8th July 2005

today is just a normal freaking boring day. worked till like 9plus dan had dinner with my family. Ani way while working i ask Her y she like seldom msg me and like ask her whether i am in her way with this other guy whom i see is realli interested in her and yah thinks she is the one. So i kinda feel like outkast and yah if i am not needed y give me such hope. She replied me and yah she say she is not getting close to ani one and also yah she is not interested in getting into a relationship.haiz dan dat realli defeats the purpose of me getting close with her i guess she got my hints dat i kinda like her wait is not hint i even confess to her dat i like her.

ani way guess we can only be friends dats all. though i kinda ok with it but yah i feeling kinda sad and lost. at the moment i am kinda looking for someone who dont take mi as a joke and yah is concern about mi. Thats very hard at the moment, how can i find one guess i have to look but haiz time is running out wait am i kinda getting despo to get a girl b4 i get into NS? hmmmm maybe yes or wait or is it i need a companion to replace Emy who was the onli one i ever tot and think of. haiz...

wait i reali dunno wat is must motive in getting a girl ahahhahaah
ani way take care my frds
miss u all
take care