just wondering.......

After my dinner i sat down to watch this show on Channel U. The show was about finding your old Lovers n see how they are doing now. It was really a joyous yet teary event for many of us. N when i was watching i drift into my own world n wonder wat it would be if i was still 45 years old single n yah i participated in such a program to find all my all friends n lovers. Haaahahhaha i will surely cry leh......esp to see so many ppl so successful in life with family and kids. Although i dunno wat will happen to me 30years down the road but now as i look back at my memories n i think of my 1st GF dat i had to, the one dat i really love and yet i broke off with her in sec skool till the most recent one. I seriously find myself a failure in loving someone with all my heart. I dunno how n i dunno y but i seriously think i am the one who is the problem with the breakup. Though i have move on with life n forgotten about the incident, but when i think back it just felt that is just happen yesterday n all the remorse n regret i feel is so strong. To all those ppl whom i have loved once or express my love for u in any way i sincerely hope that u will forgive me and may u all have the greatest love n adventure in the upcoming years n even though time has past, events have been memories, in my heart there is still some love for u.......

Love is a strong word

it keeps two ppl together

it helps bring memories

it provides warmth n comfort

it creates joy n laughter

it creates a sense of well being

though i have expressed my words for u

it still lingers in my heart

for wat ever i say is true

times has past

relationships broken

communication gone

ur smile so wide

ur eyes so sparkling

ur hug so warmth

ur kisses so tender

buries deep down

into my heart n brain

whenever i express my love

for u

the cries u made

the pleads u beg

the hurt u suffer

the misery i offered

please forgive me

for i have done wrong

forget about mi

carry on living

while i turn over

into a new leaf

but u were there

once loved

n u will forever be

loved

this mini write up was

for all my Xgfs , future gfs n to my Wife