thanks guys for checking my blog out.......

u noe after finding out that ppl do still check my blog out i feel honourd. I guess i shall pull up my socks higher and make the effort to update my blog often.

Past few days i was chosen to represent the class to share with transport Specs to be, the supply specs, my instructors and the commanders of ALTI and STC fyi both are like LTC. During my speech i made a mistake. i was suppose to read a pat on the back but i got a lazy tongue and i accidently said a pat on the black. That phrase brought the whole dining hall into laughther. It was really embarassing though to made such a mistake infront of high Ranking officers.

Any way just found out my posting recently and yes i am posted to Sembawang camp. I guess is because of the history that my dad used to be in that camp aka TERROR CAMP due to is tough training regime. i feel that though is really great to be posted to that camp, i just dont like the assumption and the expectation that my instructors have on me. Is really great to see the people around me smiling cause is me who is assign to this camp and who will be working closely with but the expectations thay have on me, i am just afriad i might not be able to meet to thier expectations and will disappoint them.

hmm other than that i am having lots of mood swings for the pass few days or weeks ah i just dunno y i am experincing such setbacks ah which i kinda hate ah. I just find ppl around me just pure irritating ah sometimes, my parents, my brothers, my friends, and also i find myself irritating. though my friends, i might find u irritating is not that u done something wrong but is just dat i feel all of a sudden an irritation. I just dont know wats the main cause of it nevertherless dont worry i will still take u as my frds.

Any way lets see wat upcoming events i will be heading to........
Tues----->GiG XyX will be performing together with USA band
Wed-----> Zouk is been a long time since i last step in, wanna check it out & also a girl there
Thurs --->end of course activity held outside camp is some BBQ thingy at East coast Park
Fri ------->Good Friday might be dropping by school to hang out with Freshmen Orientation camp hahahha yes i have been reprimanded to like not go back there and move on with life ah but too bad i just cant resist the temptation of meeting old friends ah. But the only problem for this day would be DJ Tiesto who is coming down to MOS. HHAHHA though i am not a really big fan of trance i just like his music and yes my Army friends are heading down hehheehe so should i go skool or club i dunno........

lastly i would like to say a big thank u to all my friends who hav been reading my blog all this while and may ue be bless with all the lovely and great love and care from the people that u love.

haiz just missing school days

i just browsed my friends photos and when i see his photos taken around school, it really brought back lots of memories of my school days. From the 1st day i went to Temasek Poly and made a milestone for myself hahhaha (wah so the beh paiseh) i really enjoyed myself during my 3 years stint there. Though there were a few hiccups here and there, i managed to overcome it during the 3 years. I just wish time can be rewind and i just run back to the past and just enjoy myself and the camps entertaining campus and the freshmens with my psychotic eccentric ideas just to make sure everyone feels good. Though i might not feel good in the end, at least i know i have made a difference in people's life. Haiz now the only people i have to entertain are people who are so lifeless emotional empty, why i say this cause everyone in camp is just wasting time and making sure that whatever task assign to them is done just to kill time. I am already in the 6th month in the Slavery and i begin to ask myself what is in there that would benefit me. I guess the only beneficial that the Slavery can provide is killing boredom. I seriously feel tired just waiting around and expecting things to happen.Why i cant make things happen is because there it so many higher authorities who are like in thier own world. Just because they have tons and tons of experience they rule the world.

Ever since wednesday night i got back from the place, i just feel shitty sitting in the pathetic class doing shit nothing and making shitty dreams in the afternoon like what the hell....i was too pissed off i guess i got really sick and yah i took two days MC. And since than my mood is swinging, one moment i can all be nice the next moment something furious is bothering me and i feel like blasting out and most of the time it happen at home. Had an outing with my kakis....ahmad, yan, nazmi, muhsin and fir.....hahahah most of us were in no mood. 3 of us me, ahmad and yan were like bothered by something but we just kept quiet and Nazmi and Mushin the bros tried thier very best to lighten the group. In the end we all had a great night, we all ended the night by watching Ultra violet at the new cathy which was like WOAH awesome and chic. we than became cam whores taking photos most of the time. Any way i have learnt a thing, if things are not going well for my friend i shall just grab famous amous choc cookies and ask him to consume it. That will make him lighter and be himself again.

overall i just have to say currently i just feel shitty about myself and the place where i am at. Am i going to turn into a heartless lifeless boring human during my these two years haiz....i really dunno.......no wonder i notice all my seniors are like not smiling as much as there use to be while in school i guess all thanks to the Slavery.

emotionally empty, boredom, moody, quiet, lifeless dats wat i am feeling................