I'M back

ok ladies and gentleman
i am back but is only temporary cause my pc now is half alive so i am kinda lucky that i can take this oppurtunity to spend my time posting a kinda long post. i hope is not too long coz i am just afraid that my pc will just die on mi and TADA......there goes my effort.

ani way i am feeling mixed today, kinda down kinda up also got ah i dunno how to express such feelings but never mind y am i feeling down. Previously i was chasing the Girl her name is Nisa, ok now i am like wondering whats her feeling for me. Though we kinda like call each other dear but hello how many ppl call each other dear and yet not attached to each other. Ok and also like though i am like want to chase her but i am not the old kai ani more i guess. Gone were the days where if i want to write a love poem it can just come out just like that. Gone where the days where sms was heaven for mi where i can just express my feelings for the other party. I am not like who i am now compared to when i was with emy. Ok Since i have mention her name i shall tell u about how is things between mi and her. Ok now we are like kinda like flirting with each other kinda thingy, sexual desires is involve. I went to her house to make out with her and that was like the second time we met face to face. The first time that i met her we smooched each other. It was realli kinda sensational thingy but yah......we are no more a couple but yet we are smooching and making out like what the hell. I also confessed my feelings towards her and also how i miss her and no women in the world right now can replaced her kinda thingy. I dunno but she told me she teared while reading my sms. but the most freaking thing was that day when i make out with her, her BF which she said is not came to pick her up and she started to panic and was like telling mi what happen if he come to ther house kinda thingy and see mi around. She realli panic but yah as a gentleman and soomeone who love her i just calm her down and told her to go off first. when i got home i ask her about her outing with her BF and she told mi is not a BF but her cousin Bestfriend. at first i was puzzled like if that is true than y the panic ok nvm. So i was browsing friendster one day and i saw the guy same guy that picked her up that day at her house and read the testimonial and like what the hell.......is the BF i mean come on y didnt she tell mi the truth ok thats ok.

ani way the making out thingy at her house was a talking session of wat happen between us kinda topic and like whether we could reconcile back. The thing i could not understand was like she say i am too over-protective. I seriously ponder which part of mi is over protective. i mean asking u to inform mi who u with and at where is over protective......Frankly my defination is over protective is.......
not replying msg within the same hour
no going out with GFs
no going to the beach
not allowed to chat with ani guy
before stepping out of house to report to me
before eating seek my permission
everywhere i go u have to be around
not allowed to go home alone
and etc....
i mean like hello i dont such things i need my space u need ur space too but i dont understand her meaning.
She also said she dont like to meet me everyday frankly speaking u are the one who ask mi to come to school. ani way i only agree with her when she say i get jump to conclusion easily. Yes i agree with that but come on if i know what u are doing and than at least i will not conclude easily.
ok pardon my messy crappy paragraphs but yah i am not here to write a composition but to voice out my stuff. so yah if u realli think is realli crappy and not grammartically correct i would like to say thank you for taking the effort to pick out my mistake.