the clothes went to bathe had my Lunch cum breakfast and i left for ORCHARD.
AT ORCHARD
Met up with GRace Pam and Fuad to buy Lucky Draw Prizes.
went to Wheelock place to get IPOD mini green and a Ipod SHuffle.........eeeeee how i wish i can bring back.
after dat went to pacific Plaza to get the beauty box make over package, Fossil watches and Voucher and addidas $100 voucher.Hmmm seriusly i felt like we are a bunch of real rich kids ah going in and out of the shops and playing around at the shops like we are so rich ah. Subsequently, we went to shaw house coz my ever lovely Grace wanted a drink. so we went and along the way, Grace went to the fcuk area to look at the sale. Hmmm and i as usual cranky, took a piece of blouse and action action to like see whether i suit in it. Fuad and Pam were like arghhhh kai stop it dats so embarassing. Ok went up to shaw house grab a seat, dan i met two of my former colleagues. Derrick and the other one i forget his name ah. This two twins use to work with me at the HP shop ah now working at HP ah hehehehehe ok the First HP = handphone the second HP= Hewlett Packard. Hmmm been a long time i saw them lucky they still reconized me though i was in contacts.
Later, we went to CK tang wanted to purchase the product we listed but in the end we felt it was too Expensive so we decided to get most of our stuff at Lucky Plaza.
Frankly Speaking i hate lucky plaza especially the electronics stores. They act macam like they real big buisness man and dat the service they give are like Worst dan ah bengs in Hp shops. Ok but i notice that once grace Steps into the shop, all the Freaking uncles will like approach her and say "hi may i help you?" which i think she puts a deaf ear to it coz she dont bother to talk to them.Ani way wanted to buy gameboy advance SP but felt not worth it. wanted to buy DVD player none of them nice. wanted to buy discman but is worthless and expensive so we decide to skip everything and go Takashimaya. At the same time, the watch shows 4.20, hahahha which is i am late for an appointment with one of my old school mates. we were suppose to meet at 4 but yah i told her i wil be abit late and she waited for me till like 5 plus ah which i was like PAISEH to the max.Ok this one, the next paragraph i will continue. Ani way so went to Taka, bought DVD player, Taka Vouchers, Sigg Bottles and yah dat was all. we bought. Later Grace Bro fetch me to Dhoby Ghaut MRT station. THanks Grace and GRACE Bro........
Back to the appointment with my old skool mate
Her name is jessica, she wanted to meet up with me At raffles place today hmmm i dunno for wat.Ani way suppose to meet at 4 dan after dat when shopping till forget time. Ok i left Dhoby Ghaut where i took the train at 5. when i reached City hall, she call mi say forget it ah some other time i was like realli bit piss off ah but actualli is also my fault ah.Ok so i had no where to go in the end, went to my bro work place which was at Liang Court. ANi way i have been hearing lots about this new staff her name is Sara and like yah everyone is mentioning her name so i decided to go and take a look at myself ah. Ok 1st impression typical malay girl close to minah but not realli up there yet ah. When i reached there i saw my old customers, hahahhah they still even remember my name clearly, wah i was like touched ah but since i am no more working i cant entertain them, so sara took over. and it was totally attrocious. No customer service at all, also like so bo chap kinda of attidude.Ok ani way i chilled out there till like 8 coz i ordered the pizza and it took like 1 hr and 30 mins to arrive freaking hungry and piss off......but ani way yah so i pay dan i ate like half of each dan i ciao already.Took a cab down to yishun, after dat go Jamming. As usual nowadays, we jam very tight as in Music fast loud no nonsenese straight in ur face. is more energetic and powerful hahahah i should say.After jamming went to buy drinks at the MAMA store, the guy ask us to help him transfer money into his friends account. We were like stunned, Super Stunned. Dan he gave us like $400 cash and his ATM card and his pin to us and ask us to deposit money into another account. So we were like yah super stunned, dan one of my frd ask him y he like trust us dan he say coz he and his frds dunno how to deposit the money so he ask us to do but with the accompany with his friends all which is onli two ah. While holding the money , i was liek tellling my friends we can easily run away with the money. Is $400 cold hard cash in your possesion, but we did not have either the guts or the attidude to do such stuff. Once we reached the deposit machine, i tot one of his friends on how to use it and he was so happy. after dat he left and nandiri nandiri was the only thing he could say. after dat we went home and i too went home and wrote all this words ok not wrpte but type all these words. Hahahahah i cant believe that i have written it for like hmmm 4 days already.....ok dats cool hope to write the next day. See ya around
HARDCORE FOR LIFE FROM THE CRADLE TO THE GRAVE
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Getting OVer and OVer and over.....
started off the day with a super early wake up........had to bring my AH gonG to PolyCLinic ah.
Went there for aH goNG Blood Test.
First Time seeing my Ah gong Squirm when the needle was inserted into his skin hehehheehhehe.Normally he will brag about his past history but when i see him squirm, i wonder is he for real or fiction. Any way, after collecting samples of Blood, had to wait for his ECG dont ask me what is that, but i know is checking the heart beat pattern.Upon completion went to coffeeshop to eat.
I wanted to eat Prata, dunno y but the temptation of indian food like Prata and Thosai is in my desire. Ani way i found a place to sit, so i grab the place, while my Ah Gong go and order his food. He ask me wat to eat i said wait first, than the next thing i know he order for me Nasi Lemak. Haiz.......although the nasi lemak is one my fav, i didnt feel like eating but i had no choice food ordered came and was infront of me. To vent my frustration, i decided to finish the Nasi Lemak ASAP. Hhahah i noe is pretty petty but yah i need to pamper myself too with different emotions.Went back home
Reached home, on my PC manage to find my friends where we did netmeeting ah.......is been a super long time we netmeet but it was great. One of them was in japan, the other was in Manchester, haiz LuckY bastards. Thereafter, went to bathe, wank , soap, clean myself hahaahaah ok see which one is fake hahhahah dan after dat left home for my Grandma House.
On the way to my grandma house
on the trains, crowded as usual, caught a few sights of pretty ladies, but today was a clean day ah. As in i didn't see any mats around ah.....maybe all busy being vacummed ahhahahah. ok yah dan at Raffles Place , i saw this malay girl with a malay boy. MalayBoy very super young macam like sec 2 with studded belt, tapered levis imitation pants and the Spikey hair. Malay girl wearing a super mini denim skirt, with heels like 3 inch, wears a denim coat over a pink tee top. It caught My attention, coz of the mini skirt. Ok girls call us Wolfs , chi ko peh, buaya wat ever, but aniway i was like wondering y would a girl at a young age wanna wear like that. Ok if u wanna go clubbing i mean by all means wear wat ever u want but this is like broadday light in the afternoon. Ani way i smiled at her but she dont smiled back. i was like ok wat ever u young girl. As some of u all noe i wear mini skirts too at gigs. I noe how it feels to be stared at, pratically the whole train was like looking at her and her mini skirt, so i did wat i did not want to feel when i was wearing the skirt so i smiled at her and she was like act TAO. ani way yah it was onli one stop, My grandma house is at Tanjong Pagar so i alighted. When i was out of the trains, certain things run in my mind. below are the list of things dat came to mind
Meeting my XXGF
how i feel before meeting her?
Met her on Anak Melayu....ok kental, dan she was selling valentine flowers so i decided to be the middle man tot i can earn some cash here and there. So got an order from one of my Friend. Last Minute, Valentine day on Monday, Saturday he tell me dont want. i was like What THE HELL.....so i had no choice i just bought from her. When she met me on sunday, she saw me and got attracted to me. I dunno y but yah dats wat i noe so after i got the flowers , the following day i gave to a girl that i quite like in class but there was no improvement.Ani way, after the sunday we start to message and call. On saturday, something happen and we were together.so thats how it started and it only lasted for one month.
Any way reason to meet her was to do a transfer of ownership from mine to hers. Ok i am stupid ah open line with her while we were together ah. Ok so we met transferred the line we decided to have dinner together. Thats where she talk about her relationship while i shared mine. Upon hearing Her Stories i was insipired, cause i mean like yah she was the main role model for me after breaking up with my XGF. When she heard i got GF and i told her i broke off already, she questioned me whether i was the one initiated the break which she was expecting a yes from me. Overall i was quite proud sharing some off our stuffs together like she only goes out with Chinese guy and i am like the exceptional one coz i am a malay. Secondly, i am like the youngest BF that she ever had......hahah i am like quite proud ah.
Overall today was an insipiring day for me after i heard my XXGF stories. I too forgot all about my XGF and felt much better and more livelier. Any way Thanks to all My friends whom shown concern towards me and also gave me encouragement. Henceforth, now being single, hehehehehe hunting Period has Began hahahahhah and Flirting is my forte ahhahahaha
On the way to my grandma house
on the trains, crowded as usual, caught a few sights of pretty ladies, but today was a clean day ah. As in i didn't see any mats around ah.....maybe all busy being vacummed ahhahahah. ok yah dan at Raffles Place , i saw this malay girl with a malay boy. MalayBoy very super young macam like sec 2 with studded belt, tapered levis imitation pants and the Spikey hair. Malay girl wearing a super mini denim skirt, with heels like 3 inch, wears a denim coat over a pink tee top. It caught My attention, coz of the mini skirt. Ok girls call us Wolfs , chi ko peh, buaya wat ever, but aniway i was like wondering y would a girl at a young age wanna wear like that. Ok if u wanna go clubbing i mean by all means wear wat ever u want but this is like broadday light in the afternoon. Ani way i smiled at her but she dont smiled back. i was like ok wat ever u young girl. As some of u all noe i wear mini skirts too at gigs. I noe how it feels to be stared at, pratically the whole train was like looking at her and her mini skirt, so i did wat i did not want to feel when i was wearing the skirt so i smiled at her and she was like act TAO. ani way yah it was onli one stop, My grandma house is at Tanjong Pagar so i alighted. When i was out of the trains, certain things run in my mind. below are the list of things dat came to mind
- Whats with the mini skirt in broad day light?
- Minah Prostitue?
- Whats with the guy motive of going out with her?
- Will my XGF be turn into this?
- Whats she wearing underneath?( hahahahahah hahahhaha) Joking ah!
Meeting my XXGF
how i feel before meeting her?
- nervous
- excited
- tense
- shame
Met her on Anak Melayu....ok kental, dan she was selling valentine flowers so i decided to be the middle man tot i can earn some cash here and there. So got an order from one of my Friend. Last Minute, Valentine day on Monday, Saturday he tell me dont want. i was like What THE HELL.....so i had no choice i just bought from her. When she met me on sunday, she saw me and got attracted to me. I dunno y but yah dats wat i noe so after i got the flowers , the following day i gave to a girl that i quite like in class but there was no improvement.Ani way, after the sunday we start to message and call. On saturday, something happen and we were together.so thats how it started and it only lasted for one month.
Any way reason to meet her was to do a transfer of ownership from mine to hers. Ok i am stupid ah open line with her while we were together ah. Ok so we met transferred the line we decided to have dinner together. Thats where she talk about her relationship while i shared mine. Upon hearing Her Stories i was insipired, cause i mean like yah she was the main role model for me after breaking up with my XGF. When she heard i got GF and i told her i broke off already, she questioned me whether i was the one initiated the break which she was expecting a yes from me. Overall i was quite proud sharing some off our stuffs together like she only goes out with Chinese guy and i am like the exceptional one coz i am a malay. Secondly, i am like the youngest BF that she ever had......hahah i am like quite proud ah.
Overall today was an insipiring day for me after i heard my XXGF stories. I too forgot all about my XGF and felt much better and more livelier. Any way Thanks to all My friends whom shown concern towards me and also gave me encouragement. Henceforth, now being single, hehehehehe hunting Period has Began hahahahhah and Flirting is my forte ahhahahaha
HUNTING AND FLIRTING THATS ALL I WIL BE THINKING
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Wat HavE i DonE ToDay
10.30am Woke Up
11.00am Breakfast at Coffeeshop with Parents and AH GonG
12.00pm Walk back home with AH GonG
12.45pm Reach Home
12.50pm Left for "PRAYERS"
1.15pm Reached Woodlands MRT
1.30pm Bought Tickets for Spongebob Square Pants
1.45pm Message two ladies at the same time when to timezone
2.30pm Show starts
4.30pm Show ends rush back home
5.00pm Work on the Bicycle
7.00pm Finish on the bike
7.45pm Prepared my 1st Blog post
8.30pm Dinner
9.00pm Watch TV
10.00pm Auntie came Use Internet
10.30pm Auntie go back
11.00pm Fold a week supplies of clean linen
12.00pm Finish folding
Now preparing my 2nd Post.....
any way today i manage to distract myself instead of thinking of my XGF, i msg one of my friends whom i will always remember hehehehheh is a she btw.....thanks alot.....
Breakfast was two prata egg one kosong and 1/4 of my Ah gong Mee Hoon Goreng....
walking to and fro with my Ah gong to the coffeeshop is quite irritating though he is old but with his brag to my aunties which are his daughters saying he climb the stairs from 5th floor till 8th Floor which i am staying at that level makes me even more frustrating. wants to show off that he is still healthy and fit........
subsequently did not have the faith to go for my prayers so i decided to watch a movie which i have been wanting to with my XGF but she says she dont like going to Movies ok......but ani way dats over i can go with ani one ani time not a prob hahahahah......and yah went to GV at My house here no nice show.....so went to Woodlands. Dam i should have watch spanglish instead of Spongebob Square Pants.....adam sandler is one of the character....but ani way yah while waiting for time to be killed i walked around the Shopping center. I saw many irritating acts so here is the list
cant believe i am doing this....writing my blog...hope i can continue writing it everyday......
ok back to where i stop after the show rush back home had my lunch. Lunch was Nasi Goreng prepared by Chef Daddy my dad ahhahaah Chef daddy....lame name....dan we started to work on my bicycle.
My bicycle have been untouched for months after it had an accident all thanks to my second bro.......fell down while trying to avoid a small kid and the bicycle flew on to the road and was ran over by a car.....i repeat the bicycle flew and was ran over by the car not my bro......my bro manage to jump out i also dunno how......
ani way lucky the damages was not serius but it made the whole bike unridable ahahahahaha in the end we save the bike and it was out of harm hahhahaah sound like i am a surgeon ah..........
Auntie came use internet check the Ntuc Resort prices. Wanted to book the rooms, so ask mi to do wah lau dam ma fan. Check the prices and also saw the package thought could take advantage of the offer but is all taken up so there they, my mom and my auntie, start thier complaining which is irritating and piss mi off again........after that they decided not to do it online and my auntie left the house......
Later my mom starts nagging at me again. Asking me to fold the clothes which are still not folded for the whole week....had no choice so i fold the clothes while folding my mom watching TV ask mi to do another task i was like so freaking FREAking piss off i told HEr" hello! i Folding CLoThes Go and do yourself ah" than she kuai kuai no choice go and do ah hahahhaha
sorry mom but yah you make mi no choice but to react to u like that......
after folding someone called.......it was my XXGF hahahhaha
ani way i have been expecting her call coz we are going to change the ownership of the line that i use to subscribe for her when we were together.....stupid move silly move but luckily is two ears already and she did not made any trouble for me.......ani way tmr we are meeting up hehehhe kinda a nervous meeting up with someone u loved sometimes i like the feeling sometimes i dont but like wat i always do go with the flow.........ok ok ok
dats the end of wats happening in my life for today.....hope to see ya the next day Ciao........
11.00am Breakfast at Coffeeshop with Parents and AH GonG
12.00pm Walk back home with AH GonG
12.45pm Reach Home
12.50pm Left for "PRAYERS"
1.15pm Reached Woodlands MRT
1.30pm Bought Tickets for Spongebob Square Pants
1.45pm Message two ladies at the same time when to timezone
2.30pm Show starts
4.30pm Show ends rush back home
5.00pm Work on the Bicycle
7.00pm Finish on the bike
7.45pm Prepared my 1st Blog post
8.30pm Dinner
9.00pm Watch TV
10.00pm Auntie came Use Internet
10.30pm Auntie go back
11.00pm Fold a week supplies of clean linen
12.00pm Finish folding
Now preparing my 2nd Post.....
any way today i manage to distract myself instead of thinking of my XGF, i msg one of my friends whom i will always remember hehehehheh is a she btw.....thanks alot.....
Breakfast was two prata egg one kosong and 1/4 of my Ah gong Mee Hoon Goreng....
walking to and fro with my Ah gong to the coffeeshop is quite irritating though he is old but with his brag to my aunties which are his daughters saying he climb the stairs from 5th floor till 8th Floor which i am staying at that level makes me even more frustrating. wants to show off that he is still healthy and fit........
subsequently did not have the faith to go for my prayers so i decided to watch a movie which i have been wanting to with my XGF but she says she dont like going to Movies ok......but ani way dats over i can go with ani one ani time not a prob hahahahah......and yah went to GV at My house here no nice show.....so went to Woodlands. Dam i should have watch spanglish instead of Spongebob Square Pants.....adam sandler is one of the character....but ani way yah while waiting for time to be killed i walked around the Shopping center. I saw many irritating acts so here is the list
- ITE girls skirt are shorter and smaller than normal
- Malay guys as in MATS having tatoos, tiams, walking with hands swinging (esp those using chinese ink)
- Secondary school students wearing a blouse over just to enter Arcade
- Students with uniforms in Arcades
- UnderAge smoking (Freaking pisses me off esp when they exhale the smoke and it gets into ur face)
- ITE Student going out with Sec1 Sec2 girls( like wat the hell...onli interested in earning thier virgins)
- Find a new GF
- Have more Money
- Get a new handphone
- Smack the Mats esp with those with Tiams
- Smack the small kids who are smoking macam like nothing is wrong
- Be more handsome
- Be more carefree
- Find a job
- Be in love
cant believe i am doing this....writing my blog...hope i can continue writing it everyday......
ok back to where i stop after the show rush back home had my lunch. Lunch was Nasi Goreng prepared by Chef Daddy my dad ahhahaah Chef daddy....lame name....dan we started to work on my bicycle.
My bicycle have been untouched for months after it had an accident all thanks to my second bro.......fell down while trying to avoid a small kid and the bicycle flew on to the road and was ran over by a car.....i repeat the bicycle flew and was ran over by the car not my bro......my bro manage to jump out i also dunno how......
ani way lucky the damages was not serius but it made the whole bike unridable ahahahahaha in the end we save the bike and it was out of harm hahhahaah sound like i am a surgeon ah..........
Auntie came use internet check the Ntuc Resort prices. Wanted to book the rooms, so ask mi to do wah lau dam ma fan. Check the prices and also saw the package thought could take advantage of the offer but is all taken up so there they, my mom and my auntie, start thier complaining which is irritating and piss mi off again........after that they decided not to do it online and my auntie left the house......
Later my mom starts nagging at me again. Asking me to fold the clothes which are still not folded for the whole week....had no choice so i fold the clothes while folding my mom watching TV ask mi to do another task i was like so freaking FREAking piss off i told HEr" hello! i Folding CLoThes Go and do yourself ah" than she kuai kuai no choice go and do ah hahahhaha
sorry mom but yah you make mi no choice but to react to u like that......
after folding someone called.......it was my XXGF hahahhaha
ani way i have been expecting her call coz we are going to change the ownership of the line that i use to subscribe for her when we were together.....stupid move silly move but luckily is two ears already and she did not made any trouble for me.......ani way tmr we are meeting up hehehhe kinda a nervous meeting up with someone u loved sometimes i like the feeling sometimes i dont but like wat i always do go with the flow.........ok ok ok
dats the end of wats happening in my life for today.....hope to see ya the next day Ciao........
Friday, April 01, 2005
Feeeeelings
For the past few days, was emotionally taxing for me even today.
Y? Y? Y?
after breaking up with my GF, i never felt so weak, so emotionally hurt before.
any way, on that day i broke off, i kept hearing emotional songs from the radio to the PC Playlist and even on TV
Songs like One Last Cry which is my Current Favourite, Drive myself Crazy my all time Favourite,
Ghost of You and Me, Purest of Pain, True My XGF favourite song...........and many more.
After Crying for two hours before breaking off with my XGf , it makes me much stronger.
but
I dunno what wrong i have done.
I dunno what have i not done to make her love me.
I dunno why she is treating me this way.
many thing happens for a reason.....
i find that logical but if the answers dont come immediately than is illogical
EMY i LOVE u
which was last time
now i dunno
may you have a good future ahead
Thank you for making me a strong person
thank you for making me love you from the bottom of my heart
thank you for making me understand the meaning of sacrifacing for my love
thank you for making me angry
thank you for being my Gf
Thank You
"i got to put you out of my mind this time, stop living in lies, i have to be strong"
Y? Y? Y?
after breaking up with my GF, i never felt so weak, so emotionally hurt before.
any way, on that day i broke off, i kept hearing emotional songs from the radio to the PC Playlist and even on TV
Songs like One Last Cry which is my Current Favourite, Drive myself Crazy my all time Favourite,
Ghost of You and Me, Purest of Pain, True My XGF favourite song...........and many more.
After Crying for two hours before breaking off with my XGf , it makes me much stronger.
but
I dunno what wrong i have done.
I dunno what have i not done to make her love me.
I dunno why she is treating me this way.
many thing happens for a reason.....
i find that logical but if the answers dont come immediately than is illogical
EMY i LOVE u
which was last time
now i dunno
may you have a good future ahead
Thank you for making me a strong person
thank you for making me love you from the bottom of my heart
thank you for making me understand the meaning of sacrifacing for my love
thank you for making me angry
thank you for being my Gf
Thank You
"i got to put you out of my mind this time, stop living in lies, i have to be strong"
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