the end of an environment and the beginning of a new

Sat was a great day help out TPSU sub comm training camp and yah still haven lost the grooves that i had during the FOC. aniway after the whole event i kinda think of the effect of having me and losing me.
the good thing was whenever i was around , the atmosphere is definately great but when i leave who will take over me and how is things going to be fun. Ok i am not trying to say i am indispansable but is kinda true......
ok enugh of all the self esteem thingy
after the camp i joined in the gang at town. The gang consisted Ahmad, Fir, Naz, HXC muhsin, yan N the GF(initially but in the end she went back home and i did not manage to catch a glimspe of her) ani way yah it was realli great getting together and listening to thier blabbering thier NS stuff but it was still fruitful eventually. ani way met them at orchard building dan from there headed to plaza Singa to catch the Loo and also Yan Bought MAcDonald and yah Naz and Muhsin Left for home while the 3 of us continued our journey from plaza Sing al the way to Esplanade where we all took our respective night rider back home......it was realli fun yah and though it was tiring i guess it did not bothered me.

Sunday
Last day of work and had to work with the Siao Cha Bo for the last time. Though it was like 10 hours of endurance i guess i pass it with high flying colours hehehehe coz it felt like it was 20 hours working with her.....after work went home straight and yah slack and slack

today
slacking again later heading to MEdiaCorp to support the Singer and have to wear red colour dat looks so the EEEE ani way good luck to him later on yah.......

btw these are a few punk rock emo songs that reminded me of those days.......

DO YOUR FEET HURT
can i call you sweetheart or even baby doll? if i had your number, you'd be getting a phone call can i leave you a message on your machine? letting you know that you're the bomb and you blew up on me are you anxious to see me after your next class? do you care when i tell you step around that broken glass? can i see you after you get out of school? i won't even mind if you treat me cruel take a ride on my vespa, i'll take you home i'll climb up to your window and read you a poem i know that you believe in the one true god above and that's why you're waiting for your one and only love do your feet hurt? did you fall from heaven? 'cause you've been running through my mind all day my mind don't mind i don't know what to say or do i can't eat when i'm with you goodnight sweetheart i gotta go and you won't come to my next show

MOVE TO BREMERTON
when i meet a special girl she always lives somewhere else in the world don't want to call her on the phone wanna talk to her when i'm at home drop out of school and run away quit your job, you got a place to stay pack your bags and hitch a ride bremerton's a good place to reside move to bremerton - we'll hang out move to bremerton - we'll go all out move to bremerton - will you be mine? (move to bremerton til' the end of time) i'll change the street signs you drive down so you end up in my town i'll re-draw the maps all one by one so they all lead to bremerton drop out of school and run away quit your job, you got a place to stay pack your bags and hitch a ride bremerton's a good place to reside if you cut your hair and bleach it too you gotta know that i'll have a crush on you i'm a sucker for a short haired girl with a pretty smile she gotz to have ideas, yeah, and she gotz to have style

CHRISTALENA
cristalena, ya she's so cool cristalena, she's out of control half the time she don't know where she's at cristalena don't know much about that but you know, and i know cristalena but you know, and i know where i've seen her cristalena, she's in her own world she's always happy as a littly girl cristalen's nice unless she's annoyed cristalena happens to like boys - but not me cristalena, where'd you go? don't even know where you've been cristalena, won't you stay? please don't go away, won't you be my friend?

ani way these songs are from MXPX heheheheh
old skool
taken from LET IT HAPPEN album

thank you

today is a good day.....
got an award today for CCA
finally i feel rewarded for all the shit i been thru
but wait though is did not fill up the nominations form
i guess is not the duty of us to nominate ourself to the award
furthermore all of us had to put in the same extra effort
except some ppl ani way KUDOS to those who put in the effort
to make our office term a marvellous
though they are numerous projects not closed yet
but arghhh heck care dude
coz i noe i have done my best in my area
so the rest is up to someone to clear our mess
hahhahahaa
today i met ahmad and fauzi and nazmi
as usual ahmad as cranky
fauzi as ever kool
and nazmi as ever horny
hehheheh after hearing the
sudah masuk thingy

after dat..............
went to meet up with hannah n muhsin
muhsin looks freaking slim and smaller
and hannah looks ever chirpy
ani way went to the audi met lots of ppl
who knew me
kinda happy dat ppl recognize u
after so long of absence

got my awards and i got quite an arousing cheer
heheheheh
even my parents were happy
dan went on stage to perform i guess the last TP school song that i will be singing
heheheheh it was also a last minute thingy all thanks to safahri for pulling me
yah it was realli fun and enjoyable

had dinner with family
and yah now at home
btw there are a few ppl who i was looking out today in school
there are

Sarah......(from HTM)
Emy hehheheheh u guys must be haiz wat the heck( actualli wanna godeh with her somemore ah)
Stacie my cheerful chirpy VP
Grace my lovely sweetie(but she in Australia)

these ppl are who i miss in skool and i did not get to see them ah

ok how bout ppl i miss and i manage to see them
there are

ALLLLLLL
OF
YOU
WHOM
I
MET

hehhehehehehhehe

ok enugh of bullshit and yes
ahmad i am a gay freak
wanna join mi in a mardi gras gay party in KL
hahahhahah
actualli onli in a hotel ah
i got offer next Sunday
but i am siao
if i were to go

n

tuty

the sweetie

of

NUS

i saw ur pic

and i am mesmerize by it

u

are so beautiful in nature

how i pray

u will be beautiful

in ur heart

speechless

someone msg me today asking me y am i less friendly,
y am i different,
from appearance to my expression and to my feelings y has it changed

to all my friends i guess u all must be wondering y most of my blog post are boring and depressed

let me tell u straight in the face that i am not wat u see
i am not ur entertainer
i am not ur happy go lucky guy
i am never happy
i am lost in direction(no motive in life)
i am not satisfied with wat i have
i am lazy
i am a wanker who wanks 3 times a day
i am a loser in love
i am ugly
i dont have wat u call charisma, charms and looks
i am fat
i am a quiet person
i am not ur love Doctor

i am not ur smart guy with all the brains in the world

i do things to get attention

i am a timid

i fall in love to easily

i am a loser coz i never win ani thing at all

i am a devil not religious at all

there are many more so my please dont see mi as wat i am

if u think i got all the looks and charms and feelings

y do u treat mi like this

u dont even treasure mi

wat a week.....is marvellous

First of all i was able to get kinky with two ladies back to back heheheh want to know more call mi but i am not going to post any of the activities in here hehehehe furthermore i was being checked out by a girl whom i told u guys previously in my post dat i regretted not asking her name and her number.

ani way since i have learnt from my mistake today i served this two ladies both of them were friends and yah one of them is like extremely gorgeous and yah she wore tudong hehehhehe her name was super cute and i kept giggling at her name. i could not take it any more i had to apologize to them about me giggling at her name because it was extremely cute. ani way yah after dat when she was about to leave i took the initiative to ask her friends name and yah in the end she too ask for my name hehheheheh...... after work i msg the cute name girl Hp heheheheh u guys must be wondering how i got her number hehehehh yah all thanks to the application form hehhehehe coz she has to input her upgrading number and yah TADA!.......

and yah btw both of them are like one year younger dan me, both of them in NUS heheheh smart girls my fetish hehheheh the cute name girl is majoring in political science while the other is majoring psychology heheheh my oh my guess i have a soft sopt for smart girls.....ani way when i msg them they were not shocked or stunned at all hehheheh guess she is a very open and friendly lady i guess.....hhehehe but when i saw her IC though she may not look attractive to some one u guys but to mi she is geeky lovely hahahhaahah i dunno how to explain dat but yah thats the best way to explain and describe about her. Haiz......this few days have been a marvellously great period of time even my X & XXgf are looking for my companion u see la....

but the after effect will be
High HP bill
coz number of sms will shoot up to like thousand
hahahhaha

wO Hui Lai Le.....

hellO ppl is been days i last updated my blog ani way i guess u guys never miss out ani thing interesting of my life. Btw NatioNal day was a bOred.......and yah the following was boring too until on friday while i was working at Bukit batok. There was this delicious busty babe approached and yah she like flirted with me commented about my hair and yah and yah we were literally talking about ourself but the fuck up thing was that in the end when she reacehed out her hand to shake mine, i never ask her name and her contact number.

ani way it was the 2nd time dat i regretted not doing something like that. The 1st was during CCN day when i was with ahmad and we met this super dam duper cute girl sitting at the engineering staircase my she was super cute in her pink bottom haiz.....and she even waved at me but fuck i did not go an approached her and say hi to her haiz kai sleng ah

arghhhhhhh fuck ah i just wrote alot of stuff and in the end i lost my post coz i got DC from my internet ani way if u wanna noe more do feel free to call mi or msg me ah......hehehehehh take care ah ciao

exploration of once sexuality

i dunno but yah i think i am becoming more homosexual
maybe is a disease
maybe is a trend
maybe is just me trying
to get out of hand
shall i try or shall i not

just had a request to be someones BF
and he wants me to be his BF
dunno whether i should
or whether i shouldnt
guess is all up to me to choose
the idea of holding hands of the same sex thrills me sometimes
but i guess i need to get out of this comfort zone and be not normal
but many things are still pondering
like ppl like u reading my blog
will u ever treat me the same again

Now Believe This

just now at work i had my lunch alone as usual
had chicken rice and tea-o
after dat had
9 piece Macnugget meal with fries and Coke
after dat
had two donuts
and jolibeans choc bun

my oh my i today eat alot
and also yah
i am still sad coz she onli msg me once
and no more already

hahhaha
guess i fall to easily....

congrats

congrats first of all to my my Frd Fauzi for getting thru. just came back from anugerah supporting him and yah it was a real feast for mi. hahhaha as u noe being a single desperate pathetic guy i had the opportunity to view all the girls i like to but yah at the moment they are a few people dat are close to my heart but i shall not disclose thier identity. Ani way yah get to meet up with ahmad, rahmad, siti ,and rahmat GF, with tengku, sarip and fauzi's relatives but the only one not there is his ever hot sister. actualli the Gf also hot ah heheheh but yah is his i cant touch hahahaha bet u must be cursing and swearing at me ah Fauzi hahahahahh just kidding ah

aniway today at the studio the seats we sat was amazingly perfect sat behind the judges and u can always see this white tudong girl always at the background ah .......hahahah very the obvious and also the camera man also notice her beauty ah dats y......when there is a need for crowd shot they always wants to shoot her but cant ah coz there is always empty seats around us ah. ani way today all the participants hmmm i should say all lemah lembut but there are few ppl i would like to mention. one of them is andre laksmana an indonesian staying around bukit timah came to my shop to subscribe some starhub service hahahah my wat a small world

the other person is this guy. i forget his name but he sang the amy mastura song and yah he was charismatic and for mi i kinda like him hahhhaha siak ah gay ah but yah i find him handsome and kinda cute with his chirpy and enthu spirit i find him the most outstanding person amoung the participants ah though he got knocked out but yah haiz.......melt siak hahhaahha

aniway before going to anugerah i went shopping with my mom at JB ah
wah lau happy like dunno wat ah
coz i bought myself a new pair of shoes and also a pair of new pants and also a new shirt my goodness i did not know i looked good in the stuff dat i bought was realli satisfied but onli temporarily coz y in my heart i dunno i think i just fall to easily for someone dat now i kinda feel hurt and also sad. haiz now someone else also got hurt ah and dat someone is also my X. Dunno but yah i think i shall not bother her too much but i just told her if she need ani help just call mi dats all. But now i have to make a decision whether to continue with wat i have been doing the past few days or just dont bother
haiz dunno and i shall just be lost
in the name of love

Sorry Guys So many DayS not Updated

I am Back again AFter 3 days of rest i decided i need to updated my blog. ok ani way my Emcee thingy was realli sucky to the max...i received a comment which was like can u please tell the emcee to cut down the number of okies hahhaahha which i think is kinda habit for mi but the sad thing is i was not really very prepared. i did not plan out wat i wanted to say and also yah never realli rehearsed well. ani way 3 hours of dat crap i got paid for like $120 hahahah not bad ah but is kinda freaking low and cheap(not expecting much though).

hmmm wat else happened to mi ah? hmmmm yah i guess most of the time i was running to join the DoDo guys afetr work. the last day when they was in Sg i met up with dem and in the end go back alone haiz dam freaking bored lucky got this cute kind little stony soul accompanied mi. the following day i accompanied the cute kind little stony soul home after her tuition and yah i slip. Wah lau dam malu siak and my pants was like dirt and the shoe was also dirt.but ani way the kind cute soul helped mi out again and i gave her a pack of choc and dats where she turn so cute i feel like giving her more chocs hahahahhaha and after dat she listen to my cock and bull story and yah please ah dont smoke so much k.....

aniway yah n to my Two Friends Good LuCk in ur life and yah may u guys enjoy wat u are enjoying now. Btw just wondering wat are the two girls dat i use to like are doing now ahhahaha is been a long time i since contacted them oh ok u dunno the name ah is Nisa and Emy hahahah these two ah kinda like break my heart but yah is all over......so cant wait for this wed.....going to anugerah to support Fauzi.....Friday, gig at Substation......Sat, charlie and the choc Fac with CuteyStoney......hehheheh and also going in JB maybe on the Wed also to buy my skate shoe......hehhehe

ani way ciao my friends take care and yah

if the world is full of killings dat does not mean u follow the killings too

make a diff in the world by standing against Violence towards people

and encourage love and compassion and

weed for all the live...