fish in the pond pondering about the pond

it was nice to be with you
it was great doing things together
it was nice to have your friends around
but when the time strike 11 and u chase me home
like a stray little dog
unwanted, so not needed
no sms from you
no call from you
no coaxing?
i need coaxing from you
cause from the day i was born i had no such privilege
you had your fair deal of pampering
y is it so difficult

work today sucks, left work at 5++
supposingly to wait for the trainees who are on exercise to head back to camp
return stores into my storeroom then i can leave but i didn't
y cause i cant wait to meet my GF
when they returned, superiors looking for me
i wasnt in camp and they got pissed off.
My OC is thinking of giving me 7 extra for going off.
which makes me wonder
when one does so many things alone for the benefit of others
praise and appreciation is not given
when one does one mistake
every deserving punishment in the book must be read out
haiz NS really sucks.....
7 more months and counting......